Life is all about choices. u have choices and are making them everyday and every time in your life. It is because of the choices we make and/or don't make that create the energy within us and around us.
You need to let go of the hate and anger ... it does nothing but literally eat you up, therefore it serves absolutely no purpose here. You need to also forgive yourself and stop blamming ... blamming yourself and others for lives issues and events. That too serves no purpose.
You need to find love for yourself and others. Unconditional love and self worth for yourself is so important and vital to the life force. You deserve balance and peace, peace of mind so start making choices to create that within and save your soul.
As I'm sure you are all too aware ... God does not give us
challenges that he does not feel we can handle. There is a lesson
in every challenge that is thrown at us. Find that lesson. Allow it
to make you stronger and confident in the fact that there is
Love, HONESTY, PEACE out there in the world.
Allow yourself to heal and grow. Life is beautiful if you see it