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mari exercise!!

mari exercise!!

If you look inside a girl's heart

you'd sees how much she really cries,

you'll find secrets hidden, best friends, and lies,

but what you'll see the most is how hard it is

to stay strong when nothing's right

and everything's wrong.


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Wednesday, December 31, 2008

wednesday giggles

This is an actual radio conversation between a United States Navy aircraft carrier (U.S.S. Abraham Lincoln) and Canadian authorities off the coast off Newfoundland in October 1995. (The radio conversation was released by the Chief of Naval Operations on 10/10/95 as authorized by the Freedom of Information Act.)

CANADIANS:
Please divert your course 15 degrees to the South to avoid a collision.

AMERICANS:
Recommend you divert your course 15 degrees to the North to avoid a collision.

CANADIANS:
Negative. You will have to divert your course 15 degrees to the South to avoid a collision.

AMERICANS:
This is the Captain of a US Navy ship. I say again, divert YOUR course.

CANADIANS:
No, I say again, you divert YOUR course.

AMERICANS:
This is the aircraft carrier USS Lincoln. The second largest ship in the United States Atlantic fleet. We are accompanied by three destroyers, three cruisers, and numerous support vessels. I demand that you change your course15 degrees north...
I say again...That's one-five degrees north.... or counter-measures will be undertaken to ensure the safety of this ship!

CANADIANS:
We are a lighthouse. Your call..

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Here is Billy Connelly`s perception on chain letters, I hope it doesn`t offend anyone, it is meant to be funny...some people might find his humour crude, if so then please do not ready on..................



BILLY CONNOLLY'S CHAIN LETTER

Hello, my name is Billy and I suffer from guilt for not forwarding 50 billion fucking chain letters sent to me by people who actually believe if you send them on, a poor six year old girl in Scotland with a breast on her forehead will be able to raise enough money to have it removed before her redneck parents sell her to a travelling freak show.

And, do you honestly believe that Bill Gates is going to give you, and everyone to whom you send "his" email, $1000?

How stupid are we?

Ooooh, looky here! If I scroll down this page and make a wish, I'll get laid by a model I just happen to run into the next day!

What a bunch of bullshit.

Maybe the evil chain letter leprechauns will come into my house and sodomize me in my sleep for not continuing a chain letter that was started by St Peter in 5AD and brought to this country by midget pilgrim stowaways on the Endeavour.

Fuck 'em!!

If you're going to forward something, at least send me something mildly amusing.

I've seen all the "send this to 10 of your closest friends, and this poor, wretched excuse for a human being will somehow receive a nickel from some omniscient being" forwards about 90 times.

I don't fucking care.

Show a little intelligence and think about what you're actually contributing to by sending out these forwards. Chances are, it's our own unpopularity.

The point being?

If you get some chain letter that's threatening to leave you shagless or luckless for the rest of your life, delete it.

If it's funny, send it on.

Don't piss people off by making them feel guilty about a leper in Botswana with no teeth who has been tied to the arse of a dead elephant for 27 years and whose only salvation is the 5 cents per letter he'll receive if you forward this email.

Now forward this to everyone you know. Otherwise, tomorrow morning your underwear will turn carnivorous and will consume your genitals.

Have a nice day.

Billy Connolly

P.S: Send me 15 bucks and then fuck off

Tuesday, December 30, 2008

day in.. day out..

another day in office!! and ts already 30th december.. tomorrow will be the last day of 2008.. its NEW YEAR!! so.. apa azam anda untuk tahun 2009? bagi saya, azam saya masih sama.. menjadi yang terbaik mungkin dan berdisiplin dan juga berusqha menurunkan erat badan seperti sebelum saya masuk kerja di Iktisas Environment iaitu XXkg.. untuk pengetahuan diri sendiri.. semenjak bekerja di Iktisas, berat badan saya dengan jayanya telah meningkat sebanyak 20kg... (yeah.. am a big loser.. i know..)

so, as for me.. the determination and purpose for 2009 will be about improvement in live, career, iman and taqwa also!! how am I gonna achieved it? hurmm.. lets see..
- career - find new job with salary RM26++
- iman & taqwa - will have to change myself.. (makin tua dah.. muhasabah diri lah sikit.. tak takur neraka ker??)
- life - will have to find my MR. RIGHT.. aiyaakk.. (ini yang paling.. super duper susah nak dicarik)
- weight!!! - diets and exercises! herbalife ker? or maybe... just exercise will do? will consult the dietitians later.. ahaha
(no.. no.. consult yong adilah and atiyah is okay..)

what ever lah kan.. anyway.. everybody need some changes in their life... positive or negative.. we ourselves must choose carefully.. me also want a changes in my life.. make it slow and steady.. tak boleh juga kan nak adopt rapid changes.. its not good to our surroundng, environment and most importantly.. ourself.. so, any changes that will have to take place must be done slowly.. slowly.. and finally, it is done.. ahahaha (this one is just an advice for me.. myself)

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eh.. last few days, i watched movies with ADIK.. we watched HISTERIA and BEDTIME STORIES.. mula2 tuh.. tgk histeria dulu pukul 9.30malam.. habis dalam jam 11.05malam.. then, kitorang lepak-lepak sambil menunggu our 2nd movie.. bedtime stories.. by adam sandler.. start pukul 11.45malam dan habis pada jam 1.30pagi.. dah lama tak tengok wayang.. so, alang2 dah kelaur.. baik tengok 2 wayang terus.. ahaha

comment on histeria - okaylah.. tak lah seram sangat.. cerita die actually simple.. not very simple.. but, bile kita tgk setengah jalan.. dah boleh agak who is actually owned that jembalang busut.. takut-takut jugak mula2.. but.. tengah2 cerita tuh.. okay laa.. tapi yang pastinya.. ADIK TAK NAK MASUK SEKOLAH ASRAMA..

bedtime stories - normal.. mmg kalau adam sandler yang berlakon.. cerita tuh akan jadi sangat best, funny, hilarious and awesome.. best sangat2.. cute.. ahaha.. definitely recommended..

Monday, December 29, 2008

MICHAEL JACKSON convert to ISLAM...



November 21, 2008 13:02 IST
Last Updated: November 21, 2008 13:12 IST

Michael Jackson has converted to Islam and changed his name to Mikaeel.

The 50-year-old star, pledged his allegiance to the Koran in a ceremony at a friend's mansion in Los Angeles, the Sun reported.

Jackson sat on the floor wearing a tiny hat after an Imam was summoned to officiate -- days before the singer is due to appear at London's [Images] High Court where he is being sued by an Arab Sheik, the paper said.

The star decided to adopt the new religion while he was recording a song at the home of his friend where a Jehovah's witness was brought up to help him through the ceremony.

*
The Court Of The Dancin' King

Apparently, the Beat It star was convinced by his producer and songwriter friends David Wharnsby and Phillip Bubal.

"They began talking to him about their beliefs, and how they thought they had become better people after they converted. Michael soon began warming to the idea. An Imam was summoned from the mosque and Michael went through the shahada, which is the Muslim declaration of belief," the source revealed.

Mikaeel is the name of one of Allah's angels.

*Where have Michael's millions gone?

"Jacko rejected an alternative name, Mustafa meaning "the chosen one", the source added.

The singer, who rarely ventures out without a mask, is due to give evidence on Monday in a 4.7 million pound lawsuit brought by Prince Abdulla Al-Khalif of Bahrain for defaulting on an exclusive recording contract.

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wooww... so.. i really dont know what to comment with this one!! shocking..

Friday, December 26, 2008

friends forever..

today, i met yong adilah and ridha together with their kids.. raniah husna & aliah husna.. comelnya anak2 hang yong!!! I LIKE~
last night i spent time at office until 10pm and then, when i went home.. i cannot sleep.. so i continued with my report writing until.. dont know what time actually.. i just woke up in the morning at 10am, when yong call.. aiyaahh.. another late day to office.. so, i thought they will cut my half day salary already.. so, better today be half day in office.. so, i decided to go meet up with yong at One Utama.. ahaha.. best.. i love it.. i love seeing yong and family.. love going to one utama.. sales here and there.. the only missing things is MONEY.. aiyaa.. kecilnya gajiku... tak mampu aku nak membeli belah walaupon pada waktu ada jualan murah gila-gilaan.. pakai kad kredit kang.. haaa..

anyway.. its great to met yong and family tadi.. tp, so sorry i didnt give anything to her daughters.. uhhuhu.. nanti auntie us beli eh.. gambar pon lupa nak amek.. aduihh.. si clumsy.. totally forgot.. *sigh* bad, bad me

not to forget.. atiyah was also there too... ehehe.. best2.. aku suka jumpa kawan2 studioku... lebih2 lagi kalau beramai2.. waahh.. suka bangat.. minta maaf bos.. bukan saya sengaja mahu skip kerja dan pergi beronggeng.. tapi, saya terniat dan ape yang diniatkan.. mesti la nak dijadikan kenyataan.. ahahahah

yong's hubby.. ridha, belanja we all makan kat ITALIANNIES.. pasta, pizza and salad.. sedap giler.. seriously.. the prize not that expensive.. standar for that kind of restaurant.. but the pizza and salad is smashing.. sedap.. boleh makan lagi.. ehe..

Thursday, December 25, 2008

merry xmas... but still am at work!!

its 25th dec.. and its christmas.. well, eventhough muslims dont celebrate xmas.. at least all of us get to stay at home whole day.. its a holiday!! yeay.. (NOT!!)
i know.. i know.. been posting here in this blog for 3 times already.. yeah.. its my 3rd posts for today!!! its all because... I am here in this office!!! i have to work on holiday!! yayyy ME!!! i really have no mood.. deklin is throwing birthday party for her daughter in the evening.. tasha..(she turns 4 tomorrow.. but today is holiday aite.. everybody will be able to attend.. except me!)

the clock show.. its 7.15pm already.. its a holiday.. and its almost night.. and am still here in office.. wait.. wait...
why am I so sad? if im not in office, i will be at home or maybe at deklin's house.. if i'm at home.. it will be worst rite? i will have to do all the chores.. those brothers of mine would not bother to help.. so, its better to be OUT of the house!! but definitely NOT IN OFFICE!!! waaaaa...

sometimes.. I have not written much and it seems words do not come easily, probably because there is too much I would want to say. the things that came out if just how i felt in office.. which means.. its all about anger and hatred.. oh dear.. I really need to be thankful oh God!! Ya Allah...

Time, for yourself, for being alone in your heart of heart... try doing this a little while ago.. it is very relaxing.. after i came back, at least I can come to work with some sort of peace in my head.. and definitely, there is nothing wrong in doing anything to "muhasabah diri".

I dont know where I did I got this.. but, its fun to read..

Is it bad to take some time for yourself, to be alone in your heart of heart? is it selfish to spend a moment just to listen to the inner voice that knows all answers but that we are not listening to? Certainly not! But how difficult it is to do when we let the daily grind, stress and frenetic activities cover the sweet sound of our inner voice.

Finding Your Answer
Take a walk to a lake or other place at sunrise. As you walk along the shore, or sit quietly, imagine your thoughts being carried on the sun rays, lifted up and getting closer to the angels. Visualize the situation and the answer that you seek. Believe that you have received. Leave your worries with the angels and walk back to your life. Listen to your inner voice. Sooner or later things will unfold and you will find your answer.

Getting Closure for your Situation
In a similar manner, take a walk to a lake or other place at sundown. As you walk along the shore, or sit quietly, imagine your thoughts getting into the heart of the sun. Visualize the situation melting away. Feel the weight being removed from your shoulders. Take a deep breath, feel how easier it is. As the sun sets, visualize the situation, gone in ashes. You are now free to walk back to your life, lighter and relieved. Have no worries for soon, you will see a difference in your life.

You do not have to take my word for it, just try for yourself...

THE DREAM IS STILL ALIVE....

SOMETIMES CERTAIN SONGS, ONCE HEARD, JUST FOLLOW YOU THROUGH LIFE, THIS IS ONE OF THESE FOR ME.

NEVER,EVER, GIVE UP ON YOUR DREAMS!!!!! CAUSE WHEN YOU DO, YOU STOP BELIEVING IN YOURSELF..*SIGH* VISUALIZE THEM, IMAGINE THEM, CREATE YOUR DREAMS AND MAKE THEM HAPPEN.

song from GREENDAY.. I just looveee greenday..
Time of ur life..
Another turning point;
A fork stuck in the road.
Time grabs you by the wrist;
Directs you where to go.

So make the best of this task and don't ask why.
It's not a question but a lesson learned in time.
It's something unpredictable
But in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

So take the photographs
And still frames in your mind.
Hang it on a shelf
In good health and good time.

Tattoos of memories
And dead skin on trial.
For what it's worth,
It was worth all the while.

It's something unpredictable
But in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.


and ths one..
the dream is still alive.. from.. (i dont remember..)

Not so long ago we were so in phase
You and I could never forget the days
But then the fire seemed to flicker
Cold wind came and it carried us away
But well get back someday, baby

The dream is still alive
Look here in my eyes
Can you see what Im feeling?
The dream is still alive
The one of you and i
And my heartache is healing
I couldnt let it die
No I knew it would survive
The dream is still alive

Not so long ago in a purple haze
People dreamed out loud they were not afraid
They stopped the war but not the dying
Some got a little bit lost along the way
But somehow were here today
And we say

The dream is still alive
After all this time
The flame keeps on burning
The dream is still alive
The one of you and I
And my heartache is healing
I couldnt let it die
No I knew it would survive
The dream is, the dream is still alive

Oh yeah..

The dream is still alive
Look here in my eyes
Can you see what Im feeling
The dream is still alive
The one of you and i
And my heartache is healing
I couldnt let it die
For all the times we tried
The dream is still alive...

question of live..

suddenly this question came up in my mind..

IF YOU COULD TURN BACK TIME.. WHAT WOULD YOU SAY TO YOUR YOUNGER SELF?

as of for me.. well, i have no idea.. absolutely no idea.. ohh my.. should i say..
-hey dont do town planning for ur degree.. u should be working with ur dad.. it will be much better in terms of salary and working hours..
-stop being such a stupid and lazy bump!! go to work and do it seriously..
or maybe..
-STOP EATING!! u already weight a horse!!
maybe.. ermmm
- ermmmmmm..

i really have no idea.. perhaps, i have too much to say.. that i dont know how to elaborate here..

Wednesday, December 17, 2008

rise & shine.. sunshine!!

I find it very hard to wake up in the morning every day... (ehehe.. bangang kan).. but, seriously.. every single morning.. I'm not sure whether it is because of my bed (comfy giler) or is it me?? (pemalas giler) or is it the environment of my office? (alasan).. but its a good reason for me.. I'm not that happy.. I really dont know why.. but I just really really am not happy working here.. kadang-kadang rase kecewa sangat ngan idup ni tau.. rasa macam semua benda tak kena.. semua benda yang dihajatkan tak penah dapat..

well..

last week.. selangor kan cuti on thursday.. so, i brought my aunties, my cousins, bro and sis to Melaka Bandaraya Bersejarah.. before that my auntie, Makcik Roy who lived in Jitra, kedah visit us on hari raya haji.. said that he last went to melaka.. 15 years ago.. she really wants to go to melaka again.. maybe she have some kind of memories ..kenangan dolu2.. who knows la kan.. since, aku pon lame je rasernye tak berjalan.. ape salahnyer.. (minyak keta mak bagi.. bayar tol jer) so.. lets go!!!
kene pergi 2 kereta.. sebab 1 keta tak muat.. maklumlah.. besar2 dan sihat2.. dan juga ramai... my city and my bro's civic.. on the way to air keroh toll, ade segerombolan motor2 besar.. woww.. bikers.. really cool.. how i wish i'm riding that big bike with them.. zaman muda.. bukan lagi..

okay, keluar ke air keroh toll plaza.. terus ke arah kota melaka.. silap masuk jalan.. i'm supposed to go left into jalan bendahara.. tapi i went right instead.. i end up on jalan munshi abdullah.. (ingat kat penang jer ade munshi abdullah or KL?).. so, pusing2 ntah kemana.. tak ape lah.. nama pon jalan2.. strolling along the roads.. masuk celah2 bangunan.. kalau tak sesat, u dont know the real face of melaka.. bila sesat.. boleh tengok2 keadaan kat sana.. time tu diorang tak cuti kan.. okay lah.. jalan2 keta mmg banyak.. jem gak nak masuk melaka.. sampai.. parking kat tepi dataran pahlawan...



siott betul.. diorang ingat semua org tau ker yang kene bayar parking.. kalau tak ade signboard ke ape ke.. mana la org tau yg kene pegi beli kupon letak kereta dulu.. bangang.. kan dah kene saman.. pedulikan... ape diorang ingat aku penah bayar ke saman parking.. stupid, as*ho**... menci aku.. menciiiii


adik, makteh ngan amir naik beca.. kitorang amek yang package.. (package laaaa) RM40 untuk 1jam... semua sekali ade 6 beca yang disewa.. aku naik sorang la.. kesian pakcik tuh bawak aku.. sorry pakcik adi... ehehehe... dlm 1 jam tuh.. diorang bawak jalan2 ke masjid keling, makam hang jebat, makam hang kasturi.. rumah baba & nyonya.. banyak lagi la tempat yang sempat dibawa dlm masa 1 jam.. bagus jugak.. kalau tak naik beca, harap nak carik sendiri. mmg tak jumpe la.. ingat nak pegi jonker street.. tapi, jongker street tu alive malam jer.. hurmm..



best gak la.. banyak sangat gambar kalau nak letak ni.. hermm...

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

clinton loves tun mahathir.. BETUL!!

See what Clinton said about Tun Dr Mahathir Mohd.

http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2008/12/9/focus/2756367&sec=focus

"But what Clinton revealed about Tun Dr Mahathir Mohamad was more interesting. He listed down the names of leaders he admired during his term as US president.

They included South Africa’s Nelson Mandela, Palestine’s Yasser Arafat and China’s Jiang Zemin."

“And certainly, Dr Mahathir. He did the right thing (in pegging the ringgit) during the 1997 financial crisis. His model worked, not necessarily elsewhere, but certainly he did the right thing.”

Clinton said he used to discuss about Dr Mahathir at the White House with his advisers and sometimes told them that they were not practical (when they touched on politics and economics) “because you guys have never run for office.”

Funny how some Malaysians are worshipping Lee Kuan Yew and condemning all what you have done before. The funnier thing is, all those LKY's worshipper from Malaysia are 100% Chinese. These people their brain just can't accept a Malay leader can be good and lead them, although they know some things that you have done are just brilliant. See all those comments in Malaysia Today, almost all comments are arrogant and sound racist condemning the Malays and Islam.

My point is, our race relations in Malaysia is getting worst day by day. Now people are brave enough to use racist remarks openly and insult our religion but the government are doing nothing about it. This is one of the major things that Najib should look onto when he take over. And Tun you surely have some brilliant ideas to advise Najib. Please help this country before its getting worst.

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saya pon suka tun mahathir.. suka sangat.. semoga tun sentiasa bahagia dan diberkati.. insyaAllah.. amiinn..

Tuesday, December 9, 2008

aidiladha..

patutnye dah post masa rayer .. tapi lupa.. post je la...

eheheh.. selamat hari raya aidiladha.. korban ape yer tahun ni? ermm.. tak ade ape2 yang terlintas plak dlm kepala otak nih.. ape yang aku korbankan tahun ni.. aku tambah berat ade lah.. aku korbankan kerja kat crest builder dan dtg keje kat iktisas.. maybe that the one laa kot pengorbanan aku thn ni.. ermm.. entah laaa...

Friday, December 5, 2008

dalam kesejukan


kenapalah sejuk sangat ofis ni.. aku ni badan besar, tapi masih aku yang terasa sangat sejuk.. yang lain tak raser sejuk pon.. rilek jer.. aduiihh.. nak kebas dah jari jemari aku ni.. kaki pon same.. ishk22...

dulu, masa aku muda2 dulu.. aku slalu tulis ayat2 ataupon kata-kata yang aku rasa jiwang.. pada pandangan aku laa..

hidup ni selalu tak adil kan, tapi kita tak ada pilihan but to get through it with all our strength.. but then, we will always stumble and fall.. that is why we have to be very very strong and tough to get up and stand again.. stand on our own little feet.. (mine, besar gak la.. size 8 tuu) if we are not strong enough, we may not have the ability to live this horrible or unfair life the we had..
for some people, life seems so easy on them.. they get what they want.. they succeed in their career, life, marriage.. perhaps, they also make thousands per month.. but deep inside their heart, are they happy with their life? are they satisfied with their accomplishments? do they get to feel the real and true meaning of life? for me, to really understand the meaning and to feel the beauty of life is by going trough all the rough and hard edges.. at some point, maybe life allows u to lay back a while and at some point, the current of the life become so strong that u will be washed away.. but in the end, we finally arrive at our destination, with all the bruises, wounds here and there.. maybe the wounds still bleeding, the bruises still giving such pain.. the pain that we can barely stand.. embrace the pain!!! ganbatte!! we have no choice but to deal with it our self..

when we settle down.. take our own sweet time enjoying the beauty of life, the bruises and wound that we once had will literally shaped u.. they will create our personality, that bruises and wound will make u a better person.. hope so.. that bruises will become the colours in ur life.. which u will appreciate it very much later.. for those who get to the destinations safe and sound, without all the wounds, bruises.. for me, they missed something useful.. something important in our own self.. we are gonna be just like we.. some people need to be pushed to be a better person.. but some people just like them self as the way they are.. its okay though... ahahah.. what am i saying..
i am so damn bored in office.. i need to rush the report and plans for rt kajang.. but, im typing some stupid things here.. yeahh.. i know.. i need a break from my life.. hopefully a long break.. holidays maybe.. bungee jumping.. sky diving.. something that can ripped my heart or my brain off.. (nauzubillah... tak bermaksud yang bukan-bukan..)

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

life is wonderful..

LIFE IS WONDERFUL by Jason mraz

It takes a crane to build a crane
It takes two floors to make a story
It takes an egg to make a hen
It takes a hen to make an egg
There is no end to what I'm saying

It takes a thought to make a word
And it takes some words to make an action
It takes some work to make it work
It takes some good to make it hurt
It takes some bad for satisfaction

La la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la la life goes full circle
Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Al la la la la

It takes a night to make it dawn
And it takes a day to make you yawn brother
And it takes some old to make you young
It takes some cold to know the sun
It takes the one to have the other

And it takes no time to fall in love
But it takes you years to know what love is
It takes some fears to make you trust
It takes those tears to make it rust
It takes the dust to have it polished

Ha la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la la life goes full circle
Ah la la la la la la life is so full of
Ah la la la la la la life is so rough
Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la la life goes full circle
Ah la la la la la la life is our love
Ah la la la la la

It takes some silence to make sound
It takes a loss before you found it
And it takes a road to go nowhere
It takes a toll to make you care
It takes a hole to make a mountain

Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la la life goes full circle
Ha la la la la la life is wonderful
Ha la la la la la life is meaningful
Ha la la la la la life is wonderful
Ha la la la la la life it is...so... wonderful
It is so meaningful
It is so wonderful
It is meaningful
It is wonderful
It is meaningful
It goes full circle
Wonderful
Meaningful
Full circle
Wonderful

Monday, December 1, 2008

am so sad...



sedih sangat-sangat..... sedih sangat... tak dapat nak jadik cikgu tu.. harap sangat2... tpi tak ade rezeki.. terpaksala terima kenyataan..
memang la memula tuh tak meletak harapan yang tinggi sangat kat application ni.. yer lah, 1st time apply kan.. tapi, bile ramai orang yang offer bantuan, kata diorang boleh tolong.. (pakai kabel laa kirenyer).. tapi tak kisah lah.. kabel ke ape ke.. nak jadik cikgu jer.. bukannyer nak apply keje pegawai kat memana jabatan kerajaan.. jadi cikgu jer.. heeiisshh... sedih sangat biler pikir.. berharap sangat, tapi tak ade rezeki..

sedih sangat.. huhu.. masa memule check kat ofis, tgk selambe je die kuar.. "dukacita dimaklumkan anda tidak berjaya".. macam agak terkejut jer dan agak terkesima.. macam nak mengalir air mata jer.. tapi, takkan nak nangis.. malu jer.. tapi time tuh raser macam trus kepala sakit.. trus kepala raser macam berdenyut sangat hebat... pening kepala.. raser nak demam,.. trus terbatuk2.. (mmg dah tak bape sihat.. tapi bile tau.. macam serta merta demam).. bile tau jer.. trus call mak.. bgtau mak, tak dapat jadi cikgu tuh la mak.. tak berjaya.. mak kate tak ape lah.. next year try lagi... cuma hati aku ni jer yang dapat bgtau macam mana aku kecewa dgn hidup aku ni sebenarnye...



mak kate mak mmg tak ade kenal sesiapa dlm kementerian atau jabatan.. so, tak boleh la mak nak tolong.. tapi mak kan pengetua.. tah la.. tak ape.. bukan rezeki aku.. sepupu aku try 3 kali baru dapat.... tak ape lahh.. yusyaila.. sabar.. kene banyak sabar kan yusyaila.. rezeki masing2.. terima lah sumer ni dgn hati yang tabah... insyaAllah...

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

25th birthday





dah tua lagi setahun sudah!!!


ade satayy... yayy.. makan2.. lagi la besarr... ahahahahaha

thanks for all the birthday wishes yer kawan2..

birthday...

25 nov.. my 25th birthday!! i'm getting old and older.. oh myy.. and im still single!!!! (i dont really know to be happy or sad??) but after all.. I'm okay with everything.. thankx to all my friends.. yang masih ingat birthday aku.. Ina, Atiyah, Kak Ita, Linda, yanti, Jaja / Fazli, aziah, amir, saizatul, ayam, zul, zaime.. ali, dan ramai lagi.. thanks for the wish and memory... ehehe.. sama2 lah kite berdoa dan berharap dgn usia yang makin meningkat ni.. kite pon makin matang dan sentiasa diberkati.. InsyaAllah..


Dapatkan Mesej Bergambar di Sini


comel jer kan mende ni... well.. last week, bawak adik pegi tgk wayang.. citer madagascar2.. pastu kuar je cinema tuh.. ade fish spa.. rm7 for 15minutes.. ehehe.. mule2 geli giler.. pastu dah lama2 tuh macam okay jer.. layan~~






best jer.. rase la kaki macam lembut, macam yang keras2 tuh tak ade sehari.. abang yang jaga kedai tuh cakap.. kulit mati ni kan ade hari2.. so, eloknyer buat mende ni.. (fish spa ni) semiggu sekali.. tapi biler pikir balik, baik kite beli jer ikan nih kan... ikan cincin nama ikan ni.. oleh carik tuh.. ade sesape uang tau mana nak beli ikan ni?? bgtau ehh..

Friday, November 21, 2008

sakit gigi..

well, just now, I had an appointment with dentist, Dr.Nik at Klinik Fauziah located at melawati... i spent rm280 for bleaching and ceiling 4 tooth.. ehehehe... gigi saya teruk la... berlubang sana sini.. ade 4 gigi tadi die tampal.. alang2 die tampal je memana yang rosak.. yang mmg perasan rosak dan sakit selama ni ade 1 jer.. biler pegi check.. woaa.. ade 4 gigi berlubang maaa... ahahahah.. sakit.. sakittt.. adehh.. poket pon sakit gak.. pinjam duit mak dulu..
pau duit rayer adik jugak.. kesian adik.. duit rayer die ade lah rm 500 kot.. aku dah pau setengah.. ahahaha.. nanti angah ganti la balik adik kan.. eheheh
nak rush la hari ni.. malas plak dok ofis.. ade keje lain lagi yg kene selesaikan.. kene balik umah dulu.. amek barang.. adiok pon dah marah2.. ehehe.. janji nak bawak die pegi tgk wayang dah bape minggu dah tangguh.. ehehe.. jgn marah ye adik.. jom kite balik jom..

Wednesday, November 19, 2008





pegi P.D.. teluk kemang.. nak makan.. lapar.. cantik plak view kol 6.30ptg..

occupied..

benci.. benci!!! bencinya!!!!!!!
geram tau ngan bos nih.. die dah la lembab.. masuk lambat.. pastu kalut2 keje nak kene siapkan.. tak boleh nyer.. tak retinya nak kerja ngan orang macam nii!!! geram!! tunggu je lah bulan 12 ni.. kalau tak dapat jadi cikgu tuh pon, aku masuk kerja ngan crest builder balik.. kalau tak pon. aku nak paksa yap chin chon terima aku kerja kat company baru die.. huhuhuhu

what a life i had??

adik dah masuk hari ke-6 demam denggi. dah bape kali amik darah.. kesian budak kecik tuh.. pastu last week pon, tok masuk wad.. pon sebab kencing manis lagi.. aduuiihh.. penat jer rasernyer.. drive pegi p.d sejam.. dok kat spital 2 jam.. amek tok balik.. aku tak tau mase nak pegi tuh aku bengang ngan ape eh.. tapi aku geram betul.. keta dah la banyak.. ade plak 2, 3 keta konon laju la sangat.. bagi2 lampu.. keta banyak.. kalau laju macam mana pon ko sangkut gak.. geram sangat.. bagi2 lampu.. bagi can potong, pastu aku ikut ko plak.. ahaha.. main2 ngan aku.. time aku tgh bengang silap laa ko bagi2 lampu.. aku bawak kancil pon aku kejar ko.. tapi, kalau bawak city aku ni.. mati la ko.. ape guna aku pakai keta honda kalau tak boleh kejar keta org lain.. huhuhuu..

aduhh.. tension.. tgk the nanny.. hallmark channel.. die asyok menekankan..
"dont u feel sorry for urself when u r 25, single and still live with ur parent???"
ahahah.. kene batang idung aku.. aduihhh.. sakit
sakittt

Friday, November 7, 2008

happy 56th birthday, babah..

ahaha.. totally forgot to put this inside here.. babah menyambut hari lahir yang ke 56 4 nov hari tuh... tak ade la sambut beriyer.. cukup dengan sebijik kek coklat yang dari pistachios.. pastu babah suke kfc.. so beli la satu barrel ngan 3 pizza dominos yang regular tuh.. nak kate ramai tak ade lah ramai.. kami sekeluarga 7 orang, tok, makteh, longlia, kak shun dan anak2.. mak lang, tok njang.. sape lagi eh...



pastu malam tadi, pak ngah (abang babah yang nombor 2.. babah ade 12 adik beradik.. babah nombor 4 kot)buat birthday.. kenduri la yang ke berapa tak pasti.. tapi, die buat besar2.. ade khemah lagi.. aku tanye babah, "babah nak ke buat kenduri macam nih?.. besar2.. buat khemah?" babah tergelak jer.. babah kate "tak payah la nak buat sampai macam ni.. kalau buat kenduri tahlil tak ape.. sambut birthday buiat ape? nanti orang tau la babah dah tua.."
okay... babah manade tua lagi.. lek je lagi.. rambut jer dah putih.. tapi babah still macho macam dulu.. hurmm.. aku ingat lagi masa aku belajar kat uia dulu.. disebabkan umah dekat ngan uni, maka ramailah yang penah datang umah aku.. yer la.. kawan2 yang lain umah jauh2.. nak balik kerap2 tak ley.. so, kalau ade yang sudi tuh.. lepak laa umah aku.. aku pon suke orang datang umah aku... family aku.. (kecuali abang) pon suke orang datang umah.. orang yang datang tuh membawa rezeki.. even peminta sedekah tuh pon sebenarnye.. tapi kalau peminta sedekah tuh dah tiap2 minggu datang mintak sedekah apahal plak kan.. tak reti carik keje ke? sihat walafiat.. sempurna fizikal dan sifat.. anak siap berderet2.. bila mak aku tanye, diorg kate laki die masuk dalam.. kalau tak pon.. laki die balik negeri.. hisshh.. laki asyik kat dalam, asyik blk negeri.. tapi production anak macam productive jer...

melalut.. haa.. ade je kawan2 aku yang cakap babah handsome.. handsome ker? sebab aku slalu sgt tengok kot.. aku pon tak tau nak define handsome tuh.. yer la.. babah ade darah pakistan.. arwah babah kepada babah.. nama Meeralan, berasal dari................... alamak.. aku dah lupa nama kampung babah.. tapi yang pastinye.. die kene lalau Abbottabad, Peshawal... kampung babah.. kawasan gunung.. cantik sangat.. tapi masa kitorang pegi dulu, tgh musim sejuk.. so, pokok2 sumer takde daun la.. gunung pon nampak coklat jer.. tak ade tumbuhan.. tapi masa babah pegi musim bunga.. (babah suka jalan sorang2.. senang katanye) babah balik kampung untuk memperelokkan kubur babah kepada babah.. cantiikkk... bunga warna warni kat kawasan kampung / pergunungan tuh.. kalau tgk citer hindustan, yang the location took place at hilly areas.. macam tuh la.. memang cantik.. tak ade rezeki nak pegi time gituh lagi.. macam Murree.. tempat pelancongan dekat2 ngan kampung babah.. cantiknyee.. banyak filem hindustan buat kat situ.. dengan hamparan bunga.. subhanallah..

babah tak macam orang lain.. babah dah mula hidup sendiri masa umur 13 tahun.. babah sekolah takat tuh jer.. lepas tuh.. babah kerja sendiri.. family babah mmg asal dari KL.. atuk tuh dtg kl sebab ape ntah.. kata pakcik2 tu, atuk datang malaysia dulu sebab kene kerah buat landasan keretapi.. dont remember exactly why.. but then, atuk sakit masa babah umur 12 thn.. lepas tuh, bile atuk baik sikit.. atuk trus nak balik kampung die.. die beli 2 tiket.. satu untuk atuk.. lagi satu untuk babah.. sebab, kata nenek.. babah yang paling rapat dengan atuk.. pakngah yang paling handsome, so kerja die melaram jer.. rambut sentiasa disikat.. ahaha.. hari yang atuk nak balik tuh.. nenek kunci babah dlm bilik ke kolong yer.. (ishk.. teruk betul memori ni) nenek tak kasik atuk bawak balik babah.. pastu adik beradik yang lain (yang kisah je la) ade yang jeles tak kasik babah ikut atuk balik.. diorang pon join same kunci pastu tak kasik babah ikut.. so, in the end.. atuk balik laa sensorang.. babah merajuk dan nenek mungkin tak larat nak bela anak 12 org sendiri kot.. babah pon lari dari umah.. bawak haluan sendiri..

babah kate kerja ape yang babah tak pernah buat.. daripada deliver taik lembu buat baja dari umah ke rumah.. masa tuh babah kate die deliver kat area jalan gurney ngan mana lagi tah.. umah besar2.. umur babah 15 tahun, babah kerja kat construction site.. jadi buruh kasar.. masa tuh PKNS punye.. dato' azmi khalid kot masa tuh, babah kerja mmg kuat.. kalau org lain buat satu kerja dlam masa 3 hari.. babah boleh buat 3 kerja dalam masa 1 hari.. so.. dato azmi khalid tgk babah potential sangat2.. die antar babah sambung belajar kat mara rasernye.. babah dpt sijil draftman.. umur 17, babah kerja ngan PKNS... umur 25 babah kawin ngan mak.. masa tuh mak umur 23.. mak baru abis belajar kat UM.. babah ngan mak jumpe masa babah ikut sepupu mak (masa tuh babah berkawan ngan sepupu mak) balik kampung kat kedah.. kat kampung tuh la mak ngan babah jumpe.. lepas tuh.. bile mak balik ke UM jumpe la kat kl.. alhamdulillah.. panjang jodoh mak ngan babah.. mak slalu cerita setiap kali keluar ngan babah, babah akan bawak 2ringgit.. 50sen untuk isi minyak motor vespa babah, 50sen makan roti canai ngan teh.. lagi 50sen tak ingat.. lagi 50sen simpan untuk isi minyak pegi kerja esok..
babah sangat determined orangnya.. dedicated (sebab tuh bile aku malas pegi kerja.. marah betul die) ahahaa.. dan yang aku paling pasti, babah sangat2 sayangkan mak.. kalau aku ade bergaduh atau salah faham ngan mak, babah pon akan marah kat aku gak.. (aku tak tau aku perlu rase sedih ke atau happy).. bayangkan laa.. dripada tak ade ape2, skrg babah boleh bagi anak2 die kereta.. bagi anak2 die makan sampai gemukk haa.. sekolahkan anak2 die sampai kolej.. universiti.. babah btol2 start dari zero.. skrg babah ade everything yang babah tak penah mimpi babah akan ade.. tak heran kalau babah marah org muda tapi tak kerja, org yg lembab.. org yg suka tido, org yg suka lepak tak tentu hala.. sebab babah dari kecik hidup susah.. kerja banting tulang.. anak2 babah tak raser ape yang babah rasa, tak ade pengalaman macam babah.. sebab tuh anak2 babah take things for granted.. babah dah sediakan segala2nya cukup.. sebab tuh anak2 babah tak ade effort pon nak berusaha even 50% macam babah berusaha dulu... angah pon sama..
mak kate dulu2 babah ingat orang yang berduit mandi ngan air oren.. sebab tuh diorang cantik2.. ahahaha.. kite sekeluarga tak lah mewah.. tapi alhamdulillah.. cukup dan sederhana.. kita boleh tolong keluarga kita.. adik beradik mak pon 8 orang.. dan keluarga mak pon bukan dari keluarga yang senang.. ape yang kite ade skrg ni rezeki yang Allah bagi, dan mesti dikongsi sekeluarga.. babah ngan mak bukan jenis yang lokek.. ape yang boleh dibantu.. mesti mak ngan babah tolong..

ya Allah.. semoga babah ngan mak sentiasa mendapat keberkatan dari mu ya Allah.. semoga babah ngan mak sentiasa sihat dan dipanjangkan umur.. murah rezeki.. angah sebagai anak yang tak reti nak bersyukur ni.. mintak maaf sangat2.. insyaAllah.. angah akan sentiasa berusaha jadi anak yang baik..

Thursday, November 6, 2008

movie madness

been downloading movies from the net.. awesome.. before this i never realizes that korean movies is actually very cool and awesome.. i love romantic comedy movies but sometimes i also love horror or thriller movies.. but not action.. like rambo -- james bond (yawwnn..)

so, rite now.. im enjoying korean movies..
1. too beautiful too lie
2. windstruck
3. my sassy girl
4. the art of seduction
5. Hensel & gretel (horror)
6. my little bride
7. he was cool

japanese
1. lovely compex
2. hero
3. waterboys
4. swing girls

while enjoying movies, really could help me ease my head.. i need a good laugh afterall.. i dont need anymore tears.. so.. if anybody have good comedy movies.. do let me know..

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

very tired.... *edited

* edited by me........

deleted.. just forget what ever that happened before.. it's basically my fault too.. i need to let go the anger and open my heart to see the positive things out of all the bad things that happened.. ini orang kate, fitrah hidup la kan.. nasib baik, nasib tak baik.. pasrah la.. selain tu, baiki la diri aku sendiri untuk jadi yang lebih baik... thnks to all yang baca and leave comments.. very appreciate that.. aku kene belajar bersyukur dgn ape yang aku ada.. terima kelemahan orang dan kelebihan orang.. i have to stop being so selfish.. i'll try my best..

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aku penat sangat sangat... aku penat.. macam mana aku nak hilangkan raser penat ni.. aku tak nak avoid everything in my life.. tapi aku dah tak larat nak berdepan dengan hidup aku sendiri.. i really dont know what should i do??? i am so damn tired.. very tired.....


shut up - blink 182
Shut the fuck up she said, I'm going fucking deaf
You're always too loud, everything's too loud
Now that all my friends left, this place is fucking dead
I wanna move out, when can we move out? This shit has got to stop

I'll run away

Get the fuck up, she said your life is meaningless
it's going nowhere, you're going nowhere
you're just a fuck-up, she said I'll live alone instead
she said you don't care, I know I don't care

I'll never ask permission from you,
fuck off I'm not listening to you
I'm not coming home, I'm never going to come back home

I got too fucked up again, and passed out on the plane
Tried to forget you, i can't forget you
No sleep on this flight, I'll think about the nights
we had to get through, how did we get through?

I'll never ask permission from you,
fuck off I'm not listening to you
I'm not coming home, I'm never going to come back home

I'll run away
I think it's time that I should leave
I think it's time that I should leave
I think it's time that I should leave
I think it's time that I should leave

I'll never ask permission from you,
fuck off i'm not listening to you
I'm not coming home, I'm never going to come back home

I'll run away
I think it's time for me to leave
I think it's time for me to leave
I think it's time for me to leave
I think it's time for me to leave

Monday, November 3, 2008

perwatakan keluargaku... (hiburan semata2)

babah saya.. yunus meeralan, lahir 4 nov 1952
(Selasa, 16 Safar 1372)
SAFAR
Tabiatnya buruk. Dia tidak suka mengakui kesalahannya. lbubapanya perlu mendidiknya bagi menghilangkan tabiat buruk itu, jika tidak, kehidupannya akan menjadi susah di kemudian hari. Walaupun begitu, sekiranya dia melakukan sesuatu untuk kepentingan dirinya, selalunya ianya akan mendatangkan hasil.
(terbukti.. saya adalah anak babah saya... ahahahah.. and I AM PROUD!!)


mak saya.. che sham abdul, lahir 1 feb 1954
(isnin, 27 jamadil'awal1373)
JAMADIL AWAL
Dia mempunyai tingkat keyakinan yang tinggi. Dia berani dan nekad, kadangkala melakukan sesuatu yang bodoh atau bahaya. Walaupun begitu, keberanian dan tekadnya itu akan menunjukkan hasil usahanya, yang menemui kegagalan juga.
(mak ngan bangcik sama... ehehehe... kami anak2 mak dan babah)

abang saya ... yusyaimi yunus.. lahir 21 feb 1981
(Sabtu, 16 Rabiul'Awal 1401)
RABIULAKHIR
Perwatakannya jahat. Hatinya tidak tetap. Fikiran dan kemahuannya lemah, buruk nafsunya, kasar wataknya, mudah mengangkat tangannya. Kehidupannya menjadi sukar kerana tabiat buruknya itu. Ibubapa menempuh kesukaran dalam mendidiknya.
(no comment..)

adik lelaki saya.. yusyairi yunus lahir 1 jan 1988
(Jumaat, 11 Jamadil'awal 1408)
JAMADIL AWAL
Dia mempunyai tingkat keyakinan yang tinggi. Dia berani dan nekad, kadangkala melakukan sesuatu yang bodoh atau bahaya. Walaupun begitu, keberanian dan tekadnya itu akan menunjukkan hasil usahanya, yang menemui kegagalan juga.
(sama ngan mak.. so nothing can be commented)

adik perempuan saya.. yusyaireen yunus, lahir 9 julai 1998
(Khamis, 14 Rabiul'Awal 1419)
RABIULAWAL
Perwatakannya baik. Mungkin dia akan mendapat pangkat besar, menjadi orang berpengaruh atau kaya tanpa diduga. Dalam pekerjaan ramai yang suka. Sifat negatif dirinya termasuklah kurang sabar, hatinya keras dan mudah marah.
(patut tambah.. kuat merajuk.. suka mengadu.. batu api... ahahahhaahah)

nilai diri sendiri..

You entered: 25 / 11 / 1983

The conversion result is: Friday 20 Safar 1404 A.H.


kasih sayang mengikut bulan lahir..

November

- Cermat dan teliti dalam menjaga perhubungan.
- Amat berahsia dengan pasangan dan sesiapa.
- Agak degil dan kuat pendirian.
- Mudah ambil berat terhadap pasangan.
- Emosi yang mendalam.
- Perangai tidak dapat diramal terhadap pasangan.

http://cyberez-2u.com/index.php?option=com_content&task=view&id=2132&Itemid=56


Perilaku berdasarkan tarikh kelahiran islam

SAFAR
Tabiatnya buruk. Dia tidak suka mengakui kesalahannya. lbubapanya perlu mendidiknya bagi menghilangkan tabiat buruk itu, jika tidak, kehidupannya akan menjadi susah di kemudian hari. Walaupun begitu, sekiranya dia melakukan sesuatu untuk kepentingan dirinya, selalunya ianya akan mendatangkan hasil.
-----> ahahahahaha..... betul kot..

http://cyberez-2u.com/index.php?option=com_content&task=view&id=44&Itemid=56

the desire with anticipation

I am going crazy waiting for the DPLI result.. the result supposed to be out by early or to be accurate.. 3-5 December.. damn.. lambat gilerr.. menyampah dibuatnya nak menunggu result tu.. ishhkkk...

okay then... browse around rumah wangian.. nak sangat beli perfume.. tapi.. kewangan tak mengizinkan.. last month dah habis rm 300+ untuk perfume sahaja.. bulan ni.. aduihh.. cannot spend money on something like that anymore..

wish list perfume:

Vera Wang - Truly Pink, Princess
Anna Sui - Flight of fancy, Dreams
Elizabeth Arden - 5th Avenue, True Love
Salvatore Ferragamo - Incanto Heaven , F for ferragamo
J.Lo - Live Luxe, still, love at first glow
Armani - code, diamonds
narciso rodriguez for her
head over heels
YSl - elle
Thierry Mugler - angle, eau de star, lily
L by gwen stafanie

thats a lot isnt it? i really dont know when can i buy this whole things? i just love perfumess....
but.. i guess i just love to have them and keep them.. rarely use them.. once in a while when im feeling like flying, i definitely grab them and spray all over..

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Friday, October 31, 2008

headache, stress & PILLS..

I had a severe headache.. doctor said that it is due to my sinus.. I have no blood pressure problems, my heart pumping just right, no diabetes.. so the doctor.. DR. Hadi Abd Rahman (M.D.UKM) gave me 4 medication.. ROLETRA 10 - Loratadine ; PONSTAN 500mg ; MABRON-tramadol HCI and CERITEC.. he said he gave me a medication enough for 10 days.. after the medication finish, come to see him again.. and he will write me another prescription that suitable with my condition..

so, now.. I am in office.. trying to rush out the report for PULKA... with my head aching like hell.. I dont feel like talking to anybody.. neither my boss nor the admin OFFICER...I dont feel like looking at their faces.. I know my boss is very kind woman.. but I just cannot take it anymore.. she is very slow and loovvee to do last minute works.. this is what is basically wrong with me.. I dont have a heart to do this job anymore.. I'm mentally stress to be working here and working with this group of people.. I just can't take it anymore!!!

Do you know what it's like to feel so in the dark?
To dream about a life where you're the shining star
Even though it seems like it's too far away
I have to believe in myself, it's the only way...

anger.. sadness and tears..

"this is me.. this is real.. this is where i am supposed to be now.."

this song is soooo not for me rite now.. how I feel terrible and sorry for my own life!! please somebody please take me away from this hell!!!!!

its not that I hated Malays.. in fact.. I AM MALAY.. (well.. my dad is Pakistani and my mom is a Malay) so.. basically.. I am a Malay.. and I really don't know why I hate that fact.. I really hate working with Malays.. I mean the typical Malays.. backstabber.. hypocrites.. jealous, spiteful.. I really don't know why.. I really enjoyed working with non-Malays more.. they are more professional, relaxed yet very eficient.. no last minute work.. no staying up late at office..
its true that u have to work like 8.30am to 5.30pm non-stop... work your as* off.. kadang2 makan lunch pon tak sempat... nak duduk tarik napas dalam2 melepaskan lelah pon.. ishkkk... (bos nampak kite duduk tak ade kertas atau tak pandang komputer.. ade je die nak sound)..

tapi.. tu la.. MR. YAP CHIN CHON.... aduihh.. how I miss his voice.. screaming and yelling at me.. "Bulls*it.. f*ckoff YUS!! kepala u!! don't be soo STUPID!! U have to learn!!" how I miss those good old days... okay.. not just yelling.. but sometimes he will also give me a motivational talk.. which i still remember today.. which I still carry and hope that I will be good as him in this field.. he really knw how to get things going and moving.. how to push for approval.. I am such a junior... LOL

OKAY...

I clearly know that I can't ask for something else right now.. this is the life I've choosen.. but i was wrong!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! why am I always make wrong choices? stupid decision? literally.. I hate my life...

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

..lost of friend..

today, 29th Oct 2008.. my friend named Norashikin Alauddin or Ekin pass away due to leukemia.. she is my pal from secondary school.. in the same class for 3 years.. she was a very cool girl.. very optimistic and very understanding.. How I feel terrible for not spending more time with her.. after SPM in the year 2000.. I hardly see her.. or them (my ex-classmates).

I kept running away and keep on hiding from them.. never wanted them to see me again and have any kind of contacts with me.. but I guess I was wrong.. so damn wrong all this while.. i've been very selfish.. i've been very self-centered.. please forgive me my friends.. I know that I am not a very good friend.. maybe i am notgood enough to be someone friends..

I visited her once when rozai called me last week.. said that shikin was very critical and nurses advised to meet her when she is still awake.. but then, my other fren said yesterday that she is getting better.. her heart pumping just nice and she was recovering.. but.. who knows? Allah love her so much.. that He took shikin away..

Shikin, 25... Allah take her away as she is a very good girl.. while me.. myself.. also 25.. still need to bring this soul and get thru this life.. safe and sound.. can i really do that? sometimes i just feel that someone that pass away in their early age is very fortunate.. they have been taken away from this world, so that they will never do anything bad.. they cannot do any kind of sins.. maybe.. all the sins we have done in this world is enough to put us in hell and suffers.. maybe 25 years is enough..

but, we dont have the right to choose until when we are going to live this life.. its all already being written in our book.. which we cnanot read.. and we have to accept it.. by all means.. menerima qada' dan qadar..

semoga Allah tempatkan Shikin di kalangan orang2 yang dipelihara.. Al-Fatihah.. dan takziah untuk keluarganya..

painful deception


painful - causing pain or distress / feeling or giving pain. defined by the International Association for the Study of Pain (IASP) as "an unpleasant sensory and emotional experience associated with actual or potential tissue damage, or described in terms of such damage"

deception
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the act of deceiving / the fact or condition of being deceive. Deception (also called beguilement or subterfuge) is the act of convincing another to believe information that is not true, or not the whole truth as in certain types of half-truths.

painful deception ~ for me it means..
"kesan luka yang teramat dalam".
Satu kesakitan yang amat payah untuk diterima.. something hurtful and we were forced to believed and accept the pain.. not to say embrace 'em but somehow we really have to experience it once in a while.. so that we can be a better person.. or not..



Life is full of surprises… the kite u were flying might suddenly sail away…

Life is full of coincidences.. even two parallel line might meet..

Well, life is all about forgiveness and acceptance. We need to accept things in life and forgive things that run through our life. Yep... it is not easy but that the reality of what we must do in this life… hanya insan yang sempurna dapat memberi kemaafan kepada yang memerlukan.. Jadi macam mane dengan orang yang kurang sempurna? Perlu ke sentiasa hidup di selubungi dosa? May we always be blessed by Yang Maha ESA…

Heard some one said... ‘KITA BERJAYA KERANA KITA TIDAK LUPA PADA BUMI YANG DIPIJAK’ we succeed because we never forget where we belong to? Or because we never forget who we are? Hidup kita ni tak selalu bahagia, tak sentiasa indah.. sometimes.. macam2 bala akan datang menjenguk dan pada masa itulah, keupayaan dan kewarasan fikiran kita diuji sehabisnya.. hidup ni satu pementasan.. Everybody basically just playing a role.. Being a fake... why don’t all of us be true to ourself, be true to others.. be urself.. as that is the best thing that u might do in this stage of life.. u were given a chance to do so now.. later, u might not find a better chance than today..

Today.. I’m busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before.. so, it is recommended for us to Be careful of what we wish for.. there may be strings attached..

It happens all the time..

You need to let go of the hate and anger.. it does nothing but literally eat you up.. therefore it serves absolutely no purpose here.. and I know.. I also need to learn to forgive myself and stop blaming.. blaming myself and others for lives issues and events.. that too serves no purpose.. I deserve balanced and peace.. peace of mind to start making choices that can create and save whatever within my soul..

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

beginning of something new..

I just created this blog.. and maybe I'll wait for my creativity allows me to carve something in here.. I guess I will just have to wait.. as creativity is so not my middle name..

but.. better to start something new.. as ME.. nobody else and nothing else.. I really love myself and from now on.. everything is gonna be about ME and me only..