I'm just me

OMG

2011-06-26T21:39:00.000+08:00

OMG...
lama sangat3 dah tak update... bukan ape, my blog and email kene ban..
dont know why.. it has been reported and somewhat was being banned by google account..
what the hell.....

okay then,
sometimes i really really feels like writing.. but, with the feeling that i might says or write something privacy and harmful towards my big family.. i shouold lay low..

there is a lots of thing, events and accidents happening rite now,.... the air is not so suitable for me to write.. it might hurt somebody..

walking for weight loss

2011-01-23T23:23:00.000+08:00

Not a Walk in the Park
Walking is easy: you can do it anywhere, anytime with no special equipment. There's no learning curve and it's something you can incorporate all day long. However, The Mortality and Morbidity Weekly Review featured a study about walking for exercise and found that only 26% of the people in the study walked briskly enough to achieve the intensity level recommended by the U.S. surgeon general. So, how do you know when you're going fast enough? Use the checklist below to make your walking workout more effective.
Your walking checklist:

Pump your arms. Keep your elbows at 90 degrees and swing your arms back and forth in a natural motion to add intensity.
Shorten your stride. In her article "10 Walking Mistakes to Avoid", Wendy Bumgardner says, "All of the power of your walk comes from pushing with the back leg and foot." When you increase your speed, take shorter, quicker steps.
Stand up straight. Are you slumping? Good posture helps you breathe easier and you put less stress on your back, shoulders and neck.
Walk briskly. What is brisk? It means walking fast enough to cover at least 3.5 miles in an hour. To figure it all out, walk a mile and time it. If you make it in 15 minutes or less, you're on the right track.
Monitor your intensity. Pretend as though you're late for an appointment or hurrying to catch a bus. That should be your pace throughout your workout.
Walk long enough. Your walk should be between 30-60 minutes.
Spice things up. How about adding some hills, speed-walking or even jogging to boost intensity? This is no time to stop and smell the roses (although you can enjoy their lovely color as you whisk by).

Walking is an excellent way to meet your cardio needs as long as you work hard enough. A leisurely stroll certainly has its place but, if you're going for weight loss, save the strolls and pick up the pace.

my bro gave me this book.. i dont know.. last year maybe... he got this book for his loyalty to reader's digest.. i guess..... now, I already read this book.. (finally).. i will have to follow the guides.. i wanna get a pedometer..

so, according to this book, i need to be in a really good shape to be healthy.. like i dont know that.. so, what can i do now is to follow the walking programme that have been stated inside.. it should be monitored with good diet plans also.. which is quite hard for me to follow.. as i am as stubborn as a donkey... but, ill have myself check with the diet plan.. i think i will...
i really need to get my head straight towards achieving my goal!! if i want to impress the person that i have a crush rite now, i need to be in a good shape.. healthy.. i will have to.. i got no other choice.. this is the only choice i have... wish me luck peepss!!!

i-city - jan 20,2011

2011-01-22T22:29:00.000+08:00

kami2 samapi juga ke i-city walaupun tak jadi pada hari yang sepatutnya...

kenangan terindah~

2011-01-22T22:14:00.000+08:00

apakah yang menjadi kenangan terindah di dalam hidup saya?? definitely, STUDIO!!!!!!!!! IIUM, Kaed.... gombak....
saya sangat rindukan zaman belajar, where there was not much stress, yes honey... being a working adult is much much more stressful than stress in the studio... staying up late, curi-curi keluar malam2 untuk pegi makan di highway.... pegi karaoke dari kol 10 malam sampai kol 3 pagi.. lepak uptown.. subuh balik uia, semayang dan terus sambung kerja dalam studio.... what a terrific.. amazing experiences in my life.. i will definitely cherish the moments in my whole life.. damn!! i am so very missing my life as a student....

all my friends from studio.. B.URP , class of 2006... i miss u guys so damn much.. u guys were responsible in shaping me rite now.. i mean, personally, mentally.. not physically... ahahahaha.. from the bottom of my heart.. i wish u guys well, happy, successfull and success!!! GANBATTE!!!!!!!
our studio trip to Japan, was absolutely amazing.. i really miss those moments... (start laa nak emoo)

then, august 2006, after a year struggling with project paper... yang akhirnya berjaya dihantar sipi2........ kita semua pon grad!!!!!! yayayyyyyy!!!!!!!!

rasa2nya esok nak pegi uia la... rindu la plak ngan bangunan kaed tuh.... sangat2 rindu ngan nescafe freeze dekat library.. walaupun itu tempat lepak mamat2 foreigners... (cam menyampah je aku) dating sepah2.. eeee.. aku tonyoh2 kang... tapi, aku rindu sangat2 ngan uia!!!!!!!!!

pendek kata...

SAYA RINDU ZAMAN BELAJAR !!! DAN JUGA MY STUDIO LIFE!!!!!!!

if I can trade in something for my past, I am ready to do this again...

Every experience that we have is encoded in our brains. This is certainly true from the day we are born, and many people believe that we also have access to past life experiences. What is the purpose of filing away all that data? Although we are unaware of it, our unconscious dictates many of our life decisions. Our unconscious has access to all of these memories. When we work to bring awareness to the memories that are dictating our decisions, we are able to make conscious choices about our lives.

Source: (Do not remove) Poems about Memories http://www.familyfriendpoems.com/life/memories-poems.asp#ixzz1Bm0iDLZq

Strolling down memory lane

Strolling down memory lane
Where the colors begin to fade.
Strolling down memory lane
Is where I want you to come along.

Strolling down memory lane
is a test of time and mind.
Strolling down memory lane
I won’t be afraid.

Strolling down memory lane
Is not lacking in color.
Strolling down memory lane
Is not a big bummer.

Strolling down memory lane
Not a storm in sight
Strolling down memory lane
is joy without bite.

A memory that I have created in my mind,
Stands the test of time.
Memories are like dream, a reflection of the past.
My memories can kiss my…
Ask me no questions I will tell you no lies.

taran burke

too much expectations

2011-01-20T12:38:00.000+08:00

You expect to much, and because you don't get what you expect, you are disappointed. In life, in parents, in friends, in yourself. In everything in general and nothing in particular.

Life is what YOU make of it. Nothing more and nothing less.

...............................

2011-01-19T12:37:00.002+08:00

saya bertemu psikiatri.. beliau kata saya men'channel'kan rasa kurang senang drpd tanggungjawab keluarga (suri rumah tangga sepenuh masa dan guru kontrak sepenuh masa).. beliau kata mental dan fizikal saya letih... saya rasa, saya penat uruskan rumah sebelum dan pulang dari sekolah... di sekolah pula, saya banyak juga tanggungjawab.. tanggungjawab yang bertindan2..

beliau juga kata, ini ujian Allah... Allah takkan menguji hamba yang tak dapat menerima ujian seperti yang telah diaturkanNya... jadi, saya perlu sabar.....

setiap pagi, menyidai baju, memasak, mengemas, menyapu sampah di luar dan dalam rumah... kemudian, saya pergi sekolah dari jam 12 hingga 7ptg... apabila balik, saya akan menyiram pokok di luar, mengemas makanan (lauk pauk yang telah saya masak pagi tadi) panaskan jika perlu, atau kalau ayah saya tak mau makan nasi, sediakanlah cekodok cucur atau ape2... air nescafe sehari 3 kali kene buat.. bila balik rumah, pinggan perlu dibasuh... org lain tak basuh pinggan.. mereka basuh pinggan sendiri sahaja.. baju2 yang disidai tadi, malam baru saya angkat bila balik dari sekolah.... mak akan lipat.. kadang2 saya lipat bila mak tak lipat.. baju2 leas lipat, angkat susun di tangga.. seminggu tak berangkat.. tapi saya tak akan angkat baju org lain kecuali baju saya, mak ayah dan adik perempuan saya... sebab saya malas...

bila malam, kadanag2 saya ade mengajar.... penat sangat sekrang rasanya... tapi, ape boleh saya buat???? saya dah berumur 28thn, dah saya trus terang... saya tak larat nak buat semua kerja ni kadang2,.. saya penatttt...................

fall with dignity

2011-01-17T22:58:00.000+08:00

sometimes we might fall on our faces, but make sure we fall with dignity!!

kpli yang baru2 nih keluar... ade yang dapat... member aku cikgu gstt sama2 dkat smk gombak setia tuh dapat.. huhuhuh.. aku sedih sangat2.. aku tak dapat2... aku merajuk sangat sangat sangat sangat ngan profesion perguruan.. aku tension sangat2... aku tak dapat2 jadi cikgu, gstt ni hanya temporary.. anytime boleh kene sack.. aku tak tau laa ape nak jadi ngan hidup aku.. aku dah 28 thn pada tahun 2011 nih, tapi aku masih tak ada kerja tetap.. hidup aku tak ada hala tujuan.. tak ada point... dengan badan yang gemuk macam badak, aku tak ade teman hidup lagi... aku tak ade bendanak dilakukan dengan hidup aku... aku tak tau laaa ape yang patut aku buat ngan hidup aku nih... aku rasa semua benda tak kena...

minum kopi dulu~

2011-01-16T20:03:00.000+08:00

Mungkin ini kedengaran pelik tetapi baik untuk anda cuba. Sesekali sebelum memulakan senaman, apa kata jika anda cuba minum secawan kopi.

Kandungan kafein di dalam kopi akan menjadi wake-up call yang istimewa buat otak anda. Ia membantu anda untuk mengekalkan tahap kecergasan anda lebih lama dari 30 minit.

Selain itu, ia juga membantu tubuh membakar lemak terlebih dahulu dari karbohidrat di dalam tubuh sebagai sumber tenaga bagi aktiviti kecergasan tersebut.

Jadi, sekarang saya akan biasakan diri untuk minum kopi pada setiap waktu pagi...

How can I make my morning coffee more environmentally friendly? 5 tips.

Drink your coffee black. Milk requires a whole lot of resources. It takes 53 gallons of water to produce one glass of milk. It also creates significantly more carbon, according to the Guardian. “If you make a white tea, filter coffee or instant coffee, and you don’t overfill the kettle, then the milk will typically account for around two-thirds of the total [carbon] footprint - more than boiling the water and cultivating the tea or coffee put together. One reason for this counter-intuitively large contribution is that milk comes from cows, which, as ruminant animals, belch a lot of methane into the air.” And you have to keep that milk refrigerated.
Buy coffee grown in environmentally friendly and socially responsible ways.social and environmental standards. Coffee labeled as “fair trade” is required to meet both
Bring your own mug. And then use that mug over and over and over. It doesn’t help the environment if you keep buying a new tumbler every week to replace the one you left on the train…and the one you left at the coffee shop…and the one you left at your boyfriends apartment…
If you buy your coffee beans at a coffee shop, see if they’ll let you bring your own container. Just make sure they weigh it first so you don’t end up paying more than you should.
Consider a coffee maker with a thermos-like metal pot to keep your coffee warm without keeping the burner on. Avoid single-use non-recyclable pods. Slate has a great discussion about what brewing methods are best.

first impression

2011-01-11T23:38:00.000+08:00

The Roman poet Phaedrus wrote;

"Things are not always what they seem. The first appearance deceives many. The intelligence of a few perceives what has been carefully hidden."

Physical appearance will always comes first, when we are dealing with strange people. It is always their looks that we are up to. But sometimes or maybe most of the time its tricky.

Have you ever been deceived by the looks of the person? When was that?

tahniah !!!

2010-12-29T23:54:00.000+08:00

TAHNIAH!!!

KEPADA PASUKAN HARIMAU MUDA MALAYSIA
kerana berjaya membenamkan pasukan Indonesia dalam piala Suzuki AFF 2010... walaupun, piala ini tidak diendorse oleh FIFA, tapi, anda bejaya menunjukkan yang anda semua mampu memberikan kejutan..
diharap, kejayaan kamu semua menjadi pemangkin dan pembangkit semangat penyokong bola Malaysia...
semoga anda dapat membuatkan peminat bola sepak negara kembali ke stadium dan bersorak untuk anda semua..

GO MALAYSIA!!!

whatever it is... i am so proud to be MALAYSIAN!!!

runaway...

2010-12-29T15:01:00.000+08:00

Great minds discuss ideas;
Average minds discuss events;

Small minds discuss people.
-Eleanor Roosevelt

okay,

the title have nothing to do with the rest of the story... huhu.. i'm just saying that..

okay now.. just recently Malaysia's team (Harimau Muda) won 3-0 with Indonesian team (Garuda) in football.. Piala Suzuki AFF in Stadium Bukit Jalil... I dont know how to say it, I dont want to be called -racist or anything.. because I am not.. BUT..... those fanatics hooligans (Indonesians team) make a crap out of a simple thing.. come on guys!! football should make us as one.. merapatkan silaturrahim.. not foes.. di mana semangat kesukanan kamu semua? Malaysian or Indonesians... sudah2 lah bergaduh.... kita satu rumpun, satu bangsa dan yang pentingnya satu agama... orang luar suka melihat kita sesama islam bergaduh, bagi mereka itu adalah kemenangan yang besar apabila sesama Islam tidak sekata...

my fellow student in smkgs, bunch of them is actually Indonesians.. most of them is a very good students, nice kids... and some of them,... OMG.. i feel like punching them in the face and throw them back to Indonesia.. BUT, they are still a human, who need to be faced as a person, to be respect and loves... come on now, let us be 1... now, u are in malaysia... be a true malaysians... remember the governments that gives u money and chance to live ur life... open ur closed mind right now....

but hey, i still hate Indonesian dramas that airing on our televisions now.. alisa-dongeng-cahaya-cinta kirana-whatsoever-whatever- oh my goodness gracious... tolonglahhh~~~~ berentilah tayangkan cerita2 yang boleh merosakkan minda budak2, remaja.. biarlah minda mereka terbuka lebih luas dan kreatif -- tanpa menonton cerita2 begini... aku-dah-jemu-bosan-nak-muntak-uwekkkk!!!! tapi, kalau cerita berunsur agama, pengajaran.. saya sokong 200%...

i think thats it for now.... i think i really want to be active again in blogging.. :))))

love ya peepss~~

poems..

2010-11-26T01:01:00.000+08:00

Truly A FriendSomeone to lean on when problems appear,
Someone on whom you’d depend,
Someone who’ll lift you when you’re down in the dumps,
That someone is truly a friend.That’s how I feel about you my dear friend;
You’re so special just as you are.
Just to know that you’re there provides comfort to spare;
A friendship like yours sets the bar.By Karl and Joanna Fuchs Your Special FriendshipWhenever my life feels empty,
Those times when I feel a lack,
I thank God for your special friendship,
Because I know you've got my back.When I wonder about life's true meaning,
And whether it all makes sense,
With a word or a smile from you, friend,
I forget my silly laments.I guess what I'm trying to say, friend,
Is with all your support and your giving,
You brighten each minute I'm with you,
And make every day well worth living.By Joanna Fuchs

youth

2010-07-01T21:26:00.000+08:00

me : i smell something bad...
xxx : what kind of smell??
me : not sure.. but it smells quite bad..
xxx : well sugar, maybe thats the smell of your decaying youth?
me : what the f**k?? what youth?
xxx : its true..u r 27 already.. aren't u agree that your youth is slowly decaying?
me : u say 1 more word.. i swear i'll smack ur face..

okayy then....................................................

sangat sedih..

2010-06-28T16:50:00.000+08:00

* copy this from zie/buddytears ... sangat sedih dan aku sangat tersentuh.. aku jua pernah merasakan benda yang sama, mengalami pengalaman yang sama..

menjadi gemuk dan dilahirkan gemuk atau gemuk ketika usia tua...

aku dilahirkan dengan berat yang normal..sekitar berat2 ideal baby2 Malaysia. di lahirkan dari kalangan keluarga sederhana..semuanya bersederhana..dari cara hidup..dan makan pakai. pendek kata, mengikut kemampuan diri dan keluarga.

dibesarkan penuh kasih sayang dan punya sepenuhnya rasa cinta dan sayang, membuatkan aku membesar dalam persekitaran yang amat sihat dan sangat sihat.

usia demi usia..tubuhku yang hanya memiliki ketinggian 163cm ni semakin mengembang dan terus mengembang. maka lekatlah gelaran-gelaran sungguh "enak" tanda penghargaan dan keperihatinan kawan2 yang cukup "sempurna".

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GEMOK!!....MONTEL!!...GENDUT...BOROI...DORAEMON...GIANT...BULAT...ROTI BOOM...SHANIE..ADIBAH NOOR...DEBAB!!.....

dan macam2 agi...macam pingat yang boleh membawa gelaran....SI polan..polan..polan...

aku teruskan hidup dengan memangku gelaran-gelaran yang cukup BESAR dan GEMOK itu..hingga usia aku akhirnya 26 tahun...

kerana terlalu asyik dan kerap aku hidup dengan gelaran-gelaran itu....aku menjadi takut dengan diri sendiri...aku tidak pernah sesekali membenci diri aku yang gemuk ini....cuma aku takut!!..

hari berganti hari..berat bertambah berat...tubuh aku semakin mengebu dan mengepam!..makin lama makin SIHAT..GEMOK...

aku teringat..suatu masa dulu..masa aku menginjak remaja....aku terjatuh di tangga umah wan aku..tangga tu terjatuh...asalnya..memang tangga tu dah tercabut paku...

nak dijadikan cerita..masa aku nak naik..elok2 baru pijak anak tangga yang ke dua..tangga tu terjatuh..dengan aku-aku pastinya terjatuh sambil terduduk...sakitnya punggung dan pinggang aku masa tu..hanya Allah yang tahu..batang penyapu terlepas. niat aku nak ke atas bersihkan sawang...nak raya lagi 2 hari..rumah x siap berkemas ag....

tengah aku menahan perit...ketawa2 ria bergema di belakang...."HAHAHAHAHAHA...ANAK GAJAH JATUH...HAHAHAHAHA...ANAK GAJAH JATUH....!!..ANAK GAJAH...".....penuh penghayatan dan penuh jiwa mereka-mereka mentertawakan aku....aku seekor anak gajah...

Ya ALLAH....hancurnya hati aku...sakit di pinggang and punggung yang tak terkata..bertambah tercalar dan terluka dengan ejakan sepenuh hati sepupu2 aku...gelaklah...anak gajah ini..memang suka...memang suka diejek dan dicerca..gelaklah....gelaklah sepuas hati...

aku gagahkan diri bangun..sisa tawa sepupu-sepupu aku mengejek seekor anak gajah masih mengila....anak gajah dan si beauty..memanglah jauh bezanya. aku anak gajah itu..mereka puteri-puteri jelita..idaman putera-putera....

susah untuk aku bangun sebenarnya...sakit sangat!!!..tetapi aku x betah berdiam lama di situ. ada tangis yang dah mula nak pecah. hinanya menjadi gemuk...Ya Allah...bulan ramadhan yang mulia ni..kau sabarkan imanku..tabahkan hatiku....lirihnya..sendunya....hanya Allah je yang tahu...

anak gajah ini, berjalan menjauh....menuju ke balkoni....aku diamkan diri disitu...aku lihat...hijau pokok dan biru langit...air mata tak tertahan..anak gajah ini menangis..hati seekor gajah ini betul2 terluka...Ya Allah....sakitnya....sakitnya....anak gajah ini sakit...mak...sakit....along sakit...sakit punggung!!..pinggang!!..tapi hati along lagi sakit!!!...anak gajah sakit mak!!!

air mata terus mengalir..anak gajah ini terus menangis....aku seekor anak gajah....

dengan gelaran anak gajah..aku teruskan hidup.....berhari2 cerita seekor anak gajah jatuh tangga menjadi bahan utama perbualan...gelak2 yang penuh bangga menjadi teman setia...sehingga akhirnya mak aku tau dan berkata..."Kalo along anak gajah...habis makcik ni mak gajah!?"....semua terdiam..anak gajah ni x harapkan pembelaan....anak gajah ni dah halalkan penghinaan....biarlah aku terus menjadi bahan ketawa..jangan hina mak aku!!....terima kasih mak......terima kasih....

musim berganti musim..aku hidup dengan ketakutan dan rendah diri..aku ciptakan kejayaan dan kebahagiaan diri sendiri..dengan belajar bersungguh-sungguh..ukir kejayaan dan cita-cita...hingga akhirnya aku ke peringkat master....

semasa praktikal di sebuah firm.....diskriminasi saiz badan menjadi topik besar...tetap menambah cerita di arkib seorang gadis gemuk...."aku x nak ah ambik zie..nanti senget kete aku...wakakakakakakakakakaka......"seronoknya ketawa......aku terdiam....senget kete..kete ayah aku xpernah senget pun....aku si gemuk hanya layak jalan kaki jer ek....macam masa jamuan....yang cantik2 di depan..menyambut tetamu..aku si gemuk...dengan baju raya..tolong orang cuci pinggan...hidangkan makanan....aku dengan pakaian raya..menyinsing lengan membasuh pinggan..aku dengan pakaian raya..berlari-lari menambah kuih muih..menyediakan hidangan..sebab, aku si gemuk yang memakai pakaian raya yang lawa dan mahal..tetap di pandang hudoh dan hina...aku si gemuk..tmpt aku kat belakang2.....akukan si gemuk...

akukah si gemuk yang hudoh..cacat..hina..buruk....akukah si gemuk....

kerana orang-orang yang penuh jiwa besar dan bangga dengan kecantikkan dan kesempurnaan mereka..aku menjadi aku....menjadi seorang perempuan gemuk yang sangat penakut....

aku perempuan gemuk yang sangat takutkan ikatan..aku seorang perempuan gemuk yang sangat takutkan percintaan...aku seorang perempuan gemuk yang sangat tak percaya pada cinta...aku sangat takut...

aku perempuan gemuk yang dah terlalu biasa di jadi bahan gurauan dan gelak serta ejekan orang....lelaki?hahaha..aku bukan pari2 dan seorang puteri..aku hanya seorang perempuan gemuk.....

aku menjadi sekeras aku.....aku kuatkan diri dari cinta..tidak menerima cinta..kerana aku seorang perempuan gemuk....tiada penghargaan untuk si gemuk yang bernama aku..yang ada,...hanya penghinaan...

aku perempuan gemuk...yang berusaha melepaskan cinta aku untuk kebahagiaannya....aku perempuan gemuk..yang mengeraskan hati aku untuk tidak jatuh cinta...

aku perempuan gemuk yang cuba sedaya aku menjadi seorang yang ego dan tidak punya hati...

aku perempuan gemuk yang hanya mampu mengimpikan bahagia berkeluarga..tetapi tidak akan berani mencipta realiti...

aku perempuan gemuk yang hanya berani menjaga diri dan hati sendiri...aku x nak lukakan hati dia....kerana bersama aku yang gemuk...manusia akan melihatnya pelik..manusia akan memandangnya jelik..manusia akan mentertawakannya...biarlah....aku lepaskan dia...kerana dia x sepatutnya terkena biasan dan tulah perempuan gemuk...

aku perempuan gemuk yang sangat terbiasa membiarkan jiwanya sedih....aku sedih..aku sepi..tapi aku seorang perempuan gemuk...

wahai hati...bawalah perasaan ini jauh....wahai hati.....biarkanlah segalanya pergi...wahai hati...jangan kau cambahkan benih cinta ini...wahai hati....fahamilah..aku tak mampu menyintai....wahai hati..jangan kau bisikan rindu ini terus menerus meresap ke dalam jiwa...wahai hati....aku tak mampu untuk kecewa ag...wahai hati..jangan ko robek hatimu sendiri...wahai hati.....biarlah segalanya mati...wahai hati..biarlah segalanya pergi.....

wahai hati..kau perlu faham...kau perlu mengerti....

aku....seorang perempuan gemuk!

benci..

2010-05-21T21:10:00.000+08:00

aku benci kau setan!!!!!

b**i!!!

lagu best..

2010-05-12T19:45:00.001+08:00

of feeling emo and stress

2010-04-25T16:23:00.000+08:00

...the title says it all...

a lot.. loads of thing, events and emotional circulation happens.. emotional changes...
well, obviously im not that stable now, emotionally i mean.. so, not good for me to write anything..
talked about karma before.. its just my karma.. not so good..

if anybody do understands me, please raise your hand.. write something in my page..
if u pass by kl, please just drop by to see me.. bestfriends...
i need some really good hands to touch my heart rite now..

post ke-100

2010-03-03T11:17:00.001+08:00

waaa.. this is my 100th post!!!!!!!!!!!
ehehehehe...........

okay.. its started ye... control ur calories intake.. ahahahahaaa

more on diets..

2010-02-26T19:01:00.003+08:00

1 Senaman ~ Tips kurus paling berkesan melakukan senaman selama 20 minit, sebanyak 3 kali seminggu. Bagi yang sedang berdiet, sebaiknya lakukan secara seimbang dan mengikut kemampuan diri. Mulakan dengan perlahan-lahan ini tidak akan membebankan badan…

2 Makan Makanan Sihat ~ Seimbangkan diet anda, lebihkan buah, sayur dan ikan. Kurangkan daging merah dan makanan ringan pastinya diet kurus anda akan menjadi sempurna. Ada juga tips – tips diet untuk kurus menyatakan supaya menyimpan buah apal hijau di dalam peti sejuk dan gantikannya menjadi snek apabila anda berkeinginan untuk mengunyah. Gantikan juga air berkabonat dengan jus seperti apal hijau, carot, oren, limau dan sebagainya mengikut kegemaran anda. Yogurt juga baik untuk mereka yang sedang berdiet…

3 Kurangkan Makan ~ Kawal diet anda, makan hanya pada waktu yang betul dan kuantiti yang berpatutan. Salah satu tips diet kurus lagi adalah dengan mengurangkan separuh dari kadar pemakanan anda sebelum ini, contohnya sebelum ini anda makan 2 senduk nasik, ketika dalam proses diet cuba kurangkan kepada 1 senduk sahaja. Tips diet untuk mengurangkan makan juga boleh dilakukan dengan menambahkan serat yang banyak di dalam diet anda, makanlah sehingga 5 kali hidangan berupa buah-buah dan sayuran. Diet buah-buahan ini boleh juga di ambil diantara waktu makan jadi perut anda tidak kosong dan lapar lagi… pastinya program kurus anda akan berjalan dengan lancar.

4 Eskpresi Diri ~ Lakukan apa yang anda ingin lakukan. Katakan apa yang anda ingin katakan serta lakukan segala yang betul untuk diri sendiri. Sibukkanlah diri dengan aktiviti kegemaran, jangan membiarkan masa anda terbuang begitu sahaja. Ini dapat mengelakkan dari anda berfikir untuk makan apabila bosan sebaliknya anda pastinya akan sentiasa gembira dan ceria… Begitulah ekspresi diri juga turut menyumbang dalam mengrealisasikan program kurus anda.

5 Kawal emosi ~ Satu lagi tips kurus yang tidak harus dilupakan dalam program kurus anda, bijaklah mengawal emosi dan pemikiran anda, dengan ini anda akan bersedia menerima sebarang kebarangkalian dalam hidup. Tingkatkanlah keyakinan diri dan hargai diri sendiri pastinya melakukan yang terbaik kepada diri sendiri. Sebenarnya tabiat pemakanan juga ada kaitannya dengan emosi diri jadi untuk merealisasikan diet kurus anda, pastikan pengawalan emosi yang terbaik. Diet kurus anda juga akan lebih akan lebih berkesan dengan mengamalkan gaya hidup sihat……

program diet - - - - program 3 bulan?

2010-02-26T15:29:00.002+08:00

okay... aku, deklin, kakak dan kak adik ade plan nak buat satu program diet.. tak ade la macam the biggest loser kan.. tapi, nak wat program diet beramai2 jer.. sedara mara.. kawan2.. lagi best kot kalau ade geng... kalau ade member untuk sama2 berdiet...
so, macam ni... harap kakak dan kak adik baca... ehehehe...

kite start... 1 mac 2010 nih.. ade lagi 2 days to go.. tak kisah la nak amek supplement ape.. dietmate5, herbalife or anything u can find.. tak kisah.. sebab bile kite consume any supplement pon, in the end kite kene discipline kan.. kalau tak, tak ade maknanya diet atau makan bende2 mahal tuh...
so.... 1st, DISCIPLINE~~~~ then, baru la diikuti dengan EXERCISES , next.. jaga makan... CONTROL CALORIES INTAKE.. pastu, pandai2 laaa kot.. ahahahaha

kakak, kak adik... sms la kat angah current weight... okay????? nanti bile dah kompom, baru bank in duit... biar mak ngah yang pegang.. nak kire cemana? bulan2 ke sekaligus bayar? ehehehee... cam menarik nih..

angah selalu baca blog zulaikha ngan blog kak rahimah for very good diet infos.. mmg best blog diorang... inspired lots of people kan..

Detoxifying Your Body

A Detox Diet (also called a cleansing diet) will remove toxins and poisons from your body. The idea of a good detox diet is to eat pure and natural foods that will aid the function of the lymph, kidneys, and liver. All foods that hinder the regime will be avoided.

Generally most detox diets will contain the following foods:

Organic food and drink (no pesticides or fungicides).
Whole unprocessed foods (grains, nuts, seeds, etc).
High mix of vegetables and fruit.
2 liters of water per day
Certain herbs such as Psyllium seed, Licorice root, Yucca root, Milk thistle seed, Gentian root, to aid the detoxifying process.

Most detox programs will avoid the following:

Alcohol, caffeine, tobacco, and drugs
Processed and refined foods
Certain supplements (due to the amount of additives).

tahap kemalasan melampau

2010-02-10T12:24:00.002+08:00

malas sungguh hari ni..
aku tak ade mood langsung nak buat ape2... nak sidai baju malas.. nak masak malas.. nak pegi sekolah lagi lahhh malas...
tapi, masak tuh wajib... kene masak.. so dah masak.. sidai baju pon.. nanti banyak sangat baju nak dibasuh, disidai lagi letih,.. so.. buat mana yang ada dulu..
tapi, lastly.. setan menang.. aku tak pegi sekolah hari nih.. lagipon mmg aku tak sihat sangat.. running nose.. tensionnye bila selsema... pastu aku ade kerja kene buat sket today... takut sket nak mc sekarang.. sebab pengetua baru adalah sangat garang dan menakutkan. huhuhu

"Selalu kita menyangka yang di tangan orang indah dan menawan; apa yang di tangan sendiri sentiasa kedam. Selalu kita meletakkan impian yang muluk-muluk pada kepunyaan orang sedangkan orang turut terliur dengan apa yang kita miliki."

memories..

2010-01-16T21:10:00.005+08:00

gambar ni taken on our way to amman, jordan...
missing the good old days ni the middle east.. i really hope that i will go to damascus / damsyik again for honeymoon (if i ever get married)
I PROMISE MY SELF.. I WILL GO THE MIDDLE EAST AGAIN!!
i really wanna go to Petra, Jordan... i still think my true calling is to be an archeologist or some kind of history expert.. but believe me, i am totally fail with sejarah since school days.. spm aku sejarah dapat 6d..

this is me in front of Omayyad Mosque.. this mosque has been here for centuries.. dari zaman bani Umayyah.. orang2 kat syria pun sangat cantik dan kacak.. seriously.. tak jumpa pon sorang yang tak cantik ataupun tak hensem.. sumer hensem2.. even budak2 kecik pon.. subhanallah... Allah kurniakan orang2 kat sini dengan rupa dan peribadi yang cantik...

aku rindu laa plak nak pegi jalan2.. kak maimun ajak pegi perth, australia... bulan 11 nanti.. insyaAllah!!!! akan ku turuti langkah mu kak maimun...
hasnizah plak ajak pegi beijing, china.... waaahhh... banyaknyer nak pakai duit.. seronoknyer kalau dapat jalan2.. tapi, aduss.. duit pon macam seronok jer mengalir.. tapi, tak kawen lagi kan.. ape salahnyer.. enjoy2 jer selagi boleh....

aaaaaaaa... seronok2.. nak jalan2 lagi.. nak jalan jugakk!!!!!

idiots..

2010-01-15T22:13:00.003+08:00

Don't argue with idiots.

They'll drag you down to their level and beat you with experience...

been through many things in me life... and most of them can be very painful, but then.. all of us know that LIFE IS TOO SHORT TO WAKE UP EVERY MORNING WITH REGRETS.. and I also know that I have to believe.. I must have faith in my own self.. EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON..

tapi, pernah tak terfikir tentang sebab-sebab terjadinya sesuatu tu? Allah Maha hebat, segala yang dijadikanNya mesti sempurna.. lambat dan cepat sahaja menjadi pengukur.. sebagai manusia, aku mesti percaya yang setiap kejadian yang Allah ciptakan mesti ada hikmahnya.. dulu masa belajar agama kat sekolah.. ustazah thaniza selalu pesan..

"hidup kita dah tertulis.. percaya pada qada' dan qadar.. tapi, kita masih boleh ubah perjalanan hidup kita kalau kita betul2 percaya tentang kekuasaan Allah dan berusaha.. tanpa usaha, tawakal dan doa takkan kemana"

so, this is what i believe.....

If we get a chance, take it... embrace the changes.. If it changes your life - let it... Nobody said life would be easy, they just promised IT WOULD BE WORTH IT!!

Waiting for your answer is one of the most painful things I have ever been through. At least let me know whether or not I hurt you.

laskar pelangi...

2010-01-13T23:22:00.001+08:00

LASKAR PELANGI... nidji

Mimpi adalah kunci
Untuk kita menaklukkan dunia
Berlarilah tanpa lelah
Sampai engkau meraihnya

Laskar pelangi takkan terikat waktu
Bebaskan mimpimu di angkasa
Warnai bintang di jiwa

Reff:
Menarilah dan terus tertawa
Walau dunia tak seindah surga
Bersyukurlah pada Yang Kuasa
Cinta kita di dunia selamanya

Cinta kepada hidup
Memberikan senyuman abadi
Walau hidup kadang tak adil
Tapi cinta lengkapi kita

Laskar pelangi takkan terikat waktu
Jangan berhenti mewarnai
Jutaan mimpi di bumi

saya suka lagu ini dan ceritanya...

stay the same - joey mcintyre

2009-12-21T23:36:00.000+08:00

Stay The Same
Artist: Joey McIntyre
Composer: Joey McIntyre

Chorus
Don't you ever wish you were someone else,
You were meant to be the way you are exactly.
Don't you ever say you don't like the way you are.
When you learn to love yourself, you're better off by far.
And I hope you always stay the same,
cuz there's nothin' 'bout you I would change.

Verse
I think that you could be whatever you wanted to be
Stay The Same lyrics on
http://music.yeucahat.com/song/English/509-Stay-The-Same~Joey-McIntyre.html
If you could realize, all the dreams you have inside.
Don't be afraid if you've got something to say,
Just open up your heart and let it show you the way.

Chorus

Believe in yourself.
Reach down inside.
The love you find will set you free.
Believe in yourself, you will come alive.
Have faith in what you do.
You'll make it through.

jangan layan post ni.. aku sangat jahat..

2009-12-17T23:38:00.006+08:00

aku tak sangka perangai aku teruk sangat...
babah penah cakap perangai aku macam anak haram, hari ni mak pulak cakap.. ramai org kate perangai aku macam kak nun dan mak cik maimun.. kak nun, anak longlia.. sangat jahat... makcik maimun plak, adik babah.. perangai die ya Allah... dengan lasernyer, kurang ajar.. aku tak suka die.. so, aku nih perangai macam dia ker? mak yang cakap.. ade org kata (ke mak yang cakap?) perangai aku macam diorang...

aku tak paham la... aku nih sangat teruk ker? aku tak penah mintak izin ker kalau aku nak kuar rumah nak pegi mana2.. well, kalau yang dekat2 nih memang aku kadang2 tak mintak izin kot.. tapi kalau nak pegi jauh2, aku mintak izin.. aku tau, aku mmg mintak izin. derhaka laa aku kalau aku kuar gi mana2 tak mintak izin.. mungkin cara aku mintak izin tuh tak baik kot.. yer la, dah perangai macam kak nun atau makcik maimun... maknanya, mintak izin pon cara kurang ajar kot.. setiap kali mak nak marah, nape nak ungkit benda lepas2?? mak tanya ape yang aku nak marah sangat bang cik bile die mintak nak pegi umah amira.. umah amira ade buat wedding sepupu dia.. kenapa aku marah sangat?

aku rasa.. bangcik senang sangat dapat ape yang die nak... nak pegi mana2, senang jer boleh pegi.. nak ape2.. boleh laa.. aku pon dapat gak kalau aku nak ape2.. tapi, entah laa... susah la nak cakap.. (susah nak cakap ke atau aku yang memang nak mendenykan ape yang aku dapat? - kalau perangai aku mmg macam kak nun dan mak cik maimun, aku mmg deny laa)
kalau pasal kerja, mmg aku tak ade masalah ngan bangcik... die mmg kuat kerja.. bandingkan dia ngan abang. bangcik mmg kuat lagi kerja.. kesian kat bgcik sebab babah selalu marah dia tanpa sebab... kalau pasal kerja, bangcik mmg tiptop.. mmg aku respek..

mak cakap, kalau datang ape2 hal pasal amira.. makwe bangcik.. aku jadi macam pelik sangat.. agaknyer sebab aku nih dah tua kot.. gemok gedempol.. gajah pon tak gemok macam aku.. aku nih gemok macam babi.. betul.. gemok sangat sangat sangat sangat sangat sangat sangat gemok.. babi tengok aku mmg die hi5 kat aku.. member dia kan dia kata... pastu dah 26.. dah tua.. tak ade sape pon nak kat aku... mak pon dah malu dah.. semua manusia dah tanya anak mak yang sorang nih tak ada org mintak.. sorry la mak, angah sangat gemok dan buruk.. susah angah nak paksa lelaki suka dan nak kawin ngan angah.. nak rasuah kawin kontrak pon.. duit tak ada... bangcik pulak, laku.. biar bangcik kawin dulu la...

gemuk kan aku.. buruk sangat... sorry la manusia sekalian alam... atas kewujudan aku yang amat menyakitkan mata, menyakitkan hati... kehadiran aku sebagai minah obes yang sangat buruk perangai.. maafkan aku... maafkan aku sangat2...

the climb...

2009-12-12T11:14:00.000+08:00

The Climb Lyrics - miley cyrus

I can almost see it,
That dream I'm dreamin'
But theres a voice inside my head sayin'
You'll never reach it

Every step I'm taking
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking

But I gotta keep tryin'
Gotta keep my head held high
Theres always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a up-hill battle
Sometimes i'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about whats waiting on the other side
Its the climb

The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down
But, No, I'm not breaking
I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm gonna remember Most, yeah
Just gotta keep goin'

And, I, I got to be Strong
Just Keep pushing, on
'Cause theres always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a up-hill battle
Sometimes i'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about whats waiting on the other side
Its The Climb

Theres always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a up-hill battle
somebody's gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about whats waiting on the other side
Its the climb

LOVE THIS SONG!!!!

work out..

2009-12-11T15:56:00.005+08:00

yayyy.. dah start my work out session at celebrity fitness.. it is quite costly, but worth to try..
my s0-called personal trainer.. named adif.. from jitra.. ahaha.. kanak2 lagi laa tapi.. i mean, 2 years younger perhaps... but everything is just so cool...
okay.. last night, ade buat domething maybe la.. called slider.. ya tuhan.... lenguhnye kaki, macam nak tercabut kaki aku. paha rasa macam kena perah... seriously.. sampai bangun pagi tuh masih terasa lagi sakitnya.. serious... sakit tahap cipan..

but, the game must go on... sakit macam mana pon.. i have to struggle!! yeahh.. seronoknye kalau time jem kawen bulan 5 nanti boleh kurangkan berat badan tak banyak on tak ape.. 10 kgs lost wont make any much differences.. right? ehehe

..terima kasih..

2009-11-20T22:59:00.002+08:00

...what ever happens, keep on walking...
walau apa yang terjadi, berjalanlah tanpa henti

I challenge anybody in their darkest moment to write what they're grateful for, even a stupid little things like green grass or a friendly conversation with somebodysah on the lift. You start realise how rich you are. - [ Jim Carrey ]

kenapalah susah sangat nak menetapkan pendirian.. nak menetapkan niat.. rasa seperti segala azam dan kemahuan telah ditetapkan.. tetapi sangat payah apabila perasaan dan kemahuan bagai digoda.. ingin juga ku nikmati segala yang ada.. payahnya menahan godaan ini...

tayar dipancitkan??

2009-10-29T21:43:00.004+08:00

aku tensyen... aku bengang sangat2... aku kene tukar tayar keta..

tayar keta aku kena pancit masa hari isnin hari tu.. aku tak tau la sape yang buat.. ade budak kate nampak beruk2 dari kelas 2 luhur yang buat.. ade yang kate budak form 1 yang buat.. aku tak tau la..
boleh lak, bgtau kat cikgu disiplin yang baru nih.. cikgu B*n*... die suruh aku carik.. siasat sendiri.. nanti dah kompom sape org die, bg kat die.. aku bengang giler... baik aku buat keje cikgu disiplin macam tuh.. mana aku ade skill nak buat budak2 mengaku.. aku iyerkan aje ade la... tolonglahhhhh..
alang2 dah flat tayar keta tuh... mmg rosak rim aku sbb kene alih keta gak untuk perhimpunan... rim aku calar habis... aku tukar tayar trus.. babah bayar... rm 300 untuk 2 tayar.. bangcik sih tukar 4, 4 jer.. tapi, duit tuuuhh.. dah la gaji bulan depan hujung bulan baru dapt.... habis la.. aku keringggg giler..

aktiviti menukar tayar... nasib baik ada anas@teratakindah menolong dan membantu menukarkan tayar kereta ku itu... tak lupe cikgu kepada cikgu firdaus.. hubby cikgu noraini yang juga telah membantu menghiburkan hati dan suasana yang gelap.. pukul 7.15pm itu..

lagi gambar anas yang sedang berusaha meng'jek'kan keta... ehehehe..

terima kasih laa sangat2 pada seua... budi baik anda semua tak terbalas....
nak carik budak2 yang bertanggungjawab menjahanamkan kereta saya!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so much to say...

2009-10-15T19:42:00.002+08:00

there is a lot of things that i wanna say.. i wanna share with others.. or simply said, wanna write it in my emotional-covered-blog...

but, i have no idea what to write.. there like loads of interesting events happened..... but eventually, i dont know what to write.. okay.. i will list it down then..

1. babah already dekat rumah... dah semakin pulih.. bab ingatan tuh, kureng sket.. tapi alhamdulillah..... syukur pada Allah...

2. ............................................................. aku dah lupe... aaaaaaa..

what the hell is wrong with me???? please somebody.. help me..

relief...

2009-10-07T11:07:00.002+08:00

babah dah keluar dari ICU..
alhamdulillah... kawan2 dan students aku yang selama nih concern about my father.. thank you very much...
aku lega sangat2.... bile dah keluar dari icu tuh macam separuh beban dlm kepala dah abeh... masuk wad biasa.. maknanya keadaan dah tak begitu kritikal.. alhamdulillah....
terima kasih sangat pada semua yang mendoakan... tak tau macam mana nak balas...
anak2 murid aku.. atikah, syazana... kawan2.. atiyah, yong adilah... ramai lagi.. terima kasih banyak2...

saya sayang anda semuaa!!!!

babahku di ICU

2009-09-25T01:14:00.002+08:00

babah ade kat icu, hkl....
babah accident motor di bulatan jalan pahang.. keadaan babah kritikal..
sekarang ade di icu.. tulang rusuk babah patah.. 4 tulang rusuk, 1 tulang selangka yang kat bawah leher tuh..
tulang mata kanan, dahi retak... mata babah belah kanan mungkin rosak... telinga bahagian kiri pon ade tulang yang retak.. sebab tuh darah mengalir dari telinga tak henti2.. tapi sekarang alhamdulillah dah stop...

sedih sangat2.. aku sedih sangat.. babah yang selama nih tak ade penyakit, tak penah duduk diam dari kerja.. sekarang helpless.. unconscious.. terlantar atas katil.. dengan macam2 wayar disambung dalam mulut, hidung... paru2 babah luka.. so, pernafasan terhalang.. terpaksa masuk tiub oksigen dari mulut.. masuk ke trakea.. terus ke paru2..
aku tak dapat tahan air mata bila tgk babah meronta sakit atas katil.. bila babah tarik semua wayar.. angah tau babah nak bangun dan kerja macam biasa... tapi, rehatlah babah...

ya Allah, selamatkanlah babah... kami semua sayangkan babah... babah orang baik, moga Kau benarkan babah bersama kami lagi hingga akhirat.. tolonglah ya Allah... aku sayang sangat babah...

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2009-09-15T22:52:00.003+08:00

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I Go.. talentime OST

2009-09-11T21:55:00.001+08:00

I GO by Pete Teo (Talentime OST )
words and music by Pete Teo.

So long, fare thee well
The dancer and the dancing days have taken leave and fell
So turn down this bed of stone
Quench me with the deadly nightshade from the rose that you belong

The long December rain is falling now
Running down on streets to nowhere
Music is my life youre my sweetest nightingale
But I cant hear it here no more
And I go

I go

Hush now, dont shake or break
Words have fallen silent like soldiers to the grave
No matter what they do or say
Lay me on the sleepy meadow by the tracks upon your face

p/s:gotta love this song.. really sweet..

2009-09-11T11:23:00.004+08:00

aku sayang dia.. tapi dia dah pergi dulu....
semua binatang yang aku sayang, mesti pegi cepat..
kenape eh? aku tak ade jodoh ke ngan diorang?
aku bukan tuan yang baik ker?

tibe2 sedih...

Remember when lives were lost
You sleep and there is sorrow
Sorrow is when you’re awake.
Sorrow is the feeling you wish was fake
Sorrow is like your skin always attached to you.
Sorrow is like a tree sometimes you don't even pay attention to it, it's just there.
It is the feeling, which makes you, feels like your sad or it's unfair.
But you can't live without sorrow.
Just like you can't live without love.
Sorrow might even be the key to love

Danielle Nogue

warna batik

2009-09-09T11:06:00.007+08:00

last sunday.. pegi ikea beli cover sofa yang baru dibeli... mak tak suka kaler merah.. so, mak suruh pegi beli kaler blekinge white.. ehehe..

ape la mak nih.. sekali sekala merah ape salahnyer eh.. ehehehe

pastu jalan2 kat the curve... tapi disebabkan adik aku sangat sakit perut, die kate tak ade mood nak jalan2 the curve.. die nak pegi jalan2 kat jaya jusco yang jaraknye sekangkang kera dari rumah tuh jer... die mmg suke betul pegi jj wangsa maju tuh.. ishk2..

masa kat jaya jusco tuh, ade plak buat pertandingan mewarna batik untuk budak2.. 15 thn ke bawah.. so, adik ngan maziah (adik syazana) masuk lah... ni ade gambar2nye..

adik ngan maziah tgh mewarna batik yang dah dicanting oleh uncle khalid.. (nampak macam artist jer)
ade bakat gak budak2 berdua nih..

dah siap kaler.... tunggu pengadil untuk bagi markah..

tapi tak menang.. tak ape.. yang penting ade laa dapat pengalaman kaler batik.. sekarang nih susah kot nak carik batik.. nak kaler.. boleh pegi pusat kraf kat jalan conlay kot..
end product.. ehehehehe

berbuka puasa kawan2..

2009-09-07T20:59:00.008+08:00

last saturday, 5/8/09 pegi berbuka ngan kawan2 studio dulu.. yayy.. saya suka jumpa kawan2 seangkatan dari uia dulu... i love my studio mates.. i really do.. jumpe katmidvalley pukul 6, pastu lepak2... sampai malam.. kol 10.30 gitu...

banyak updates dapat on that day.. regarding our beloved friends.. mateen getting married, jem getting enggaged.... farida, najmiah will be having their babies soon... aduhhh... loads of new stuff.. new joy coming in.. i'm happy for them... zaime.. will continue his studies.. jeles giler.. aaaaaaaa... jeles sangat2.. huhuhu...

ni ha.. budak zaime yg nak pegi sambung belajar to UK tuh... huhuu....

ni aziah... die skang jadi cikgu kat sekolah sri utama.. wangsa maju...

ni kak roszita ali.. die pegawai perancang kat majlis perbandaran teluk intan... org kpkt nih.. gaji banyak nih.. ahahahaa
ni pulak.. cik azliana.. engineer nih.. ehehehe.. member2 saya baik2 orangnya.. saya sayang mereka..
walaupun lepak sekejap.. tapi we had a great time.. banyak cerita yang diceritakan semula.. eheheh.. banyak kenangan terungkap.. good ones only eh...

hati pecah?

2009-09-03T23:41:00.003+08:00

gotta heal my broken heart.. How long before you can go about your daily routine without feeling that wave of pain sweep over you, without sensing that knot in the pit of your stomach? If these are some of the questions you are asking yourself, you are not alone.

I'm currently looking for tranquility and peace.. where can I find it? and when? (maybe should go for a vacation at Pulau Perhentian)

Kind Lies

Tell me it’s a nightmare
Rock away my fears
Hold me oh! So gently
Kiss away my tears
Say you’ll never leave me
Say it did not end
Stroke my face and whisper
Just for now…

Pretend

© Alison Stormwolf

cabaran dan kebahagiaan

2009-09-01T22:09:00.002+08:00

SINAR BAHAGIA

Dalam kehidupan manusia pasti akan menempuh cabaran. Kadang –kala ianya datang dari orang yang paling kita percaya atau daripada orang yang sangat kita harapkan, malah dari rakan yang rapat dengan kita. Bab ini menyebabkan kita bengang.

Bak kata pepatah harapkan pagar, pagar makan padi. Hasilnya. Itu yang kita tenguk muka menjadi monyok. Sebab tak dapat nak control perasaan dalaman. Maka, makin ramailah yang tahu kita tengah bengang.

Jangan risau Allah dah beritahu setiap masalah ada penawarnya, setiap cabaran ada hikmahnya, setiap tamparan akan mematangkan kita, setiap luka ada ubatnya. Cuma cara kita merawatnya adalah berbeza. Ada orang sekejap sahaja dah ok. Tapi ada orang makan bertahun. Ini boleh membawa kepada sifat dendam yang sangat disukai syaitan. Jauhkan sifat ini.

Antara cara mengubat bengang

1.Semua orang buat silap, maka tak salahlah kita buat silap. Tapi jangan buat salah yang sama. Ok

2.Kadang-kala masalah ini datang dari kita, semak diri balik. Kalau betul salah minta maaf.

3.Dari masalah kita dapat kenal siapa kawan , siapa lawan. Kita kena syukur pada Allah kerana ia dah tunjuk pada kita cara terang-terang yang tu musuh kita . Maka kita perlulah lebih berhati-hati selepas itu.

4.Perkara paling penting untuk menawar luka dlam hati, buatlah sesuatu itu kerana Allah, bukan sebab lain. Insyaallah kita dapat ketenangan.

...kerja...

2009-08-28T13:56:00.003+08:00

yesterday, ade dapat surat panggilan temuduga untuk Pegawai Perancang Bandar di JPBD, jalan cenderasari... tapi tawaran untuk kontrak aje lah... so, aku tak tau la kontrak untuk bape lame..

raser macam tak mau pegi je interview tuh.. ramai kawan2 aku yang dapat.. tp.. tak tau la kan.. aku dapat ke tak ker? biarlah.. aku malas laa nak cuba nasib.. aku selesa jadi cikgu.. biar aku jadi cikgu jer laa eh.. gaji mmg la pegawai perancang lagi tinggi sket.. tp, ample time yang aku dapat sekarang... jadi cikgu aku boleh buat tusyen.. tambah duit kan.. kalau jadi pegawai perancang tuh plak kang... nak kene adapt suasana baru, work environment baru.. macam malas jer... ehhehee...

aku nekad lah.. aku nak trus jadi cikgu jer.. biarlah gstt pon.. aku rasa selesa ngan cikgu2 nih... susah jadi cikgu sebenarnya.. especially time nak exam.. time budak2 yang nakal2 tuh keluar tanduk.. tapi, aku lagi rela face all this daripada kene duduk opis sampai 10 mlm atau 3 pagi.. dengan tiada O.T.. bila lambat dtg kene potong gaji lagi.. ahahahaha
aku tak nak!!!!!!

tapi, keje gomen mesti lain suasananya kan.. tapi.. tak ape lah.. tak nak lah aku... eheheheh

Let sorrowful longing dwell in your heart.

Never give up, never lose hope.

ALLAH says, " The broken ones are my beloved "

Crush your heart. Be broken.

[ Shaikh Abu Saeed Abil Kheir ]

selamat menunaikan puasa!!!

2009-08-27T22:54:00.004+08:00

hari nih dah masuk hari ke-6 umat Islam menunaikan ibadah puasa di bulan Ramadhan yang mulia ini.. rasanya masih tak terlambat untuk mengucapkan selamat menunaikan ibadah puasa yer semua.. lama sangat tak update.. am shortage of creativity nowadays.. ahaha..

Puasa ertinya menahan diri daripada makan dan minum serta segala perbuatan yang boleh membatalkan puasa, mulai dari terbit fajar sehinggalah terbenam matahari. Umat Islam juga dikehendaki menahan diri daripada menipu, mengeluarkan kata-kata buruk atau sia-sia, serta bertengkar atau bergaduh. Ini kerana puasa merupakan medan latihan memupuk kesabaran, kejujuran serta bertolak ansur sesama sendiri. Secara tidak langsung amalan puasa akan menyuburkan sikap murni di dalam diri pelakunya. Adalah menjadi harapan kita agar kesemua nilai yang baik ini akan terus dipraktikkan ke bulan-bulan berikutnya.

Firman Allah S.W.T:

“

“ Wahai orang-orang yang beriman, telah diwajibkan ke atas kamu berpuasa sebagaimana telah diwajibkan ke atas umat-umat yang sebelum kamu, semoga kamu menjadi orang-orang yang bertaqwa. “ - (Surah Al-Baqarah: 183)

”

Hadis Rasulullah s.a.w: Ditegaskan oleh Rasulullah s.a.w melalui sabdanya yang diriwayatkan oleh Ahmad, An- Nasa'i dan Al Baihaqi dari Abu Hurairah, yang bermaksud:

“

" Sesungguhnya telah datang kepada kamu bulan Ramadhan bulan yang penuh berkat. Allah telah fardhukan ke atas kamu berpuasa padanya. Sepanjang bulan Ramadhan itu dibuka segala pintu Syurga dan ditutup segala pintu neraka serta dibelenggu segala syaitan......."

”

Niat puasa Ramadhan

Lafaz setiap malam. Niat ringkas:

نَوَيْتُ صَوْمَ رَمَضَانَ لِلَّهِ تَعَالَى

Niatnya: Sahaja aku puasa Ramadhan kerana Allah Taala.

Lafaz lengkap:

نَوَيْتُ صَوْمَ غَدٍ أَنْ أَدَاءِ فَرْضِ رَمَضَانَ هَذِهِ السَّنَةِ لِلَّهِ تَعَالَى

Niatnya: Sahaja aku puasa esok hari pada bulan Ramadhan tahun ini kerana Allah Taala.

Sebenarnya bangun untuk bersahur itu sudah dikira berniat untuk berpuasa.

Lafaz niat puasa Ramadhan sepenuhnya untuk sebulan:

Lafaznya:

نَوَيْتُ صَوْمَ شَهْرِ رَمَضَانَ كِلِّهِ لِلَّهِ تَعَالَى

Niatnya: Sahaja aku berpuasa sebulan Ramadhan tahun ini kerana Allah Taala.

Jadi.. kepada semua kawan2... selamat berpuasa yer....
jangan sampai rasa nak mati macam bear nih udah la..

aku yang terleka..

2009-08-08T00:51:00.007+08:00

Demi masa…
Sesungguhnya manusia kerugian
Melainkan…
Nasihat kepada kebenaran dan kesabaran

Gunakan kesempatan yang masih diberi
Moga kita takkan menyesal
Masa usia kita jangan disiakan
Kerna ia takkan kembali

(Demi Masa - Raihan)

aku sentiasa terleka dengan hidup nih.. sentiasa muncul sahaja perkara yang membuat kita berfikir, kita sudah cukup besar dan cukup puas menikmati hidup.. tapi seringkali kita terlupa kita hanya manusia biasa..

setiap kali aku terasa seperti aku dilanda masalah yang sepertinya aku tidak boleh kawal lagi.. sentiasa aku memandang mereka yang jauh lebih payah menanggung derita.. namun acap kali, hati menewaskan pemikiran yang seboleh-bolehnya ingin menjadi sewarasnya manusia.. warasnya seorang muslim..

just try to be true and try to appreciate everything that is happening in your life.. everything that surrounds u now.. for u, it might look like hell.. it might smell like hell.. but for others, whose more unlucky, this life has always been a fortune.. has always been great and vivacious.. why? when? will i be enjoying this life ti the fullest? rejoicing all the goodness, all the happiness that the world have to offer me...

Well, life is all about forgiveness and acceptance. We need to accept things in life and forgive things that run through our life. Yep... it is not easy but that the reality of what we must do in this life… hanya insan yang sempurna dapat memberi kemaafan kepada yang memerlukan.. Jadi macam mane dengan orang yang kurang sempurna? Perlu ke sentiasa hidup di selubungi dosa? May we always be blessed by Yang Maha ESA…

Manusia yang selalu bercakap soal perasaan, sebenarnya manusia yang paling susah untuk meluah perasaan. Seringkali keagungan rasanya tersimpan jauh di dalam. Maka, bila dia meluahkannya, siapa yang menerimanya, harus menyimpannya dalam hati sampai bila-bila...

Many of us stay walled because we are afraid of being hurt. We are afraid to care too much for fear that the other person does not care at all.

[ Anna Eleanor Roosevelt ]

Seorang yang berjaya, Seorang yang gagal.

2009-08-08T00:08:00.001+08:00

Seorang yang berjaya, Seorang yang gagal.

Seorang yang berjaya sentiasa ada kerja yang nak dibuat
Seorang yang gagal sentiasa ada alasan yang diberi

Seorang yang berjaya sentiasa berkata “biar saya buat kerja ini untuk awak”
Seorang yang gagal sentiasa berkata “ini bukan kerja aku”

Seorang yang berjaya sentiasa melihat jawapan terhadap setiap masalah
Seorang yang gagal sentiasa melihat masalah terhadap setiap jawapan

Seorang yang berjaya berkata “perkara ni susah, tapi tak mustahil dilakukan”
Seorang yang gagal berkata “perkara ni tak mustahil dilakukan tapi ia terlalu susah”

Seorang yang berjaya melakukan kesilapan akan berkata “aku dah silap”
Seorang yang gagal melakukan kesilapan akan berkata “ini bukan silap aku”

Seorang yang berjaya sentiasa memberikan komitmen
Seorang yang gagal sentiasa memberikan janji-janji

Seorang yang berjaya menyimpan azam & cita-cita
Seorang yang gagal menyimpan angan-angan tanpa usaha

Seorang yang berjaya berkata “Aku mesti lakukan sesuatu”
Seorang yang gagal berkata “Sesuatu mesti dilakukan”

Seorang yang berjaya sentiasa melihat peluang dalam masalah
Seorang yang gagal sentiasa melihat masalah dalam peluang

Seorang yang berjaya melakukan sesuatu hingga terjadi
Seorang yang gagal membiarkan sesuatu terjadi

Seorang yang berjaya belajar daripada kegagalannya
Seorang yang gagal hanya meratapi kegagalannya

Seorang yang berjaya menyaksikan keceriaan
Seorang yang gagal menyaksikan kesedihan

heal & grow

2009-07-29T22:43:00.002+08:00

Life is all about choices. u have choices and are making them everyday and every time in your life. It is because of the choices we make and/or don't make that create the energy within us and around us.

You need to let go of the hate and anger ... it does nothing but literally eat you up, therefore it serves absolutely no purpose here. You need to also forgive yourself and stop blamming ... blamming yourself and others for lives issues and events. That too serves no purpose.

You need to find love for yourself and others. Unconditional love and self worth for yourself is so important and vital to the life force. You deserve balance and peace, peace of mind so start making choices to create that within and save your soul.

As I'm sure you are all too aware ... God does not give us
challenges that he does not feel we can handle. There is a lesson
in every challenge that is thrown at us. Find that lesson. Allow it
to make you stronger and confident in the fact that there is
Love, HONESTY, PEACE out there in the world.

Allow yourself to heal and grow. Life is beautiful if you see it
that way!

bila hati berbicara..

2009-07-29T00:02:00.002+08:00

“Allah menurunkan ujian kepada hambaNya mengikut kemampuan hambaNya itu. Tidak akan diturunkan ujian kepada orang yang tidak mampu memikul ujian yang dijatuhkan kepadanya".

Aku percaya kepada hadis ini...dan sekarang aku rasa diri aku telah diuji olehNya. Mungkin ujian yang menimpa aku kali ini tidak terlalu berat tetapi cukup untuk membuatkan aku gelisah dan gundah gulana. Ya Allah, pinjamkan kekuatanMu itu untuk aku terus tabah menghitung hari-hari yang mendatang.

aduhhh...begitu payah untuk melaksanakan kehendak orang-orang tersayang.. dan juga orang-orang sekeliling.. Keluarga terutamanya... aku tersepit, antara kehendak hati dan harapan keluarga... pernah juga terfikir - kenapa perkara sebegini menimpa aku? kenapa tidak orang lain? astaghfirullah... ceteknya imanku... aku lupa kepadaNYA... aku lupa, mungkin inilah ujianNya... aku lupa, Allah menurunkan ujian kepada hamba yang disayangiNya... aku redha...

In the space between yes and no, there's a lifetime.
It's the difference between the path you walk and one you leave behind ;
it's the gap between who you thought you could be and who you really are ;
it's the legroom for the lies you'll tell yourself in the future.

[ Change Of Heart - Jodi Picoult ]

p.s. yep.. i know, being 26, single.. still live with parents.. it's not an easy job for me..

that home belongs to u...

2009-07-20T23:23:00.002+08:00

gotta love this song.. its nice.. i love it.. from the movie BOLT.. nice movie too..

Jenny Lewis - Barking at the Moon Lyrics

I have got so much to give, I swear I do.
I may not have nine lives, this one feels brand new.
Yes I've lived a good one.
I have tried to be true.
There are some things I never realized, till I met you.
How the wind feels on my cheeks, when I'm barking at the moon.

[chorus]
There is no home like the one you've got, cuz that home belongs to you.
Woo Woo! Here I come.
Woo Woo! Back to you.
There is no home like the one you've got, cuz that home belongs to you.

Well I was in trouble, bad.
I was so confused.
I may not see in color babe, but I sure can feel blue.
I have been a lot of things, they may not all be true.
My experience was so mysterious, till I met you.
Now the sun may rise in the east, but I'm barking at the moon.

There is no home like the one you've got, cuz that home belongs to you.

no mood...

2009-07-17T12:32:00.002+08:00

malasnyer nak pegi sekolah hari nih.. tapi kalau amek mc nanti kene marah plak.. dah bape banyak dah mc nih.. aduhh.. tak boleh mc lagi nih.. kene pegi gak nih.. aduuhaaiii.. malasnyer.. tak ade mood nak pegi ngajar.. nak masuk kelas 2 murni pon cam malas.. nak masuk kelas 2 luhur lagilah mals.. nak termuntah rasernyer.

aku rasa aku perlukan motivasi la.. aku kene pergi kem ataupon kursus motivasi.. baru2 nih ade pegi motivasi kat uia.. semua cikgu2 la.. dengan prof. izzi haji ali.. ala.. yang dalam tv9, radio tuh.. renung2kan, selamat beramal.. die punye tag line laa tuh.. ermm.. bosan jer.. aku tak tau lah, aku bosan sungguh dengar prof izzi tuh membebel ari tuh.. tak ade mood langsung.. apesal tah aku nih. org lain enjoy jer aku tgk.. tp aku macam tak ade mood nak gelak.. sillynyer aku...

tapi ade amek a few words yang agak menarik.. nanti letak lah..

pening..

2009-07-15T17:13:00.002+08:00

i am updating my blog using my phone frm scho0l.. It is so boring, lame, monotonous day in school.. Bosan2 pun, kelas 2 murni kena ngan aku.. Kelas 1 optimis pun kena ngan aku.. Kelas 2 murni - bengang btol aku ngan bdk farid tu.. Eeee.. Keje payah sgt nak siapkan.. Org lain blh buat, dia je yg mengade2 tak nak buat.. Dah la tu, masuk2 je.. Ada bdk p0mpuan ni, aku tarik kerusi, dia duduk kat kerusi aku.. Bg aku, itu kurang ajar.. Aku cikgu tau! Bkn kawan atau makcik korang.. Nak bergurau budget la, agak2 la.. Aku jd menyampah.. Terus aku bad m0od la weh.. Tol0ng la bdk2 2 murni, korang pandai2.. Tp jgn sampai beg aku pun korang nak selongkar.. Nak main2 dgn beg aku.. Ape yg ada kat beg aku tu, sukati aku la.. Korang nyebok nape.. Main2 plak, ingat beg mak korang ke? Sukati aku la nak pakai baju warna itam ke, warna warni ke.. Ishh.. Bengang tul aku.. Aduhh.. Pastu, kelas 1 optimis plak.. Amboi2, menyanyi.. Azan tak kena time, main2.. Latihan aku tak siap.. Penalty card la jawapannya bdk2 oi.. Aku mmg jahat skrg.. Sume benda aku tulis dlm buku cegah ponteng, penalti.. Padan muka..

aku bukan superstar

2009-07-13T23:42:00.002+08:00

aku bukan super.. aku bukan star... aku bukan superstar...

aku hanyalah orang yang ingin dicintai..

nanti aku bagi lagu ni full version punye aa.. tapi lagu nih best la.. aku ingat lagi dulu time zaman muda2 kat uia, dlm studio, femes giler kumpulan project pop nih ngan lagu diorang "dangdut is the music of my country".. giler selamba, catchy, fun..

aduhh, saje je menghapdet blog nih.. bosan sangat2.. baru2 nih pegi melaka, temankan ina ngan remy pegi umah hasnizah.. hantar barang dan sekaligus pegi kenduri kakak2 has, 2 org... kenduri serentak.. kan senang.. sebenarnye pegi hantar barang jer.. tp kebetulan kenduri, okaylah kan.. naik keta baru remy.. huiiyyoo... best2..

hari sabtu lepas birthday adik aku si yusyaireen tuh.. masak2 sikit, panggil sedara mara dekat.. sepupu2... okay lahh.. nanti letak gambar.. dah besar adik aku tuh.. dah 11 tahun pon.. semoga adik akan menjadi wanita yang disegani dan lagi satu laa pesanan untuk adik aku.. jangan gemuk2.. dari kecik nih aku kene jaga pemakanan die.. tak nak die jadi macam aku.. susah kan.. aku tau macam mana susah jadi gemuk, so, aku tak nak adik aku hadapi derita atau benda yang aku alami selama nih... tp, selera makan die kuat betul.. so, ape aku boleh buat? aku masakkan makanan berkhasiat.. aku lebihkan makanan yang rebus, kukus dan sup2.. goreng2 had 1 lauk jer.. sebab macam bangcik suka ayam goreng.. kena ade.. kadang2 aku buat tomyam jer.. 2 lauk tuh yang die makan.. ermm..

kalau pasal sekolah tak ade ape lah.. biasa2 jer.. budak2 kelas 2 luhur ade 2 ekor yang aku menyampah tuh, masik lagi aku menyampah tgk muka diorang yang perasan bagus tuh. meluat jer aku tgk... eeeeeeee uweekk... menyampah tahap bangang punyer lah.. ahaha.. tak baik betul aku kan.. lantaklahhhh labu..

pelangi petang

2009-07-10T20:06:00.002+08:00

semalam, ade tusyen with my students.. tetibe syazana, kelas 3 ilmu ade tanye maksud lagu pelangi petang kat aku.. teringat balik lagu tuh, aku tau tuh lagu Allahyarham Sudirman Haji Arshad.. tapi betul2 menangkap jiwa, ataupon, feeling habis bile faizal af4 nyanyi balik.. best lagu tuh.. lets enjoy eh.. ni letak lagu die..

Pelangi Petang
Artist: Sudirman

Kumeniti awan yang kelabu
Kutempuhi lorong yang berliku
Mencari sinar yang menerangi
Kegelapanku

Kupercaya pasti suatu masa
Sang suria kan menyinar jua
Membawa harapan yang menggunung
Bersamanya...

Engkau tiba bagaikan pelangi
Tak bercahya namun kau berseri
Tapi cukup menghiburkan
Hati ini

Seharian waktu bersamamu
Tak terasa saat yang berlalu
Bagai pelangi petang kau kan pasti
Pergi jua...

best kan.. kan.. kan...

pick your choose..

2009-07-07T19:23:00.002+08:00

okay.. u are given 2 events.. here it is..
1) 2 days off to sg. besar.. village area, with paddy field, adventures of forest.. with couple of friends..
2) sister's birthday... it is not a big celebration.. just a small family gathering.. makan2 sikit.. malam jer..

errr... if it is up to u to choose, which one will u attend? me? i chose 2 days vacation at sg. besar.. but then, when i asked for permission from mrs.mom, she asked me.. which one is more important to u? family or friends? definitely family.. but i spent too much time for my family.. can't i just have some time for my self? for a while? dear all mommy out there? am i wrong to choose sg. besar with frens? apa2pon.. the tribe has spoken... i should stay home for my sis birthday... no more space to make a choose.. no more freedom to speak what i need to say.. NOKTAH.

klcc.. midvalley

2009-07-06T19:16:00.002+08:00

hari sabtu sepatutnya plan nak pegi melaka ngan cikgu2 gstt.. tapi kan tak jadi.. huhu.. sebab tak jadi, aku bawak la adik2 aku pegi aquaria, klcc.. masuk kena bayar rm 26 dan adik aku rm22.. so, berjalanlah kat aquaria... honestly, bosan la wehhh... alamak.. aku penah pegi kat sentosa island, singapore.. aquaria die tuh.. puhhhh... besar giler dan banyak giler ikan.. kat aquaria, jerung cuma ade tak banyak.... tapi kat aquaria sentosa island, pergghh... ikan jerung je aku raser ade 10 species, dengan dugong lagi.. there's a lot of differences dan jurang perbezaan amat ketara.. kalau masuk aquaria klcc tuh dlam 1 jam lebih2 sket dah abis tengok.. tapi kat singapore, lama giler dlm tuh sahaja... mmg la tak boleh nak bandingkan macam tuh kan.. tapi, we have to compete in a positive way laaa.. overheard this mat saleh talking behind me about the huge differences between aquaria klcc, aquaria sentosa island and also langkawi. they did sayd that langkawi's aquaria is the best. gotta be there again someday.. eheh

okay, lepas pegi aquaria.. turns out hari masih muda.. so, kami pon teruskan perjalanan ke midvalley.. tgk petsworld.. pameran dan jugak jualan binatang peliharaan.. agak mengecewakan.. because im currently looking for boa or python .. err, ular sawa atau ular boa untuk dijadikan binatang kesayangan.. aku merajuk laaa ngan kucing.. huhu.. sedih dah.. lepas oyen mati... kecewa.. tapi, last2 si bangcik nak sangat adopt sekor kucing nih, female... macam gracie dulu.. 5 month, cute la.. kucing kampung laaa tp.. adopt from PAWS.. kena bayar rm60.. okayla.. amek jer la.. dah adik ngan bgcik pon suka.. no prob.. tapi aku nak jugak carik ular sawa tuh.. nanti2.. hehehehe

anger, tense and me...

2009-06-30T19:39:00.002+08:00

today, i finally burst to those students of mime.. 1 optimis and 1 restu..
1 restu - semalam ade 3 ekor budak pompuan serong kelas, wan nur emyllia, jasmin dan idayu... kelas aku start pukul 2.15 sampai 2.50.. diorang masuk pukul 2.40pm.. so, aku tulis nama dalam buku cegah ponteng, aku mals nak bising2 so aku biarkan untuk hari tuh.. sebab dah bg nama kat cikgu disiplin.. pastu, ari nih--- penyelia petang, pn.N tanya aku.. nape budak2 tuh blh ponteng kelas aku.. adakah aku tidak dapat mengawal kelas? adakah aku terlalu menjengkelkan ataupon membosankan? adakah aku tidak pandai mengajar?
jadi, aku sangat geram.. sebab diorang aku dilabel sbg cikgu yang tak pandai kawal kelas.. bila aku masuk kelas, aku pon panggil diorang dan bertanya.. kenapa kamu semua ponteng kelas saya? dah respon yang aku dapat.............
diorang hanya pandang sesama sendiri, tergelak2 dan pandang tempat lain. buat bangang.. mmg dah bangang pon kan.. tak payah buat.. terserlah kebangangan mereka bertiga.. tak semena2 aku tengking mereka dengan sangat kuat... mampuslah nak marah, nak menyampah ke ngan aku, nak meluat ke ngan aku.. sebab diorang bertiga yang bangang tuh aku plak yang kena.. org lain tak ade masalah pon dlm kelas aku.. dah bising aku sound la kan?? aku geram sangat.......

1 optimis - budak2 nama ain, ade lagi 2,3 org.. mala ngan ape tah namanye.. dah la dari last week aku mmg bengang ngan kelas nih.. masuk lambat, bising macam pasar malam.. bile aku sound senyap sekejap.. pastu jadi balik.. ishk2.. mencabar btol... dah tadi, aku tgh ajar kat depan.. terkekek2 ketawa.. main tepuk2, cucuk2.. haih.. bg warning tak layan.. kene laaaa................ aku cukup panas baran td.. sebab aku dah sabar lamaa sangat2 dah... geram...

aduhhhh... bende yang pn.N cakap.. buat aku terfikir balik, betul ker aku nak jadi cikgu? aku tak layak ke jadi cikgu? aku mmg menjengkelkan ke? membosankan ker? aaarrgghhhh.... anger, is a part of me... tense, emo.. is my middle name....

anjakan paradigma

2009-06-30T11:27:00.002+08:00

ada orang kata aku perlukan anjakan paradigma..
guess what? thats what ive been trying to do for the past 2 months.. ahaha.. but it turn out to be not very good though.. at least im trying.. perhaps, i dont give much or enough effort to change my self.. that is why i said, i'm not very discipline.. (how can i be a good teacher?)

breakfast..

2009-06-28T08:51:00.001+08:00

jom breakfast sama2... saya masak nasi lemak pagi nih.. tak tau la sedap ke tak.. makan jer laa...

kawanku nak bina masjid

2009-06-27T10:06:00.003+08:00

waahh.. my lovey dovey friend from penang is finally.... getting serious with someone.. okay.. she didnt tell me exactly.. but, heard it from someone else, and it is quite sad to hear that kind or news from someone and not from herself .. but im happy for her.. i really am.. so very happy!!! ive got to call her as soonest possible and make her confess.. ahahahaha

kompaun.. saman??? ahahhaha

2009-06-19T21:17:00.002+08:00

yusyaila binti yunus
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pemberitahuan tindakan mahkamah kerana gagal membayar kompaun letak kereta.... bla... bla...... bla............. ampang jaya 2007

berdasarkan rekod kami, tuan/puan didapati gagal menyelesaikan bayaran kompaun bagi...................................................................
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dalam tempoh yang ditetapkan.

butiran kompaun
no pendaftaran : wqf 4799
bilangan kompaun : 9
jumlah amaun : rm900

jumlah perlu bayar selepas pengurangan 50% - 450

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.... aaa.. geram aku..

tuan/[uan boleh didakwa di mahkamah di bawah peruntukan perintah ...................
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........................... sila ambil perhatian.................. waran tangkap....
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ahaha..

*malas nak komen lah

discipline

2009-06-19T08:29:00.002+08:00

why is it so hard for me to be discipline? i have a lots of things, plans in my mind.. everything inside me little head up here.. but i seem cannot throw it or do everything right or even get a chance to do it... how can i be a little bit more discipline?

i come to a phase of my life where i seriously think that i really need to have a commitment, have something to grab in my life and not just let everything hang loose... ya Allah.. what am i talking about?? please help me..

i need to lose weight, i need to focus on carrier.. is it really my dream, my passion to be a teacher? or do i want to be something called 'project executive'? what about my degree? town planning? i want to have a master.. but in what field? should i be a lecturer? i need to clear up my mind... i need to be sure about everything in my head rite now.. i really have to.. i really do...

alhamdulillah...

2009-06-11T23:47:00.005+08:00

dah selamat sampai dari mekah 10jun pukul 11.30 malam... yeeaayyyyy.. seronoknya dah balik umah.. aduhaii.. rindunyer kat oyen.. okay.. memula pegi syria (damascus) - 3hari, amman, jordan-1hari, madinah-3hari dan last.. mekah-6hari.. lagi 2 hari digunakan untuk perjalanan... transit di suvarnabhumi, amman... aduhaii... 2 hari baru sampai destinasi.. ape2 pon, alhamdulillah..... selamat dah sumernyer..

nanti sambung lagi la.. mengantuk plak.. aduh.. dah laaa balik2 jer baru demam.. batuk2, selsema.. aduhai... ujian,..

sambutan hari guru 2009

2009-05-24T21:17:00.005+08:00

okay.. lama dah nak update tapi lupa la.. ehee.. hari isnin last week, ade buat sambutan hari guru kat sekolah.. 17 mei hari tuh.. okay lah. wlaupon bagi aku agak bosan.. sebab kat skolah dulu2 macam havic giler.. kat sekolah ni macam bosan jer.. ahahah.. tak ape, aku maafkan sebab aku bukan cikgu betul pon.. ahahaha. ape2 pon.. thanx kepada semua students 1 restu, 1 optimis, 2 ehsan, 2 luhur yang ade bagi hadiah. terima kasih banyak2.. nanti kalau saya rajin, ade duit.. saya balas...
ni antara gambar2 sambutan hari guru tuh..

ni gambo kek yang budak2 aku ajar tusyen bagi.. atikah, syazana, puteri, fazilah, maziah... ramai2 bagi.. best jadi cikgu time macam nih... ahahahah
lagi gambo..

ni gambo berkumpul sebelum berarak beramai2 ke tapak perhimpunan.. bak kata yong.. before the war starts.. ahahah

gambo dengan 2 feveret students aku.. syazana ngan wanie.. kelas 3 ilmu..

ade lagi nak letak gambo.. tapi kalau letak gamba hadiah kang, orang kata berlagak plak.. tak ape lah.. ahahahaha

happy teacher's day~

2009-05-15T22:42:00.003+08:00

selamat hari guru yang ke-38... this is my first year celebrating hari guru as my day// eee.. semalam, aku ade buat kelas tambahan kepada budak2 yang nak belajar la kan.. ade la budak 3ilmu 2 orang.. syazana dan puteri, 2murni-atikah, adhwa, 2optimis-fazilah, adibah.. adik syazana, darjah 6-maziah... diorang beli keke kat aku... bagi kad.. alahai.. tak upload lagi gambo sebab enset aku rosak.. oohh yelah.. enset n95 aku ade problem... huhu.. so, skrg pakai enset abang.. pda htc.. tapi abg kata die bagi aku jer sebab die baru beli enset motorola baru kat singapore.. kat malaysia tak kuar lagi.. tak tau lah aku ape kenamanye... sambung balik citer hari guru eh.... haa.. diorang beli kek american chocolate kat aku.. so, aku bawak turun bawah potong ngan mak aku.. diorang pon okay2 semuanya.. mak aku kan cikgu... ahahaa so sambut bersama2 la kiranya kan..

so, kirenye dah setengah tahun jadi cikgu nih.. okay lah.. aku mmg banyak bersabar ngan karenah budak2 dari kelas first sampai kelas last... baru2 nih, hari jumaat dalam kelas 1restu.. aku tgh duduk kat meja guru la kan.. tgh ade 4,5 org students bertanyakan soalan.. diorang main2, yang sorang nih pegi pulas tangah kawan die.. kesian betul.. dah la budak yang memulas tuh 3 kali besar dari budak yang dipulas tuh.. ape lagi......... tergeliat @ terseliuh la tangan budak tuh.. abih la aku kena ngan

so, tahun ni temanya adalah... "Guru Pembina Negara Bangsa".. ni lirik lagu tema tahun ni eh..penyelia petang.. nape tak jaga kelas betul2? napa itu? nape ini? aduhhh.. mencabar... seriously... mencabar kesabaran, emosi.. mental fizikal..

GURU PEMBINA NEGARA BANGSA

Bersedia melangkah megah
Walaupun sukar baktiku curah
Demi mu ibu pertiwi
Sumpah ku lafaz janji kukota

Berikrar eratkan bangsa
Kukuhkan cinta kepada Negara
Berjasa terus berjasa
Menyebarkan ilmu tiada batasnya

Guru Pembina Negara Bangsa
Gagah perjuangkan visi Negara
Bangunkan jiwa yang pelbagai rupa
Demi agama dan nusa tercinta

Guru Pembina Negara Bangsa
Tetap Unggul senadakan suara
Sehaluan menggapai matlamatnya
Cemerlang dan gemilangkan Malaysia

Pencipta Lagu : Khairulrizam bin Khalid
Pencipta Lirik : Ili Nurbahirah bt Baharudin
Pengubah Muzik : Marzuki bin Tambi

ni lagu yang setiap tahun bulan mei mesti budak2 sekolah akan dengar cikgu2 diorang nyanyi.. lainlah kalau ade budak2 yang ikut cikgu2 diorang gi karaoke atau main boling.. (ke aku jer yang macam tu?) ahahaha..
lagu glamour bulan mei every year...

Lagu Guru Malaysia

Kami guru Malaysia
Berikrar dan berjanji
Mendidik dan memimpin
Putra putri negara kita
Pada Seri Paduka
Kami tumpahkan setia
Rukun Negara kita
Panduan hidup kami semua

Di bidang pembangunan
Kami tetap bersama
Membantu, membina
Negara yang tercinta

Amanah yang diberi
Kami tak persiakan
Apa yang kami janji
Tunai tetap kami tunaikan

Lagu & Lirik : Hashim Ahmad

best lagu ni sebenarnye..

my bestfriend's wedding

2009-05-14T19:26:00.006+08:00

10 may 2009.. ajot's got married!!! cantik sangat ajot hari tuh.. aku happy sangat tgk ajot kawen.. very simple wedding and very grand ajot.. ajot look so fine and so did ashari.. ahahahah.. cantik la.. sepadan sangat diorang.. ajot kawin 10 mei.. aku, ina ngan aziah.. termasuk atiyah n family pegi hari sabtu... lepak2 umah yong adilah...

best.. lepak umah yong... pastu yong bawak pegi makan nasi beriyani gam... baek punya kat pelangi mall.. sedap2... pastu esok paginya.. kami pon meneruskan perjalanan ke rumah pengantin of the day.... ajot.. eheheh.. sampai2 jer ajot tengah baca ape tah.. aku tau la kene baca something2... lepas nikah.. tapi ape ke nama nyer aku pon tak tau.. ehehe.. pastu.. kitorang makan2... here is some pics of ajot's wedding..

ajot sangat cantik.. nanti aku letak gamba die.. betul cakap.. die cantik..

eheheh.. dapat jumpe ramai kawan2 masa wedding ajot nih.. kak ita.. pegawai perancang bandar kat teluk intan.. lama tak jumpe... comel kak ita.. ehhee.. jumpe has gak.. pegawai perancang gak kat jpbd.. remy, pegawai perancang jugak kat mpsubang jaya... zaime, environmentalist tegar dari ere.. mateen ngan tunang die..
seronok tengok yong dan anak2nye yang dah besar... ridha ngan yong makes a happy and unique couple.. atiyah, faris dan fauzi... waahh.. lagi besar anak dari mak nih... ahahahha.. happy to met all of u guys.. my very special friends.... so guys, who's next? mateen? hasnizah and remy? kak ita? ina? sape2 lahhh.. jangan lupa jemput saya yer....

KL trip with kelab setia dan sejarah

2009-05-14T09:14:00.006+08:00

ahaha.. been sooo long since I last updated this blog.. well.. there is actually lots of new things to be updated.. i'll start with the visits to KL.. particularly, planetarium negara, muzium negara, muzium polis and also masjid negara.. yayy me!! ahahaa.. macam jauh dan macam happening giler jer kan.. it is!! seronok la.. ramai2 pegi ngan geng2 dan ngan budak2 yang cam best.. aku tak pernah terfikir nak pegi muzium polis.. tapi hari tuh dengan rombongan sekolah.. aku sampai ke muzium polis.. walaupun secara amnya aku benci polis.. tapi tak boleh benci2 nanti Allah nak tunjuk.. die bagi aku kawen ngan polis ker.. eh, kalau inspektor okay pe... eheh.. bagi yang badan agak2 tough or buff tuh.. macam mario lopez.. ehehehe.. ahhh.. gatal sudah...
okay.. best jer rombongan tuh.. turun naik tangga.. aku rasa ade lah kalori aku hari tuh terbakar begitu banyak.. ahahah
muzium polis, planetarium negara.. this is my first time ive been there.. seriously.. aku ni dok jer kl.. ahahah.. starhill.. tempat lepak ngan enjoy dan shopping laju jer aku sampai... tapi tempat berilmiah? tempat education? ahahahaha LOL

ape2 pon.. lawatan tuh memang best.. seronok la..boleh pegi lagi kalau ade kan.. 'wink'..

tired.. penat.. letih.. tiresome

2009-04-24T10:55:00.002+08:00

hari nih rasa penat sangat ngan sumer bende.. penat nak masak, penat dengan semua orang.. penat ngan segala benda.. tapi ade satu jer yang aku tak penat.. mafia wars.. tapi boring nak tunggu energy upload balik.. tapi, ade lagi satu.. tgk muvi2 nih.. tgk lelaki badan sasa yang bertatu.. u know, gentleman with tattoos..uuhh.. i can never get bored with them... ahaha.. aku tak tau nape, tapi aku suke betul ngan tough man with tattoos.. aduhh.. mario lopez mmg aku suke sangat2, tapi die tak ade tattoo.. tak ape.. sebab aku suke body die dan jugak rupa die yang kacak tuh.. eheheh

banak lagi nak letak gambar kalau ikutkan... tapi, hari ni patutnyer aku letak gamba budak2 kelas 2 luhur yang macam beruk tuh... ahahaha.. nanti2.. tak pegi sekolah lagi hari nih.. jumaat kan hari ni. so, kalau hari jumaat pegi kol 2.00... esoklah kalau aku boleh letak pon.. nanti aku update lagik.. ehehe

brain freeze..

2009-04-23T23:19:00.005+08:00

penah kena tak brain freeze? kadang2 bile makan ais krim or something frizzy.. macam kat secret recipe ade fruit frizz tuh kan... die blend the fruit with ice.. sedap... tapi sejuk giler.. bile sedut jer, feels like one part of my brain suddenly freezing and cold.. ahahah.. serious!

sebenarnye, saje jer.. mata tak boleh nak lelap.. skrg dah pukul 12.02am.. slalu time2 macam nih dah tido.. yer la.. kite ni skang maid dan cikgu sepenuh masa... pagi2 kol 6 tuh dah kene bangun.. ahahah.. tapi kalau malas.. harus pukul 7 baru sedar diri.. kalau tak pon, time yang boleh tido lambat sikit tuh.. kol 8 baru mata bukak.. heheheh... tapi, ape2 pon.. bangun pukul bape pon, yangpenting lepas bangun tido, baju kotor kene masuk dalam washer dulu... tekan, automatic jalan.. for 58minutes.. pastu, kuarkan ayam, daging atau anything i feel like to cook hari tuh.. tapi ayam kene ada hari2.. nanti bang cik tak makan kalau tak ade ayam... while waiting ayam, daging or anything to defrost, sapu sampah dekat dalam umah, luar umah.. bagi ikan2 dan ayam2 makan... kalau rajin siram pokok bunga.. kalau tak biler balik dari skolah baru siram.. pastu, masak2.... lepas masak2, sidai baju.. pastu ade la time nak main mafia wars... waaahh.. feveret skang game tuh.. husband yong adilah la nih.. ridha, die yang ngajor.. ahahahah tuh la yong.. dah aku tersatu geng mafia ngan laki hang..
so kol 12 boleh la pegi sekolah.... kalau ade hari tuh kelas 2 luhur, aku pon raser nak luruh jantung nih... menyampah betul dengan budak2 tuh skrg... lantak laaaaaaaa
biler balik sekolah kalau ade tuisyen, mak tolong lipat baju.. kalau tak.. lipat baju, kemas umah.. pinggan2 dan lauk2 nak kene simpan.. basuh pinggan.. kutip pinggan, cawan dan botol kosong.. ishk2.. kan ke dah jadi macam suri rumah tuh... kan.. kan..

aaa.. pasal 2 luhur... tadi ade kelas diorang.. waktu 6 dan 7.. 5.00pm sampai 6.10.. lama giler rasernye... kesian dekat ade la.. lebih kurang 10 org yang nak belajar.. yang lain? haram... nota yang aku bagi kat depan, agaknye salin la setengah.. pastu buat tak tau dah... ade yang tido.. lepas habis salin nota, aku suruh buat latihan.. macam biasa, yang buat latihan 10 org jer la.... yang lain dok main baling2 air la.. menari shuffle la.. aku punyer malas nak layan... senang2 aku buat bodo jer.. diorang dah main2 pastu nak ngadu2.. panggil2 aku, aku buat bangang jer.. malas aku nak layan.. biler aku ngajar, korang buat tak layan.. ni aku plak buat tak layan ngan korang... yang 10 org yang nak belajar tuh, aku suruh diorang dok depan sket.. senang aku nak cakap.. tak payah aku nak terjerit2.. buat habis suara jer.. diorang buat cikgu nih macam tunggul jer kat depan.. sedih kadang2... sebab macam cikgu jer yang semangat nak ajar.. tapi budak2 buat bangang jer.. ouhh.. kelas 2 luhur tuh, kelas last... bukan 2nd last.... satu jer conclusion yang aku boleh buat... PATUTLAHHHH!!!!
aku suker kelas 3 ilmu, dulu aku penah ajar diorang matematik ganti akak yang 'konon serba tahu dan best' tuh.. walaupon tak 100% dalam kelas tuh pay attention tapi aku suker gak.. ade lebih dari setengah yang okay nak belajar.. biasalah.. ade 1 group yang malas... normal la aku rasa... tapi yang best biler diorang nak belajar, diorang akan jadi serious.. pastu ade sorang, dua yang biler budak2 bising, diorang macam marah.. dan sebab bdk2 lelaki yang marah tuh agak taiko, diorng diam.. aku suker 2 org budak lelaki dalam kelas tuh... comel sangat.. tapi sorang tuh org asli.. ya Allah.. muka, nama macam melayu.. patut la tak penah bagi salam... yang pompuan2 pulak.. (except yang kat belakang dan cukup pemalas) sumer lepak2.. cool, best la.. boleh jadi member.. dan diorang pon kate, diorang suke aku jadi cikgu diorang.. buat seketika, aku rasa BANGGA & HAPPY JADI CIKGU... kelas tuh bukan kelas depan2.. kelas yang agak hujung.. tapi satu jer, diorang masih ade hormat kat aku ataupon cikgu... bile masuk kelas, aku suker jer nak berkawan ngan diorang.. tapi kelas 2 luhur macam tak allow aku untuk berkawan dengan diorang.. (macam bagus.. tapi tak pon).. poyo sangat2 kelas tuh aku rasa.. baru 14 thn, mak bapak tanggung makan, pakai, berak sumer tuh.. nak belagak samseng.. elok lah.. samseng taik kucing...

kadang2 aku pelik la.. kenapa diorang macam nih? mak bapak tak ajar ke adab sopan dengan org yang lebih tua? mak bapak tak penah ajar diorang hormat dengan cikgu atau org lagi tua ker? tak la kot eh.... aku rasa nanti aku nak amek gamba diorang yang buat perangai macam haram tuh.. aku letak kat sini... aku letak video ker... menarik ape... haaa.. esok aku ade kelas lagi ngan diorang.. nanti aku amek.. eheheheehe

don't give up...

2009-04-23T22:57:00.002+08:00

dear all my frens..... please dont ever give up..
this is for me too...

Some days are a battle, a steep climb uphill,
and you think you won't make it and never will, but
don't give up!

When the money is low, and the bills are high
and you hang your head and want to cry,
don't give up!

Things will go wrong-- and they always will;
but try to smile when you get the bill, and

don't give up!

Life may be a pallet of gray skies and blue
but only storms can bring a rainbow to you, so
don't give up!

Even when your spirit's flying low and you're floating on doubt
and your whole life is suddenly turned inside out,
don't give up!

Let me tell you what success is all about,
it means hanging in there and sticking it out! So
don't give up!

When you're tired and you can't go on,
and your fuel is low and your hope is gone,
don't give up!

Remember your dreams even when they seem far,
because you never know just how close you are, if you
don't give up!

The tide will always turn when you're hardest hit,
So give it your all, but never quit! And
don't give up!

"Don't Give Up," written and designed by Bobette Bryan, 2002

bbq with para GSTT

2009-04-20T17:52:00.004+08:00

okay.. last saturday night.. geng2 gstt kat smk gombak setia.. (my friends and i) ade buat bbq kat umah salah seorang my gstt buddy kat greenwood.. it turns out yang my gstt frens are very cool and nice..

ada ayam, sotong, udang dan hotdog.. besides, ade banyak lagi makanan.. mmg banyak betul.. sampai ade yang bertapau bawak balik lah... so far, as a teacher.. the environment is very nice... all my frens is soo nice too. irst am a lil bit afraid.. u know, i have some kind of problems working with malays... but hey.. the senior techers mmg ade yang gitu-gitu sket.. tapi kebanyakan cikgu2 mmg best.. sporting.. kawan2 gstt mmg la.. sumer muda2 lagi dan mmg best.. cikgu practical yang muda2 tuh.. sue.. dari upsi.. pastu cikgu tetap yang muda.. mmg seronok la diorang. sangat cool.. aku takut sangat memula jadi cikgu. yer la, aku ni panas baran.. tapi so far okay la.. tak lah aku nak marah tak tentu pasal... walaupon last week betul2 geram dengan budak kelas 2 luhur.. ya Allah.. 40 orang dalam kelas tuh.. aku ade bagi kerja.. bukannya tak tau.. dah bincang lagi.. diorang tinggal buat lagi 5 soalan sahaja.. dan cara kerja sumer aku dah bagi.. kelas nih mmg kelas 2nd last la.. tapi aku tak expect macam tuh skali.. aku dulu jahat gak.. tapi kerja aku buat... kot.... ahahhaa.. aku buat.. betul.. aku buat kerja aku.. aku suke ponteng kelas cikgu rahmah jer.. matematik moden.. sebab die slalu panggil aku bengong... huuuuhhh... so now.. aku ajar matematik.. history do repeated by itself....

hari jumaat aku tak masuk kelas tuh.. aku malas.. aku pegi lepak kat tempat lain.. pastu bile balik cikgu firdaus.. macam amrah jer.. sebab die terpaksa relief 2 masa... eheheh.. jangan lah marah kak firdaus... nanti saya belanja mcd.. huhu.. so, hari ni, hari isnin... aku demam la hari nih.. serious... hingus aku meleleh jer.. pening kepala.. sebab selsema, running nose.. kepala pon jadi sakit.. tapi emotionally pon aku malas nak malsuk kelas 2 luhur tuh... 2 masa pertama tuh hari ni.. its really really not good for my karma... ahahaha.. am i a bad teacher? am i? hell i dont give a damn.. like a care... lalalala~~~~

but please ya Allah.. let me make the best out of this mess.. give me strength, give me Your blessing.. tabahkan hatiku.. kuatkan imanku.. semoga Kau sentiasa menjaga dan memberi kebahagiaan kepada orang tuaku..

i sit & i think..

2009-04-20T07:37:00.002+08:00

I Sit and Think

I sit beside the fire and think of all that I have seen,

of meadow-flowers and butterflies in summers that have been;

Of yellow leaves and gossamer in autumns that there were,

with morning mist and silver sun and wind upon my hair.

I sit beside the fire and think of how the world will be

when winter comes without a spring that I shall never see.

For still there are so many things that I have never seen:

in every wood in every spring there is a different green.

I sit beside the fire and think of people long ago,

and people who will see a world that I shall never know.

But all the while I sit and think of times there were before,

I listen for returning feet and voices at the door.

JRR Tolkien

“My life is crumbling around me, and all I can do is watch the sand sift through my shaky fingers. Everything I touch is destroyed in a matter of days. I am a plague, cursing all those around me. I am scorned every waking minute of every blazing day. With a fake smile on my face, and tear stains in my heart, I make the best of each day. Less painful than the wicked truth. Life spiralling out of control . . . why won’t it stop? When will it end? The time is now. I must leave you. And never forget — I love you. No matter what.”

dear all my friends..

2009-04-05T14:46:00.002+08:00

okay.. got this email from 'jacques'.. it's nice...

One day, when I was a freshman in high school,
I saw a kid from my class was walking home from school.
His name was Kyle.
It looked like he was carrying all of his books.
I thought to myself, 'Why would anyone bring home all his books on a Friday?
He must really be a nerd.'
I had quite a weekend planned (parties and a football game with my friends tomorrow afternoon), so I shrugged my shoulders and went on.
As I was walking, I saw a bunch of kids running toward him.
They ran at him, knocking all his books out of his arms and tripping him so he landed in the dirt.
His glasses went flying, and I saw them land in the grass about ten feet from him
He looked up and I saw this terrible sadness in his eyes
My heart went out to him. So, I jogged over to him as he crawled around looking for his glasses, and I saw a tear in his eye.
As I handed him his glasses, I said, 'Those guys are jerks. '
They really should get lives.
' He looked at me and said, 'Hey thanks!'
There was a big smile on his face.
It was one of those smiles that showed real gratitude.
I helped him pick up his books, and asked him where he lived.
As it turned out, he lived near me, so I asked him why I had never seen him before.
He said he ha d gone to private school before now..
I would have never hung out with a private school kid before.
We talked all the way home, and I carried some of his books
He turned out to be a pretty cool kid.
I asked him if he wanted to play a little football with my friends
He said yes.

We hung out all weekend and the more I got to know Kyle, the more I liked him, and my friends thought the same of him.
Monday morning came, and there was Kyle with the huge stack of books again.
I stopped him and said, 'Boy, you are gonna really build some serious muscles with this pile of books everyday!

' He just laughed and handed me half the books.
Over the next four years, Kyle and I became best friends.
When we were seniors we began to think about college.
Kyle decided on Georgetown and I was going to Duke.
I knew that we would always be friends, that the miles would never be a problem.
He was going to be a doctor and I was going for business on a football scholarship.
Kyle was valedictorian of our class.
I teased him all the time about being a nerd.
He had to prepare a speech for graduation.
I was so glad it wasn't me having to get up there and speak

Graduation day, I saw Kyle.
He looked great.
He was one of those guys that really found himself during high school.
He filled out and actually looked good in glasses.
He had more dates than I had and all the girls loved him.
Boy, sometimes I was jealous!
Today was one of those days.
I could see that he was nervous about his speech.
So, I smacked him on the back and said, 'Hey, big guy, you'll be great!'
He looked at me with one of those looks (the really grateful one) and smiled.
' Thanks,' he said.
As he started his speech, he cleared his throat, and began

'Graduation is a time to thank those who helped you make it through those tough years.
Your parents, your teachers, your siblings, maybe a coach..but mostly your friends...
I am here to tell all of you that being a friend to someone is the best gift you can give them.
I am going to tell you a story.'
I just looked at my friend with disbelief as he told the story of the first day we met.
He had planned to kill himself over the weekend.
He talked of how he had cleaned out his locker so his Mom wouldn't have to do it later and was carrying his stuff home.
He looked hard at me and gave me a little smile.
'Thankfully, I was saved.My friend saved me from doing the unspeakable.'
I heard the gasp go through the crowd as this handsome, popular boy told us all about his weakest moment.
I saw his Mom and dad looking at me and smiling that same grateful smile.
Not until that moment did I realize it's depth.
Never underestimate the power of your actions.
With one small gesture you can change a person's life.
For better or for worse.

'Friends are angels who lift us to our feet when our wings have trouble remembering how to fly.'

There is no beginning or end.. Yesterday is history.

Tomorrow is a mystery.

Today is a gift.

biggest loser

2009-03-27T19:23:00.002+08:00

watched biggest loser from hallmark channel... bestnyer.. macam i really am definitely suitable for the show.. OMG.. i really need to put off a lots of weight, all this fats... ishk2.. macam mana nih... aduuhh... i need more discipline and focus for what i need and what i want.. discipline is the 1st thing here...

tomorrow ade test mtest for kpli application.. hurrmm.. i hope i'll be lucky for this time..

bangang itu aku..

2009-03-22T12:14:00.003+08:00

memang la dengan aku jer mak nak sakit hati.. nak kecik hati, sbb aku jer yang kene buat.. bgcik biler mak suruh buat lari tak ape pulak... sedangkan bangcik bukannya buat ape pon.. yer la.. mmg aku sakit hati pon.. aku slalu kene buat mende2 nih.. tapi yang bgcik tak buat pon.. bile mak suruh die lari jer ade tuh la ni lah...
siap boleh pegi kuantan pegi lepak umah awek die 2 hari.. mak ngan babah tak kisah pon. pergi lahh. kat umah pon tak ade ape kerja sangat pon.. pergilahhhhhhh...
bersuka ria ngan awek ko tuh.. pergilahh... aku nak pegi mana.. pakwe pon tak ade.. kawan2 jauh2.. busy2 semuanya.. yer laaa..... aku ni jugaklah yang paling bangsat sekali.. yang paling bangang sekali aku nih ha.. tak ade org lain...

melodramatic..

2009-03-21T03:22:00.002+08:00

21st march 2009, 3.23am... i can't sleep.. aarrgghhhh... aduhaii, what the hell is wrong with me? damn...
ahaha.. sambil2 tengok citer 'i know pronunce u chuck and larry'.. ahaha.. aku suka betul laa ngan adam sandler.. ishk2.. best giler la mamat ni berlakon.. i likey... ohh.. i'm blur.. and so frustated.. went to tawakal this morning.. i have to get the wound stitched.. perhaps next week, and to do that.. i have to be warded again.. at least for 2 days.. aduiihh.. biler pikir kena masuk wad balik raser macam tak payah laa pegi lagi.. biarkan jer laa.. tapi nanti tak elok susah pulak..

tadi pegi carik air gamat.. silap beli la.. terbeli jeli gamat.. dah la mahal.. ceiisstt.. tengah tak ade gaji macam sekarang ni.. teruk betul.. susah rasanya..tuh la.. tak penah menyimpan lagi.. hurmm..

waahh.. dah pukul 3.55am. nak tido la.. i need to get some sleep.. tomorrow nak pegi hkl, nak kene buat medical check up.. kalau keje gomen mmg kene buat kan.. so.. kalau tak tido karang.. darah tinggi sumer naik plak.. tapi alhamdulillah, takat ni, darah tinggi ke kencing manis ke, tak ade.. slalu check kencing manis.. tapi selalu darah dalam 4.5 - 6.5 jer.. tak lebih.. dimana masih di tahap normal or ideal.. darah tinggi pon tak ade masalah.. okay then.. nanti la sambung lagi.. kene paksa diri untuk tido jugak..

bosan..

2009-03-12T12:43:00.002+08:00

bosannye dok umah da 2 minggu mc.. aduhh.. memang laaa dok umah tuh best.. yang tak bestnye ialah penambahan ape yang tak patut bertambah... kilo's aa or course.. tado pegi jumpe doktor. tawakal la kan.. doc tuh kate luka tuh makin teruk.. dah nak start bernanah. jahitan yang terputus tuh kene jahit balik.. waaaa.. aku tak nak.. last2 die kate tak yah jahit la. tapi kena datang every day untuk bersihkan.. cuci wound tuh.. alamak... sakitnyer tadi die cuci wound.. aduhh.. pedih giler piggy... huhuu..

alamak.. nanti sambung..

warded..

2009-03-05T20:45:00.002+08:00

ehehe.. hari ni baik dari wad.. ive spent 5 days at hopsital tawakal... ehehee... ade ketumbuhan, pilonidal sinus with abcess.. gumpalan nanah dan darah yang dah lama sebenarnye. dulu masa belajar pon dah ade.. ingatkan just bisul biasa.. tapi mmg sakit.. tak boleh duduk.. die jadi kat bhgn blkg badan.. atas dari bhgn pinggul, bawah sikit dari pinggang.. ahaha.. die dekat2 ngan spine, so doktor kata its quite emergency dan harus dioperate segera.. so, masuk hari sabtu.. trus operation pukul 2 sampai pukul 4.. keluar trus duduk wad. then, sebab wound tuh bernanah, tak boleh jahit lagi.. hari ke empat baru masuk lagi skali operation dan jahit wound tu.. masa small operation yang ke dua tuh, doktor kata sikit jer, tak yah biusla... ya Allah. menangis2 aku dibuatnya.. keluar habis air hidung bagai.. baru doktor letak bius.. selamba jer die.. nurse2 tuh macam nak marah doktor jer sebab tak bagi bius.. sakit tauuuu.. aduiihhh.

anyway.. aku okay.. aku still dapat mc for 2 weeks.. alahai.. sakit sungguh biler berjalan lama, biler duduk lama2 pon sakit.. hari ni.. berdarah la plak.. tangan tak duduk diam. aduihh.. malas nak pegi klinik jumpe doktor tuh balik.. nanti die suruh dok dalam wad lagi... tak nakkkk..

time2 macam nih, kite boleh la tau.. mana kawan kita yang betul2 ikhlas.. kawan mana yang concern pasal kita.. kawan mana yang betul2 amek berat. thanks yong, aziah, kak wan, jem, amir pon... cikgu2 kawan ku.. norlisuhana, kak maimun, kak zu... yer la.. aku pon tak boleh expect much, aku tak bgtau org pon.. tapi kadang2 biler dok dlam wad tuh, aku harap ade la org yang aku bgtau call. tanye khabar.. tapi.. hurmm... tak ape lah.. mungkin tak ramai yang concern pada aku pon.. bile jadi macam ni, tau lah aku yang aku ade 2, 3 org kawan yang betul2 ikhlas, amek berat pasal aku.. terima kasih ya kawan2.. sebenarnya, tak datang menjenguk tuh tak ape.. tapi bile dapat sms or call from u guys.. i am all glad and happy... betul.. tak perlu la datang susah2 harung jalan jem dan sebagainya.. satu call, dan sms dah memadai untuk buat aku rasa disayangi dan terharu.. cikgu sue dan cikgu maimun pon hari2 sms dan bertanya khabar.. thanx yer... ehehe.. really appreciate that.. yong, aziah.. kak wan... ahahaha.. doktor ensem tak ade la yong adilah, aziah... ahahaha... doktor tua2 dah.. tak syok pon...

betul tau, time2 macam ni.. maksud aku, tima aku kat spital.. rasa sunyi sangat.. i fell very2 lonely.. i betul2 kene carik pakwe la aku rasa... kawan baikku yang sorang tuh sangat jauh di johor.. kawan baikku lagi sorang yang ade kat keramat kene outstation plak ke pahang.. ishk22... kawan2 rapat di kl pon busy2... nak datang melawat pon tak ade kenderaan.. kakak mizah yang duduk kat depan aku, umur 34.. belum kahwin.. ade kencing manis.. dan slipdisk.. sakit pinggang laa ringkasnya.. die pon tak ade pakto, tapi kawan2 die ari2 menjenguk.. ade kawan die datang dari melaka, datang dari temerloh.. ade kawan datang dari seremban.. seronoknye aku tengok.. tapi aku, all the time tak ade org pon... i mean kawan2 la.. family wajib la datang.. abang, bangcik, adik, mama demam.. babah pon hari2 datang... terima kasih.. angah tau angah alone.. tapi my family always there for me.. kak wan, marah betul bile saya bgtau saya kat wad dah 3 hari.. marah betul kak wan bile saya btak bgtau saya sebenarnye sakit.. sorry kak wan.. bukan tak nak bgtau.. akak sendiri pon ade banyak perkara nak dipikirkan... ehehe...

so, itulah kisahnya.. aku admitted to tawakal hari sabtu 28 feb dan keluar 5 march.. for ketumbuhan or pilonidal sinus with abcess.. sekarang masih lagi luka tuh bernanah.. nampaknye esok kene pegi gak jumpe doktor.. ahahaha. malasnyer...

teacher ohh.. teacher

2009-02-17T21:29:00.002+08:00

adihh.. dah bape minggu ek jadi cikgu.. alhamdulillah, takat ni tak ade raser malas2 nak bangun pagi pegi kerja.. tak ade perasaan malasnyer nak pegi kerja jumpa orang kat dlm bilik guru tuh... tak ade perasaan malasnye nak jumpa budak2.. alhamdulillah. semoga Allah sentiasa bukak hatiku untuk mengajar dan terus mengajar tanpa jemu..
seronok ade geng.. yong adilah pon dah jadi TEACHER!!! eeehehe.. ade gang.. yayy22..
so, same2 lah kite jadi cikgu yer.. aku berharap semoga kita semua happy dalam hidup.. jadi cikgu bukanlah yang paling aku impikan.. tapi ini adalah salah satu kerjaya yang aku harapkan.. agaknye its in my blood kot.. who knows kan.. my mom is a teacher.. good one, so agaknyer terpengaruh dengan mak jugak la tuh... ahaha..
tak ape.. berusaha!!

salam, cikgu yus..

2009-02-03T19:46:00.002+08:00

ahahahah..... i feel weird every time students say.. Assalamualaikum cikgu".. Good Morning teacher".. aaawww... i feel special..
but then.. today is my second day at school.. tapi, pagi2 lagi... waktu pertama, 7.20 pagi...eh, bukan. waktu pertama kelas relief aku tuh elok jer.. budak2 yang baik.. waktu ke 4.. i'm supposed to take relief class mata pelajaran sivik im supposed.. kelas 4 kreatif.. budak2 tak ade dalam kelas... ish2.. jenuh aku mencarik.. pegi pejabat tanye budak2 tuh sebelum nih kelas ape.. ikut jadual waktu, PJK sebelum nih.. aku pon ke padang yang lecah tuh.. tapi tak ade.. last2.. aku malas nak layan.. balik bilik guru jer la.. buat tak tau...
pastu, kelas relief lagi.. kelas 3 ehsan dan 3 aktif.. pon budak2 tuh tak ade.. pusing lagi mencarik.. dah la sekolh tuh besar.. geramnyer aku.. kasut tak guna tuh.. melecet kaki aku.. aduhhhh...
tapi tak ape.. seronok jer rasanya.. thats the challenge la my mom said.. its okay then.. berusahalah yusyaila!!!!!

housewife mode.. missing somebody

2009-01-29T18:39:00.004+08:00

ahaha..
bestnyer.. jadi suri rumah... err.. not really.. im not married yet, so just literally suri rumah laa kirenye.. i heard a song by jonas brother.. LOVEBUG.. its so cute and nice.. okay, jonas brothers just like~duhh.. but this song really got me.. and yeah, i cannot lie to myself that i'm missing somebody that really2 cannot be mine.. not that i love him, but i'm missing the moments when we was a very close fren, close buddy.. someone that really can listen to me when i have loads to say.. when i'm starting to feel emo, frustated, sad, and others.. i really missed the moments.. i dont know.. ahaha.. all this thing make me feel that i really need a man in my life.. desperately?? NO..hell NO!! aahhhh.. bencinya perasaan yang macam ni.. i dont have time for all this.. what really need my attention now is.. FIND A JOB!!!! ahahaha.. yeah.. find a job..
well, actually.. i already have a job. i'll be a teacher this february.. i'll be teaching at SMK Gombak Setia.. still dont know what subject.. but the officer.. En. Kamar Din from PPD Gombak said.. probably i have to teach english and mathematics.. and still dont know for which year.. tingkatan berapa? kalau tingkatan lima.. aduhhhhh... actually bukan la cikgu yang betul2 tuh.. its just GSTT (guru sandaran tanpa tauliah / tidak terlatih).. contract for 1 year.. so, guyss.. wish me luck okay... only God knows how dilemma i am right now.. i need to straightened up my mind, teaching is a very good job, and im doing this for a very good cause.. what ever come later.. later laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
i've been doing the house chores for 2 days already.. including today.. goshh.. i really respect.. bak kata apek "suspek" abisss laa kat house wifes... yong adilah, kak normi, my cousins pon.. for all house wifes.. saya sangat kagum dengan anda semua.. sanggup untuk berkorban ur brain.. ur professional skills and knowledge, berkorban ur dreams to be someone pro.. to be with ur kids.. to be there when ur husband come back.. to cook the dishes every day.. aku baru 2 hari.. tapi dah pikir.. ape aku nak masak ni.. semalam dah buat kari.. tomyam.. ari nih nak masak ape? masak lemak lah.. babah suke makan asam pedas.. sedap gak.. hurrmm.. see.. see.. baru 2 hari.. dah tak tau nak masak ape.. hurrmm.. really2 respect housewifes!!! never look down to them.. they r much more valuables than u working moms!! ahahah.. i wonder what i will be nanti.. housewife ke? alamak.. tak sanggup rasernye nak dok umah jer... i'm not that strong.. nanti mesti kene consult yong adilah.. atiyah also.. but first of all.. kene carik bakal husband laaaaaa... ahahahahahahaahahha (gelak besar.. sangat2 besar)

tagged --- from YONG

2009-01-22T16:58:00.003+08:00

1. Do you think you are hot?
not at all.. i am cold..

2. Upload your favorite picture of you.
cannot find any...

3. Why do you like that picture?
ntah.. as i cannot find one.. so.. no comment.

4. When was the last time you ate pizza?
last 2 weeks.. dominos pizza.. beef pepperoni.. yummy~

5. The last song you listened to is...
so what - pink

6. What are you doing right now besides this?
eating cucur badak.. baru lepas goreng ni.. panas2

7. What name would you prefer besides this?
i love my name.. its unique.. :)

Tag 5 people.
1) yong.. (boleh buat lagi ker? ko dah buat pon kan.. boleh la..)
2) tiyah
3) aziah
4) syera
5) kak wan

8. Who is no. 1?
my best friend (BFF).. a tough mother, a wife and a great buddy..

9. No. 3 is having a relationship with?
ntah.. tak pernah diberitahu namanya..

10. Say something about no.5
great mom, great friend.. cool and awesome sister

11. How about no. 4?
my best friend from my younger years... kawan sekolah

12. Who is no. 2?
my best friend.. a strong mother.. great buddy also..

too much computers!!!

2009-01-21T14:52:00.003+08:00

oh GOD!!!! ya ALLAH!!!!
power cermin mataku harus ditambah!!!!!! ah.. tidak!!!!!!!!!
huhu.. sedih..
semalam pegi check mata.. because nowadays, i'm suffering severe headache.. its not migraine.. even though in my younger year, i had migraine issue.. but then, i think its cured already.. and i've been thinking.. why am I always having headache? i thought i had high blood pressure.. i always have my self checked.. i bought that machine to check high blood.. (yer la.. badan pon sihat walafiat.. ehem. ehem.. takut laa) but the result turns out to be okay.. I'm actually healthy.. no high blood pressure, no diabetes, my heart pumping just nice.. nothing..

so, have my eyes checked yesterday.. oh no!! tambah lagi laaaa...tahap rabun adalah:-

kanan = 50, silau = 200
kiri = 50, silau - 300

that 'soft' sales assistant said that my 'rabun' is not that bad.. but my estiq (btol ke aku eja).. silau la.. yang tinggi.. disebabkan tahap silau yang terlebih tinggi, my specs will be available only after 2 days.. selalunya, they will take only 1 hour untuk siapkan a specs.. but, in my case.. mata aku adalah sangat pelik.. ya, aku tau itu.. mata aku pelik.. begitu juga perangai dan diri aku sendiri..

disebabkan mata yang pelik, tak dapatlah nak disiapkan dalam masa satu jam, tetapi cermin mata itu harus ditempah dan dikenakan cas lebih sebanyak RM60.. huhu.. (bodoh punya mata.. sengaja mahu aku berhabis banyak untuk kau).. semua sekali.. untuk sepasang mata yang pelik.. oh ya.. aku cuma beli frame POLO.. itu adalah murah disana.. RM230 semuanya.. dalam bank hanya ada RM500.. RM300 sudah ada tujuan.. tinggal RM200.. ohh.. ini masanya untuk aku menggunakan kad kredit.. ya, kad kredit yang bermakna aku akan menanggung hutang.. jikalau selepas ini aku mati dulu tanpa sempat bayar hutang kad kredit.. harap pihak bank dapat melepaskan aku..
dan.. aku suka lagu ini.. sangat sedih.. tapi aku suka..

ONE NIGHT ONLY by Jennifer Hudson
You want all my love and my devotion
You want my love and soul right on the line
I have no doubt,
that I could love you, forever the only trouble is
I really don’t have the time

Chorus:
I’ve got one night only, one night only
that’s all I have to spare
one night only
let’s not pretend to care
One night only
one night only
come on, you better come on
one night only
we only have till dawn

Effie:
In the morning this feeling will be gone
it has no chance going on Something so right
has got no chance to live So let’s forget about chances
It’s one night I will give

Chorus;
One night only, One night only
you’ll be the only one
One night only
then you’ll have to run
One night only
One night only
There's nothing more to say
One night only
what's getting in the way
One night only

berenti kerja.. yaaayyy!!!

2009-01-19T21:24:00.002+08:00

well.. the title speaks for itself.. i've quit my job!! yayy for me!!
but then.. aku still tak ade kerja lagi.. eehee... i'm still searching for a job right now.. so.. ade kerja tak sesape??? hurmm... i know.. i know.. betapa mengade2nyer aku for quit my job.. without searching any other job.. aku tgh mencari kerja la ni..
kadang2 macam aku enjoy macam nih.. tak kerja pon tak ape la.. ape jer commitment aku.. payah2 aku jual jer keta aku tuh.. tapi.. kalau dah jual keta.. tak ley laa nak merayap.. bershopping. melawat kawan2 yang duduk jauh nun di sana.. balik kampung.. shopping.. ohh.. tak ape.. sekarang kan boleh shopping online.. ahahaha
tapi.. aku dah 26 thn ni.. takkan tak kerja.. dah la tak kawen lagi... kerja pon tak.. macam tak leh harapnyer aku nih.. biar benar kan.. rugi jer mak aku hantar pegi belajar.. bile dikira balik, belanja aku amek degree dengan pegi jepun la.. itu lah, inilah.. all the fees, expenses.. (including entertainment)ptptn.. rm30,000 ade kot.. maybe more.. huuu..
banyak habis tuh.. hutang pon ade lagi ni.. nak ke hidup dibelenggu hutang? tak berkat idup wehh... kan.. kan.. kan...

so, kesimpulannya.. tak boleh laa.. kene carik kerja a.s.a.p laa..
my last day at iktisas environment will be this friday.. im gonna be free after that.. im breaking free... yeahh.. yeahh...

a true story..

2009-01-14T15:31:00.000+08:00

sedihnya baca citer ni.. i got it from my email.. so sad...

A TRUE STORY

Spend some time to read this! Really touching!!

I was walking around in a Big Bazaar store making shopping, when I saw a Cashier talking to a boy couldn't have been more than 5 or 6 years old. The Cashier said, 'I'm sorry, but you don't have enough money to buy this doll. Then the little boy turned to me and asked: ''aunty, are you sure I don't have enough money?''

I counted his cash and replied: ''You know that you don't have enough money to buy the doll, my dear.'' The little boy was still holding the doll in his hand. Finally, I walked toward him and I asked him who he wished to give this doll to. 'It's the doll that my sister loved most and wanted so much. I wanted to Gift her for her BIRTHDAY. I have to give the doll to my mommy so that she can give it to my sister when she goes there.'

His eyes were so sad while saying this. 'My Sister has gone to be with God. Daddy says that Mommy is going to see God very soon too, so I thought that she could take the doll with her to give it to my sister.'' My heart nearly stopped. The little boy looked up at me and said: 'I told daddy to tell mommy not to go yet. I need her to wait until I come back from the mall.' Then he showed me a very nice photo of him where he was laughing. He then told me 'I want mommy to take my picture with her so my sister won't forget me.' 'I love my mommy and I wish she doesn't have to leave me, but daddy says that she has to go to be with my little sister...' Then he looked again at the doll with sad eyes, very quietly.

I quickly reached for my wallet and said to the boy. 'Suppose we check again, Just in case you do have enough money for the doll?'' 'OK' he said, 'I hope I do have enough.' I added some of my money to his with out him seeing and we started to count it. There was enough for the doll and even some spare money. The little boy said: 'Thank you God for giving me enough money!' Then he looked at me and added, 'I asked last night before I went to sleep for God to make sure I had enough money to buy this doll, so that mommy could give It to my sister. He heard me!'' 'I also wanted to have enough money to buy a white rose for my mommy, but I didn't dare to ask God for too much. But He gave me enough to buy the doll and a white rose. My mommy loves white roses.'
I finished my shopping in a totally different state from when I started. I couldn't get the little boy out of my mind. Then I remembered a local news paper article two days ago, which mentioned a drunk man in a truck, who hit a car occupied by a young woman and a little girl. The little girl died right away, and the mother was left in a critical state. The family had to decide whether to pull the plug on the life-sustaining machine, because the young woman would not be able to recover from the coma. Was this the family of the little boy?

Two days after this encounter with the little boy, I read in the news paper that the young woman had passed away.. I couldn't stop myself as I bought a bunch of white roses and I went to the funeral home where the body of the young woman was exposed for people to see and make last wishes before her burial. She was there, in her coffin, holding a beautiful white rose in her hand with the photo of the little boy and the doll placed over her chest. I left the place, teary-eyed, feeling that my life had been changed for ever. The love that the little boy had for his mother and his sister is still, to this day, hard to imagine. And in a fraction of a second, a drunk driver had taken all this away from him.

pain of palestine

2009-01-10T08:52:00.002+08:00

BOYCOTT ISRAEL CAMPAIGN

Mesir halang bantuan kemanusiaan ke Gaza.
Contributed by gunxx on Monday, December 29 @ 08:40:49 MYT
Topic: Berita Semasa
Isnin,29/12/ 2008 -Pihak berkuasa Mesir melarang sebuah pesawat Libya yang membawa bantuan ke Gaza daripada melakukan pendaratan di Al Arish Airport di Mesir'

Hannibal Al Gaddafi, anak lelaki Presiden Libya, Moammar Al Gaddafi, berkata dalam satu temubual telefon dengan al Jazeera yang berpusat di Qatar, Mesir bekerjasama dengan Israel dalam melakukan pengepungan di Gaza kerana bertindak melarang sebarang kemasukan bantuan kemanusiaan ke sana melalui sempadannya.

Hannibal menambah, Libya akan terus menghantar lebih banyak kapal bantuan ke Gaza walaupun ia akan bertukar menjadi 'misi maut' kerana berkemungkinan di bom rejim Zionis.

Note:
sumber : http://www.palestin e-info.co. uk/en/
penterjemah : gunx
Mesir masih berdegil membuka pintu sempadan kepada rakyat Palestin.
Contributed by gunxx on Tuesday, December 30 @ 07:36:27 MYT
Topic: Berita Semasa
Serangan udara Israel yang berterusan dalam masa dua hari telah mengakibatkan beratus-ratus orang Palestin cuba melarikan diri dari Gaza ke Mesir pada pagi Isnin dengan menyerbu lintasan sempadan tertutup beramai-ramai.

Laporan sumber-sumber tempatan, beratus2 warga Palestin telah membanjiri pihak berkuasa Mesir yang ditempatkan di lintasan sempadan Mesir.

Pihak berkuasa Mesir menyokong tindakan rejim Zionis melakukan pengepungan pada Gaza dan kebuluran penduduk Palestin lebih dua tahun lepas, dan Mesir masih enggan membuka sempadan antara Gaza dan Mesir (satu-satunya laluan selain laluan melalui pemeriksaan rejim Zionis)

Pihak rejim Zionis menghalang import ubat-ubatan dan bekalan perubatan kepada Gaza dua tahun lepas, meninggalkan semua pihak hospital Gaza tidak bersedia untuk menangani jumlah pesakit yang ramai.

Note:
sumber : http://www.imemc. org
penterjemah : gunx

Angka kematian terkini 303 akibat serangan gila rejim Zionis bermula Sabtu.
Contributed by gunxx on Monday, December 29 @ 08:54:43 MYT
Topic: Berita Semasa

Isnin,29/12/ 2008 -Sumber-sumber Palestin melaporkan pada hari Ahad bahawa tentera rejim Zionis telah mengebom beberapa kawasan dalam bahagian yang berbeza di emenanjung Gaza yang mengakibatkan lima Warga Palestin mati dan mencederakan beberapa penduduk . Jumlah yang maut akibat serangan Israel bermula pada hari Sabtu hingga kini berkedudukan pada 303 kematian manakala sekurang-kurangnya 1000 orang penduduk tercedera, 180 dengan kecederaan serius.

Laman web berita Arabs48 melaporkan bahawa tentera rejim Zionis telah mengebom satu bengkel tukang besi dan sebuah rumah dalam kawasan al Zeitoun di Gaza City, seorang lelaki dan seorang wanita maut.

Di al Nusseirat, tentera rejim Zionis telah mengebom kenderaan dua Warga Palestin, sumber-sumber perubatan berkata.

Saksi-saksi melaporkan beratus-ratus penduduk itu lari ke kawasan sempadan antara Gaza dan Mesir dalam satu percubaan untuk menyelamatkan diri tetapi pengawal sempadan Mesir telah menembak mereka, seorang anak terbunuh dan beberapa penduduk-penduduk lain cedera.

Note: sumber : http://www.palestin e-info.co. uk/en/
penterjemah : gunx

Gaza Makin Tenat !!
Contributed by gunxx on Monday, December 22 @ 14:54:33 MYT
Topic: Berita Semasa
Isnin ,22/12/2008 -Pengerusi jawatankuasa popular pengepungan, MP Gaza, Jamal Al-Khudari Ahad lalu mengecam keras sekatan ekonomi Israel terhadap Semenanjung Gaza, sambil menegaskan bahawa pengepungan itu menjadikan Gaza terpinggir disamping bencana kemanusiaan yang membimbangkan.

Menurut Khudari, penutupan semua mata lintasan di Semenanjung Gaza oleh Israel sehingga minggu ketujuh berturut-turut akan memburukkan krisis kemanusiaan di Gaza serta menyatakan penutupan loji kuasa utama di bandar itu menjadikan 80% wilayah itu berada dalam kegelapan.

Dalam satu siaran akhbar beliau yang dikeluarkan di Gaza, Khudari menjelaskan bahawa sekatan itu telah menjejaskan seluruh aspek kehidupan sambil menambah lebih daripada 273 penduduk Palestin mati akibat pengepungan yang represif itu.

Note:
sumber : http://www.palestin e-info.co. uk/en/
penterjemah : hijjaz79

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pagi2 tadi aku ade tengok rancangan talkshow dekat TV9.. host by Aziz Desa.. and the guests for today is D. Mukhriz Mahathir, Anita Serawak & her husband.. and somebody named Abu Bakar Talib from Johor called n and said..
"Saya merayu keada seluruh rakyat Malaysia... sama2 lah kita renung2kan dan hayati penderitaan yang sdang dialami oleh saudara kita di Palestine.. dan jika kita terus dibelenggu oleh kuasa Barat dan mengatakan kita tdak boleh hidup tanpa bergantung kepada Barat, kita adalah antara golongan yang sangat hina dan lemah.. APA BEZA KITA DAN YAHUDI?...
- bila kita minum air, bayangkan air itu sebagai darah anak-anak palestine yang terbunuh..
- bila kita makan daging, bayangkan daging itu adalah daging saudara kita yang terkorban di sana,
- bila kita membeli pakaian buatan Amerika, bayangkan kita sebenarnya sedang memakai kain kapan yang disediakan untuk saudara kita di sana..
- bila kita membelanjakan wang kita untuk membeli produk Amerika, bayangkan kita sedang menyalurkan wang kepada dana ISRAEL.. kita membantu Amerika dan Israel menghancurkan saudara kita sendiri..
Bangunlah rakyat MALAYSIA.. selemah-lemah bantuan adalah dengan menderma, boikot barangan buatan Amerika dan suarakan protes anda"

Bila aku dengar dia cakap macam tu, i'm so touched.. bila aku tengok surat khabar hari-hari, aku sedih sangat.. aku pon Islam jugak, tapi ape role aku sebagai muslim untuk membantu saudara kita kat sana? macam mana? buat apa aku nak tengok semua penderitaan tu? kalau yang timbul cuma rasa kesian dan kesal, tapi tak ade tindakan ape pon yang aku boleh buat? lemah sungguh aku.. lemah selemahnya...

tapi, mengenai boikot barangan US.. kalau selama ni bila ekonomi US merudum.. ekonomi seluruh dunia akan turut merudum.. ekonomi Malaysia telah laa.. Allahualam.. tapi, sebagai muslim yang lemah.. itu ape yang aku akan buat.. perkara paling mudah... (mcdonalds, starbucks, kotex??) sangat2 payah nak ditinggalka.. tapi aku tak nak dilabel hina dan keji.. aku pon tak nak dilabel bersekongkol dengan kaum paling keji di muka bumi ni... insyaAllah..

thankx a lot.. kak WAN HANIZA

2009-01-06T15:59:00.002+08:00

Thanks to kak Wan.. i love u kak wan.. kite selalu terlupa kan.. i know that u will always be there for me..

Ambil ni dari Kak Wan.. from her YM..
Eliza Wand: Nabi Muhammad SAW bersabda:

'Barangsiapa yang kesukaran pada menunaikan hajat/cita-citanya maka hendaklah dia memperbanyakkan membaca selawat untukku kerana sesungguhnya selawat itu dapat menghilangkan kesusahan, kesedihan, dan kesukaran serta meluaskan rezeki dan menyebabkan terlaksananya semua hajat.'

Tolong sebarkan kepada kawan-kawan!
Ambillah waktu untuk berfikir, itu adalah sumber kekuatan.
Ambillahwaktu untuk bermain, itu adalah rahsia dari masa muda yang abadi.
Ambillah waktu untuk berdoa, itu adalah sumber ketenangan.
Ambillahwaktu untuk belajar, itu adalah sumber kebijaksanaan.
Ambillah waktu untuk mencintai dan dicintai, itu adalah hak istimewa yang diberikan Tuhan.
Ambillah waktu untuk bersahabat, itu adalah jalan menujukebahagiaan.

Eliza Wand: Ambillah waktu untuk tertawa, itu adalah muzik yang menggetarkan jiwa
Ambillah waktu untuk memberi, itu adalah membuathidup terasa bererti.
Ambillah waktu untuk bekerja, itu adalah nilaikeberhasilan.
Ambillah waktu untuk beramal, itu adalah kunci menuju syurga.

tuah seseorang..

2009-01-06T11:13:00.002+08:00

alhamdulillah.. ramai kawan2 aku yang dpt kerja ngan government.. ini ape yang semua org nak.. sudah pasti kan.. alhamdulillah.. aku pun, masih ternanti2 peluang aku..
bila lah nak dapt.. rezeki masing-masing kan.. ermm..
(nape aku bertambah moody? aku patutnye happy biler kawan2 aku dapat bende best macam tuh..) tapi, sampai bile kite nak happy ngan org lain punye achievement? diri sendiri macam mana?

alaaaahhhhhhhhhhaaaaaaaaaaiiiiiiiiiii~~~~~

tak suka sangat perasaan yang macam gini.. apa yang aku rasa, tak patutnya aku rasa.. nauzubillah..

happy new year 2009

2009-01-01T10:09:00.002+08:00

selamat tahun baru 2009!! hari ini juga adalah hari jadi Bang Cik.. my younger brother yang ke 21.. dan juga birthday Ikram yang ke 16.. my cousin yang tinggal di Kuala Kerpan, Perlis.. dan hari ini juga adalah hari cuti kepada kebanyakan negeri di Malaysia.. in fact, world wide pon kan.. but then.. ahaha.. am still in office!!!
yeahh.. i am still in office.. lets see.. christmas, awal muharram and new year.. sumer tuh adalah hari yang sepatutnya cuti tapi terpaksa bekerja.. kau jgn pikir yang aku akan jadi kaya sekejap selepas ini.. mmg kebanyakan syarikat akan memberi gaji at least double if u have to work on holidays.. BUT, not IKTISAS.. u have to work on holidays.. but, no double salary or whatever.. they will just replace ur leave.. but believe me.. still dont know when.. ahahaha

i know.. i am supposed to be thankful that i have work.. i will get my salary every month.. i dont know.. bukan nak berkira.. tapi, just imagine.. gaji sikit jer.. cuti pon tak boleh cuti.. macam haram sikit lah.. aku ni.. kenapa lah tak boleh terima kenyataan yang aku bekerja di syarikat swasta yang sentiasa busy.. always occupied with submission and rushing for everything..

betul kata kawan aku.. before i go to sleep, i have to think agaian.. muhasabah diri.. hari ni, ada sesiapa yang aku terhutang budi? hari ni, ade sesiapa yang merajuk dan terasa hati dengan aku ke? ada ker?
kalau sesiapa yang baca dan aku ada terbuat sesuatu dan terkata sesuatu yang tak sepatutnya.. aku mintak maaf.. i humbly ask for thousand forgiveness.. sorry.. so very damn sorry...

A golden new year has arrived,
and anything is possible.
It can be a time of success,
a time of achievement,
a time of happiness
a time when dreams come true.
What the year becomes
is up to you.
All you have to do,
is steer your ship
toward your goal,
and hold true to
what's in your heart
even come the stormy weather.
And should worry and self-doubt
rattle your sails and darken the day
simply let a gentle wind
carry your troubles away.
Above all, no matter where
the year leads you,
no matter what you do,
never stop believing you can succeed,
never stop believing in you.

May the New Year
bring you happiness and peace,
and the strength and courage
to follow your dreams.
May you forget the weight
of yesterday
and focus on the path ahead,
guided by your heart
and the light of hope.
May you find beauty
in everything
and goodness
in every heart.
And may you always remember
that you are blessed.

Happy New Year!

wednesday giggles

2008-12-31T13:22:00.001+08:00

This is an actual radio conversation between a United States Navy aircraft carrier (U.S.S. Abraham Lincoln) and Canadian authorities off the coast off Newfoundland in October 1995. (The radio conversation was released by the Chief of Naval Operations on 10/10/95 as authorized by the Freedom of Information Act.)

CANADIANS:
Please divert your course 15 degrees to the South to avoid a collision.

AMERICANS:
Recommend you divert your course 15 degrees to the North to avoid a collision.

CANADIANS:
Negative. You will have to divert your course 15 degrees to the South to avoid a collision.

AMERICANS:
This is the Captain of a US Navy ship. I say again, divert YOUR course.

CANADIANS:
No, I say again, you divert YOUR course.

AMERICANS:
This is the aircraft carrier USS Lincoln. The second largest ship in the United States Atlantic fleet. We are accompanied by three destroyers, three cruisers, and numerous support vessels. I demand that you change your course15 degrees north...
I say again...That's one-five degrees north.... or counter-measures will be undertaken to ensure the safety of this ship!

CANADIANS:
We are a lighthouse. Your call..

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Here is Billy Connelly`s perception on chain letters, I hope it doesn`t offend anyone, it is meant to be funny...some people might find his humour crude, if so then please do not ready on..................

BILLY CONNOLLY'S CHAIN LETTER

Hello, my name is Billy and I suffer from guilt for not forwarding 50 billion fucking chain letters sent to me by people who actually believe if you send them on, a poor six year old girl in Scotland with a breast on her forehead will be able to raise enough money to have it removed before her redneck parents sell her to a travelling freak show.

And, do you honestly believe that Bill Gates is going to give you, and everyone to whom you send "his" email, $1000?

How stupid are we?

Ooooh, looky here! If I scroll down this page and make a wish, I'll get laid by a model I just happen to run into the next day!

What a bunch of bullshit.

Maybe the evil chain letter leprechauns will come into my house and sodomize me in my sleep for not continuing a chain letter that was started by St Peter in 5AD and brought to this country by midget pilgrim stowaways on the Endeavour.

Fuck 'em!!

If you're going to forward something, at least send me something mildly amusing.

I've seen all the "send this to 10 of your closest friends, and this poor, wretched excuse for a human being will somehow receive a nickel from some omniscient being" forwards about 90 times.

I don't fucking care.

Show a little intelligence and think about what you're actually contributing to by sending out these forwards. Chances are, it's our own unpopularity.

The point being?

If you get some chain letter that's threatening to leave you shagless or luckless for the rest of your life, delete it.

If it's funny, send it on.

Don't piss people off by making them feel guilty about a leper in Botswana with no teeth who has been tied to the arse of a dead elephant for 27 years and whose only salvation is the 5 cents per letter he'll receive if you forward this email.

Now forward this to everyone you know. Otherwise, tomorrow morning your underwear will turn carnivorous and will consume your genitals.

Have a nice day.

Billy Connolly

P.S: Send me 15 bucks and then fuck off

day in.. day out..

2008-12-30T12:40:00.003+08:00

another day in office!! and ts already 30th december.. tomorrow will be the last day of 2008.. its NEW YEAR!! so.. apa azam anda untuk tahun 2009? bagi saya, azam saya masih sama.. menjadi yang terbaik mungkin dan berdisiplin dan juga berusqha menurunkan erat badan seperti sebelum saya masuk kerja di Iktisas Environment iaitu XXkg.. untuk pengetahuan diri sendiri.. semenjak bekerja di Iktisas, berat badan saya dengan jayanya telah meningkat sebanyak 20kg... (yeah.. am a big loser.. i know..)

so, as for me.. the determination and purpose for 2009 will be about improvement in live, career, iman and taqwa also!! how am I gonna achieved it? hurmm.. lets see..
- career - find new job with salary RM26++
- iman & taqwa - will have to change myself.. (makin tua dah.. muhasabah diri lah sikit.. tak takur neraka ker??)
- life - will have to find my MR. RIGHT.. aiyaakk.. (ini yang paling.. super duper susah nak dicarik)
- weight!!! - diets and exercises! herbalife ker? or maybe... just exercise will do? will consult the dietitians later.. ahaha
(no.. no.. consult yong adilah and atiyah is okay..)

what ever lah kan.. anyway.. everybody need some changes in their life... positive or negative.. we ourselves must choose carefully.. me also want a changes in my life.. make it slow and steady.. tak boleh juga kan nak adopt rapid changes.. its not good to our surroundng, environment and most importantly.. ourself.. so, any changes that will have to take place must be done slowly.. slowly.. and finally, it is done.. ahahaha (this one is just an advice for me.. myself)

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eh.. last few days, i watched movies with ADIK.. we watched HISTERIA and BEDTIME STORIES.. mula2 tuh.. tgk histeria dulu pukul 9.30malam.. habis dalam jam 11.05malam.. then, kitorang lepak-lepak sambil menunggu our 2nd movie.. bedtime stories.. by adam sandler.. start pukul 11.45malam dan habis pada jam 1.30pagi.. dah lama tak tengok wayang.. so, alang2 dah kelaur.. baik tengok 2 wayang terus.. ahaha

comment on histeria - okaylah.. tak lah seram sangat.. cerita die actually simple.. not very simple.. but, bile kita tgk setengah jalan.. dah boleh agak who is actually owned that jembalang busut.. takut-takut jugak mula2.. but.. tengah2 cerita tuh.. okay laa.. tapi yang pastinya.. ADIK TAK NAK MASUK SEKOLAH ASRAMA..

bedtime stories - normal.. mmg kalau adam sandler yang berlakon.. cerita tuh akan jadi sangat best, funny, hilarious and awesome.. best sangat2.. cute.. ahaha.. definitely recommended..

MICHAEL JACKSON convert to ISLAM...

2008-12-29T20:48:00.001+08:00

November 21, 2008 13:02 IST
Last Updated: November 21, 2008 13:12 IST

Michael Jackson has converted to Islam and changed his name to Mikaeel.

The 50-year-old star, pledged his allegiance to the Koran in a ceremony at a friend's mansion in Los Angeles, the Sun reported.

Jackson sat on the floor wearing a tiny hat after an Imam was summoned to officiate -- days before the singer is due to appear at London's [Images] High Court where he is being sued by an Arab Sheik, the paper said.

The star decided to adopt the new religion while he was recording a song at the home of his friend where a Jehovah's witness was brought up to help him through the ceremony.

*
The Court Of The Dancin' King

Apparently, the Beat It star was convinced by his producer and songwriter friends David Wharnsby and Phillip Bubal.

"They began talking to him about their beliefs, and how they thought they had become better people after they converted. Michael soon began warming to the idea. An Imam was summoned from the mosque and Michael went through the shahada, which is the Muslim declaration of belief," the source revealed.

Mikaeel is the name of one of Allah's angels.

*Where have Michael's millions gone?

"Jacko rejected an alternative name, Mustafa meaning "the chosen one", the source added.

The singer, who rarely ventures out without a mask, is due to give evidence on Monday in a 4.7 million pound lawsuit brought by Prince Abdulla Al-Khalif of Bahrain for defaulting on an exclusive recording contract.

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wooww... so.. i really dont know what to comment with this one!! shocking..

friends forever..

2008-12-26T18:24:00.003+08:00

today, i met yong adilah and ridha together with their kids.. raniah husna & aliah husna.. comelnya anak2 hang yong!!! I LIKE~
last night i spent time at office until 10pm and then, when i went home.. i cannot sleep.. so i continued with my report writing until.. dont know what time actually.. i just woke up in the morning at 10am, when yong call.. aiyaahh.. another late day to office.. so, i thought they will cut my half day salary already.. so, better today be half day in office.. so, i decided to go meet up with yong at One Utama.. ahaha.. best.. i love it.. i love seeing yong and family.. love going to one utama.. sales here and there.. the only missing things is MONEY.. aiyaa.. kecilnya gajiku... tak mampu aku nak membeli belah walaupon pada waktu ada jualan murah gila-gilaan.. pakai kad kredit kang.. haaa..

anyway.. its great to met yong and family tadi.. tp, so sorry i didnt give anything to her daughters.. uhhuhu.. nanti auntie us beli eh.. gambar pon lupa nak amek.. aduihh.. si clumsy.. totally forgot.. *sigh* bad, bad me

not to forget.. atiyah was also there too... ehehe.. best2.. aku suka jumpa kawan2 studioku... lebih2 lagi kalau beramai2.. waahh.. suka bangat.. minta maaf bos.. bukan saya sengaja mahu skip kerja dan pergi beronggeng.. tapi, saya terniat dan ape yang diniatkan.. mesti la nak dijadikan kenyataan.. ahahahah

yong's hubby.. ridha, belanja we all makan kat ITALIANNIES.. pasta, pizza and salad.. sedap giler.. seriously.. the prize not that expensive.. standar for that kind of restaurant.. but the pizza and salad is smashing.. sedap.. boleh makan lagi.. ehe..

merry xmas... but still am at work!!

2008-12-25T18:42:00.002+08:00

its 25th dec.. and its christmas.. well, eventhough muslims dont celebrate xmas.. at least all of us get to stay at home whole day.. its a holiday!! yeay.. (NOT!!)
i know.. i know.. been posting here in this blog for 3 times already.. yeah.. its my 3rd posts for today!!! its all because... I am here in this office!!! i have to work on holiday!! yayyy ME!!! i really have no mood.. deklin is throwing birthday party for her daughter in the evening.. tasha..(she turns 4 tomorrow.. but today is holiday aite.. everybody will be able to attend.. except me!)

the clock show.. its 7.15pm already.. its a holiday.. and its almost night.. and am still here in office.. wait.. wait...
why am I so sad? if im not in office, i will be at home or maybe at deklin's house.. if i'm at home.. it will be worst rite? i will have to do all the chores.. those brothers of mine would not bother to help.. so, its better to be OUT of the house!! but definitely NOT IN OFFICE!!! waaaaa...

sometimes.. I have not written much and it seems words do not come easily, probably because there is too much I would want to say. the things that came out if just how i felt in office.. which means.. its all about anger and hatred.. oh dear.. I really need to be thankful oh God!! Ya Allah...

Time, for yourself, for being alone in your heart of heart... try doing this a little while ago.. it is very relaxing.. after i came back, at least I can come to work with some sort of peace in my head.. and definitely, there is nothing wrong in doing anything to "muhasabah diri".

I dont know where I did I got this.. but, its fun to read..

Is it bad to take some time for yourself, to be alone in your heart of heart? is it selfish to spend a moment just to listen to the inner voice that knows all answers but that we are not listening to? Certainly not! But how difficult it is to do when we let the daily grind, stress and frenetic activities cover the sweet sound of our inner voice.

Finding Your Answer
Take a walk to a lake or other place at sunrise. As you walk along the shore, or sit quietly, imagine your thoughts being carried on the sun rays, lifted up and getting closer to the angels. Visualize the situation and the answer that you seek. Believe that you have received. Leave your worries with the angels and walk back to your life. Listen to your inner voice. Sooner or later things will unfold and you will find your answer.

Getting Closure for your Situation
In a similar manner, take a walk to a lake or other place at sundown. As you walk along the shore, or sit quietly, imagine your thoughts getting into the heart of the sun. Visualize the situation melting away. Feel the weight being removed from your shoulders. Take a deep breath, feel how easier it is. As the sun sets, visualize the situation, gone in ashes. You are now free to walk back to your life, lighter and relieved. Have no worries for soon, you will see a difference in your life.

You do not have to take my word for it, just try for yourself...

THE DREAM IS STILL ALIVE....

2008-12-25T15:24:00.002+08:00

SOMETIMES CERTAIN SONGS, ONCE HEARD, JUST FOLLOW YOU THROUGH LIFE, THIS IS ONE OF THESE FOR ME.

NEVER,EVER, GIVE UP ON YOUR DREAMS!!!!! CAUSE WHEN YOU DO, YOU STOP BELIEVING IN YOURSELF..*SIGH* VISUALIZE THEM, IMAGINE THEM, CREATE YOUR DREAMS AND MAKE THEM HAPPEN.

song from GREENDAY.. I just looveee greenday..
Time of ur life..
Another turning point;
A fork stuck in the road.
Time grabs you by the wrist;
Directs you where to go.

So make the best of this task and don't ask why.
It's not a question but a lesson learned in time.
It's something unpredictable
But in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

So take the photographs
And still frames in your mind.
Hang it on a shelf
In good health and good time.

Tattoos of memories
And dead skin on trial.
For what it's worth,
It was worth all the while.

It's something unpredictable
But in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

and ths one..
the dream is still alive.. from.. (i dont remember..)

Not so long ago we were so in phase
You and I could never forget the days
But then the fire seemed to flicker
Cold wind came and it carried us away
But well get back someday, baby

The dream is still alive
Look here in my eyes
Can you see what Im feeling?
The dream is still alive
The one of you and i
And my heartache is healing
I couldnt let it die
No I knew it would survive
The dream is still alive

Not so long ago in a purple haze
People dreamed out loud they were not afraid
They stopped the war but not the dying
Some got a little bit lost along the way
But somehow were here today
And we say

The dream is still alive
After all this time
The flame keeps on burning
The dream is still alive
The one of you and I
And my heartache is healing
I couldnt let it die
No I knew it would survive
The dream is, the dream is still alive

Oh yeah..

The dream is still alive
Look here in my eyes
Can you see what Im feeling
The dream is still alive
The one of you and i
And my heartache is healing
I couldnt let it die
For all the times we tried
The dream is still alive...

question of live..

2008-12-25T11:53:00.005+08:00

suddenly this question came up in my mind..

IF YOU COULD TURN BACK TIME.. WHAT WOULD YOU SAY TO YOUR YOUNGER SELF?

as of for me.. well, i have no idea.. absolutely no idea.. ohh my.. should i say..
-hey dont do town planning for ur degree.. u should be working with ur dad.. it will be much better in terms of salary and working hours..
-stop being such a stupid and lazy bump!! go to work and do it seriously..
or maybe..
-STOP EATING!! u already weight a horse!!
maybe.. ermmm
- ermmmmmm..

i really have no idea.. perhaps, i have too much to say.. that i dont know how to elaborate here..

rise & shine.. sunshine!!

2008-12-17T10:17:00.005+08:00

I find it very hard to wake up in the morning every day... (ehehe.. bangang kan).. but, seriously.. every single morning.. I'm not sure whether it is because of my bed (comfy giler) or is it me?? (pemalas giler) or is it the environment of my office? (alasan).. but its a good reason for me.. I'm not that happy.. I really dont know why.. but I just really really am not happy working here.. kadang-kadang rase kecewa sangat ngan idup ni tau.. rasa macam semua benda tak kena.. semua benda yang dihajatkan tak penah dapat..

well..

last week.. selangor kan cuti on thursday.. so, i brought my aunties, my cousins, bro and sis to Melaka Bandaraya Bersejarah.. before that my auntie, Makcik Roy who lived in Jitra, kedah visit us on hari raya haji.. said that he last went to melaka.. 15 years ago.. she really wants to go to melaka again.. maybe she have some kind of memories ..kenangan dolu2.. who knows la kan.. since, aku pon lame je rasernye tak berjalan.. ape salahnyer.. (minyak keta mak bagi.. bayar tol jer) so.. lets go!!!
kene pergi 2 kereta.. sebab 1 keta tak muat.. maklumlah.. besar2 dan sihat2.. dan juga ramai... my city and my bro's civic.. on the way to air keroh toll, ade segerombolan motor2 besar.. woww.. bikers.. really cool.. how i wish i'm riding that big bike with them.. zaman muda.. bukan lagi..

okay, keluar ke air keroh toll plaza.. terus ke arah kota melaka.. silap masuk jalan.. i'm supposed to go left into jalan bendahara.. tapi i went right instead.. i end up on jalan munshi abdullah.. (ingat kat penang jer ade munshi abdullah or KL?).. so, pusing2 ntah kemana.. tak ape lah.. nama pon jalan2.. strolling along the roads.. masuk celah2 bangunan.. kalau tak sesat, u dont know the real face of melaka.. bila sesat.. boleh tengok2 keadaan kat sana.. time tu diorang tak cuti kan.. okay lah.. jalan2 keta mmg banyak.. jem gak nak masuk melaka.. sampai.. parking kat tepi dataran pahlawan...

siott betul.. diorang ingat semua org tau ker yang kene bayar parking.. kalau tak ade signboard ke ape ke.. mana la org tau yg kene pegi beli kupon letak kereta dulu.. bangang.. kan dah kene saman.. pedulikan... ape diorang ingat aku penah bayar ke saman parking.. stupid, as*ho**... menci aku.. menciiiii

adik, makteh ngan amir naik beca.. kitorang amek yang package.. (package laaaa) RM40 untuk 1jam... semua sekali ade 6 beca yang disewa.. aku naik sorang la.. kesian pakcik tuh bawak aku.. sorry pakcik adi... ehehehe... dlm 1 jam tuh.. diorang bawak jalan2 ke masjid keling, makam hang jebat, makam hang kasturi.. rumah baba & nyonya.. banyak lagi la tempat yang sempat dibawa dlm masa 1 jam.. bagus jugak.. kalau tak naik beca, harap nak carik sendiri. mmg tak jumpe la.. ingat nak pegi jonker street.. tapi, jongker street tu alive malam jer.. hurmm..

best gak la.. banyak sangat gambar kalau nak letak ni.. hermm...

clinton loves tun mahathir.. BETUL!!

2008-12-16T10:14:00.001+08:00

See what Clinton said about Tun Dr Mahathir Mohd.

http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2008/12/9/focus/2756367&sec=focus

"But what Clinton revealed about Tun Dr Mahathir Mohamad was more interesting. He listed down the names of leaders he admired during his term as US president.

They included South Africa’s Nelson Mandela, Palestine’s Yasser Arafat and China’s Jiang Zemin."

“And certainly, Dr Mahathir. He did the right thing (in pegging the ringgit) during the 1997 financial crisis. His model worked, not necessarily elsewhere, but certainly he did the right thing.”

Clinton said he used to discuss about Dr Mahathir at the White House with his advisers and sometimes told them that they were not practical (when they touched on politics and economics) “because you guys have never run for office.”

Funny how some Malaysians are worshipping Lee Kuan Yew and condemning all what you have done before. The funnier thing is, all those LKY's worshipper from Malaysia are 100% Chinese. These people their brain just can't accept a Malay leader can be good and lead them, although they know some things that you have done are just brilliant. See all those comments in Malaysia Today, almost all comments are arrogant and sound racist condemning the Malays and Islam.

My point is, our race relations in Malaysia is getting worst day by day. Now people are brave enough to use racist remarks openly and insult our religion but the government are doing nothing about it. This is one of the major things that Najib should look onto when he take over. And Tun you surely have some brilliant ideas to advise Najib. Please help this country before its getting worst.

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saya pon suka tun mahathir.. suka sangat.. semoga tun sentiasa bahagia dan diberkati.. insyaAllah.. amiinn..

aidiladha..

2008-12-09T10:23:00.003+08:00

patutnye dah post masa rayer .. tapi lupa.. post je la...

eheheh.. selamat hari raya aidiladha.. korban ape yer tahun ni? ermm.. tak ade ape2 yang terlintas plak dlm kepala otak nih.. ape yang aku korbankan tahun ni.. aku tambah berat ade lah.. aku korbankan kerja kat crest builder dan dtg keje kat iktisas.. maybe that the one laa kot pengorbanan aku thn ni.. ermm.. entah laaa...

dalam kesejukan

2008-12-05T12:39:00.003+08:00

kenapalah sejuk sangat ofis ni.. aku ni badan besar, tapi masih aku yang terasa sangat sejuk.. yang lain tak raser sejuk pon.. rilek jer.. aduiihh.. nak kebas dah jari jemari aku ni.. kaki pon same.. ishk22...

dulu, masa aku muda2 dulu.. aku slalu tulis ayat2 ataupon kata-kata yang aku rasa jiwang.. pada pandangan aku laa..

hidup ni selalu tak adil kan, tapi kita tak ada pilihan but to get through it with all our strength.. but then, we will always stumble and fall.. that is why we have to be very very strong and tough to get up and stand again.. stand on our own little feet.. (mine, besar gak la.. size 8 tuu) if we are not strong enough, we may not have the ability to live this horrible or unfair life the we had..
for some people, life seems so easy on them.. they get what they want.. they succeed in their career, life, marriage.. perhaps, they also make thousands per month.. but deep inside their heart, are they happy with their life? are they satisfied with their accomplishments? do they get to feel the real and true meaning of life? for me, to really understand the meaning and to feel the beauty of life is by going trough all the rough and hard edges.. at some point, maybe life allows u to lay back a while and at some point, the current of the life become so strong that u will be washed away.. but in the end, we finally arrive at our destination, with all the bruises, wounds here and there.. maybe the wounds still bleeding, the bruises still giving such pain.. the pain that we can barely stand.. embrace the pain!!! ganbatte!! we have no choice but to deal with it our self..

when we settle down.. take our own sweet time enjoying the beauty of life, the bruises and wound that we once had will literally shaped u.. they will create our personality, that bruises and wound will make u a better person.. hope so.. that bruises will become the colours in ur life.. which u will appreciate it very much later.. for those who get to the destinations safe and sound, without all the wounds, bruises.. for me, they missed something useful.. something important in our own self.. we are gonna be just like we.. some people need to be pushed to be a better person.. but some people just like them self as the way they are.. its okay though... ahahah.. what am i saying..
i am so damn bored in office.. i need to rush the report and plans for rt kajang.. but, im typing some stupid things here.. yeahh.. i know.. i need a break from my life.. hopefully a long break.. holidays maybe.. bungee jumping.. sky diving.. something that can ripped my heart or my brain off.. (nauzubillah... tak bermaksud yang bukan-bukan..)

life is wonderful..

2008-12-03T11:21:00.001+08:00

LIFE IS WONDERFUL by Jason mraz

It takes a crane to build a crane
It takes two floors to make a story
It takes an egg to make a hen
It takes a hen to make an egg
There is no end to what I'm saying

It takes a thought to make a word
And it takes some words to make an action
It takes some work to make it work
It takes some good to make it hurt
It takes some bad for satisfaction

La la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la la life goes full circle
Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Al la la la la

It takes a night to make it dawn
And it takes a day to make you yawn brother
And it takes some old to make you young
It takes some cold to know the sun
It takes the one to have the other

And it takes no time to fall in love
But it takes you years to know what love is
It takes some fears to make you trust
It takes those tears to make it rust
It takes the dust to have it polished

Ha la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la la life goes full circle
Ah la la la la la la life is so full of
Ah la la la la la la life is so rough
Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la la life goes full circle
Ah la la la la la la life is our love
Ah la la la la la

It takes some silence to make sound
It takes a loss before you found it
And it takes a road to go nowhere
It takes a toll to make you care
It takes a hole to make a mountain

Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la la life goes full circle
Ha la la la la la life is wonderful
Ha la la la la la life is meaningful
Ha la la la la la life is wonderful
Ha la la la la la life it is...so... wonderful
It is so meaningful
It is so wonderful
It is meaningful
It is wonderful
It is meaningful
It goes full circle
Wonderful
Meaningful
Full circle
Wonderful

am so sad...

2008-12-01T23:33:00.003+08:00

sedih sangat-sangat..... sedih sangat... tak dapat nak jadik cikgu tu.. harap sangat2... tpi tak ade rezeki.. terpaksala terima kenyataan..
memang la memula tuh tak meletak harapan yang tinggi sangat kat application ni.. yer lah, 1st time apply kan.. tapi, bile ramai orang yang offer bantuan, kata diorang boleh tolong.. (pakai kabel laa kirenyer).. tapi tak kisah lah.. kabel ke ape ke.. nak jadik cikgu jer.. bukannyer nak apply keje pegawai kat memana jabatan kerajaan.. jadi cikgu jer.. heeiisshh... sedih sangat biler pikir.. berharap sangat, tapi tak ade rezeki..

sedih sangat.. huhu.. masa memule check kat ofis, tgk selambe je die kuar.. "dukacita dimaklumkan anda tidak berjaya".. macam agak terkejut jer dan agak terkesima.. macam nak mengalir air mata jer.. tapi, takkan nak nangis.. malu jer.. tapi time tuh raser macam trus kepala sakit.. trus kepala raser macam berdenyut sangat hebat... pening kepala.. raser nak demam,.. trus terbatuk2.. (mmg dah tak bape sihat.. tapi bile tau.. macam serta merta demam).. bile tau jer.. trus call mak.. bgtau mak, tak dapat jadi cikgu tuh la mak.. tak berjaya.. mak kate tak ape lah.. next year try lagi... cuma hati aku ni jer yang dapat bgtau macam mana aku kecewa dgn hidup aku ni sebenarnye...

mak kate mak mmg tak ade kenal sesiapa dlm kementerian atau jabatan.. so, tak boleh la mak nak tolong.. tapi mak kan pengetua.. tah la.. tak ape.. bukan rezeki aku.. sepupu aku try 3 kali baru dapat.... tak ape lahh.. yusyaila.. sabar.. kene banyak sabar kan yusyaila.. rezeki masing2.. terima lah sumer ni dgn hati yang tabah... insyaAllah...

25th birthday

2008-11-26T11:28:00.003+08:00

dah tua lagi setahun sudah!!!

ade satayy... yayy.. makan2.. lagi la besarr... ahahahahaha

thanks for all the birthday wishes yer kawan2..